Wednesday, November 30, 2005

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Monday, November 28, 2005

Funny signs of Malaysia
















3 hari 3 malem di malaysia, dan hasilnya cuma foto2 spt di atas. hahahaha... no, other photos will be posted soon. foto2 di atas gw taro duluan soalnya rada unik, dan gak usah komentar2 yg aneh, jadi bisa gw upload lwt blogger. foto2 laen bakal gw taro di geocities, as usual. enjoy!

Sunday, November 27, 2005

pacaran (redux)

"Mungkin loe ngerasa nggak perlu pacar. Tapi loe udah pikir belom, klo nanti loe tua, siapa yg ngurusin loe? Kakak loe? Ipar loe? Ponakan loe?"

Kalimat-kalimat di atas muncul dari 1 temen gw, wkt gw ngobrol dgn dia di pim 2, kamis kmrn. Dan perkataan2nya emang bener. Dan gw emang udah pernah mikir jg. Tapi somehow, gw selalu berpikir klo gw gak bakal sampe di saat di mana gw menjadi sedemikian tuanya sampe perlu perhatian org lain. Yeah, it's that dying young thingy. I'm morbid. Sue me.

Dunno yah. It's kinda complicated. Seperti yg pernah gw blg di blog ini, miniatur gw yg berwarna merah, bertanduk, dan bertrisula, selalu muncul klo gw mulai mikirin ce, dan selalu berkata seperti begini: "HEH! GAK KAPOK LOE PACARAN?? SELALU DIREPOTIN CE YG NGAMBEG ATO NGOMEL2IN LOE MULU???" and he's right. Gw kapok.

Dan ada 1 masalah lagi yg juga bikin gw males utk pacaran. My parents. They're weird. Even I still haven't been able to comprehend them. Terus terang aja gw akhir2 ini semakin males spend time di rumah (or more precisely: spend time with them), sehingga every time a chance pops up to stay out, I'd stay out. Take sambolo, for example. I jumped at the chance, just like that.

It's just that I don't want to hurt my parents, and I don't want them to hurt anyone, namely, my girlfriend (if any, I should add).

Sooo, what's the verdict? I dunno. Maybe I someday when I'm a bit older, I should jump in front of a moving train or something. *sigh*

Monday, November 21, 2005

pacaran

klo gw jalan2 ke mall ato everywhere, pasti ktemu sepasang manusia yg jalannya mesra. entah gandengan ato glendotan (jatoh kali yak!), ato malah jalan sambil pelukan. pas ngliat, mau gak mau gw pny perasaan sirik. naturally lah. terus lgs mikir "wahhh enak ya klo punya pacar, bisa jalan berdua, mesra2an, or whatever couples do." tapi terus otak practical gw kicks in: "eh! reseh khan klo ce loe ngambeg ato marah2. gak inget wkt dulu2 heh?!?!" which is true. gw udah males ngadepin ce yg bakal marah2 ato ngambeg ato ngapain lah. apakah itu artinya gw cuma mo yg enak2? gak mo susah? mgkn gak segampang itu ya. based on experience, ce itu bisa marah2 tanpa sebab. my last two relationships taught me enough. well, one of those relationships wasn't even pacaran, for God's sake!

so here i am, enjoying life as it is. dgn gaya hidup gw yg semakin serampangan gini, gak mgkn jg gw to accomodate a person into my life. dan dgn prinsip gw yg gak mo susah ato repot, gak mgkn jg gw utk ngubah diri gw. well, never say never, i guess, but so far the practical me always wins! hahahaha...

