mixed, mixed, mixed

gw gak tau, am i supposed to be grateful being involved di tim kerja youth weekend fellowship, ato malah cursing all the way to hell. now i know things i'd rather not know. spt misalnya psgp. gw akhirnya sadar banget, when i was out, i was OUT. capitals. big. yup. out of touch. gak ada yg bother utk update2 gw on everything. anes nikah, i didn't know. psgp pergi ke yogya, i knew. tp keberangkatannya, gw gak tau. damn it. i thought i deserved at least some respect from them. or maybe it was just that fucking fashion designer. hmmm... kyknya gw musti jaga2 jarak ya, spt gak kecewa lagi.

on the other hand, gw seneng dgn tim kerja inti ywf ini. soalnya cukup kompak. pdhl sebagian itu baru gw kenal stlh gw balik lagi ke psgp. misalnya dips & alda. two of the most hard-working, intelligent girls i know in effatha. now i have more friends, dan gak usah terpaku banget sama psgp. perasaan yg sama yg gw dapet wkt gw ikutan jadi tim kerja acara pelatihan pengurus pemuda taon 94 dulu banget itu.