Photos from Sambolo


pada rame2 nongkrongin tukang tato. gw sendiri sih mualesh ditato. useless.


gw lagi begaya. lengkap dgn kacamata ala morpheus 'matrix'. hahaha...

note: tadi gw sempet coba upload foto lgs ke google, gak lewat geocities. tapi gw sama sekali gak impressed. malah jadi sebel. mending balik ke awal deh.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

liburan yg menyenangkan!

wowwwwwww!!! baru balik dari 1-night vacation di sambolo, carita. bareng budi, ika, deden, renya, fannie, & rahmat. it was fun!!! bener2 liburan yg santaiii... gw bisa istirahat. dan gw sengaja gak bawa laptop tercinta ini, soalnya toh gw pikir di sana gak bakal bisa konek internet, so what's the point khan?

lucunya, liburan di pantai, tapi i didn't want to get wet. jadi sementara temen2 gw pada jebur2 di laut, gw tenang2 aja duduk di pantai, sambil motret2 mrk. begitu pula wkt mrk naek banana boat. i didn't want to be ribet, so i opted to stay behind. hey, my objective was to get some rest, okay! =P

Friday, November 18, 2005

can't wait...

can't wait. for kl? nooo... for christmas! natal! mood gw udah dlm mood natal gini. dan ini salah satu lagu natal fav gw yg berulang2 gw puter terus di ipod gw. penyanyinya? sapa lagi klo bukan point of grace. hehehe...


EMMANUEL, GOD WITH US / O COME, O COME EMMANUEL

She lit a candle in a downtown cathedral
Quietly confessing, counting on a blessing
She looked as if she had nowhere to go
I could see her weeping
Hands together hoping you would hear...

This is the time of year
We hold our families near
But God let us be a friend to the hurting

Oh Emmanuel, God with us
Spirit revealed in us
That we may be your hope to the world
Oh Emmanuel, God with us
With a light to break the darkness
That we may show your hope to the world
Emmanuel, God with us
Be God in us

I moved in closer just so I could see her face
Maybe she was a mother
Someone's only daughter
Her silver hair shimmered like the snow
Christmas bells were ringing
Now beside her kneeling I asked her name

(And she said)
This was the time of year
I had my family near
But they've all gone and I have been so lonely
(Chorus)

So with my family that Christmas day
A girl of sixty years would laugh and play
And as we watched her dance our eyes were full of tears...


a very good, touching song... dan thanks to this song, gw yg tadinya bt sama psgp, jadi tertantang lagi utk contribute something. if not thoughts, then at least my voice lah. after all, it's not about persons, it's about God. am i right or am i right?

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

nooooo, not again!?!?!

semalem gw terlibat dlm diskusi yg cukup engaging, sama yathi, dips, & ulie. topiknya adalah psgp. yeah, what else?!?! kita ber-4 are very, very concerned about the current status of psgp. the way it's handled. anggota2nya. pelatihnya. everything! dan dari diskusi tsb, gw rasa kita dapet bbrp kesimpulan yg bisa dipake oleh psgp.

but there's a problem: kita bukan pengurus. and that fashion designer is very unlikely to appreciate our thoughts. crazy, selfish, banyak gaya, smart-ass b*tch. hmph.

and there's a bigger problem: dari 4 orang yg diskusi semalem, yathi bakal balik ke palu for good. dips & ulie udah ngerencanain to move to greener pastures next year. and that leaves only me! ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!! obyektif awal gw wkt gabung lagi ke psgp adalah purely to sing. that's all. tapi skrg yg ada, gw harus berpikir dan berpikir. hmph. cape. ato jangan2 emang gw "disuruh" balik ke psgp utk nyumbangin pikiran gw ya... tapi masalahnya adalah i don't like the fashion designer, or at least the way she handles psgp. hmm.. melelahkan!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

HUAAAAAAAAAAA

spt yg gw blg di post gw sebelom ini, begitu msk kerja, gw lgs ngadepin banyak kerjaan. dan ini hasilnya: sabtu-minggu gw msk kerja! aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!! liburan lebaran kmrn itu, terus terang aja, lebih banyak ngerugiin dibanding bikin enak. kerjaan numpuk puk puk puk...

anyway. si yathi balik ke jkt, meskipun cuma sementara. dia bakal balik ke palu for good akhir bulan ini. that's very sad. i missed her already. one of my very dependable friends, enak diajak curhat, dan bisa nyambung. meskipun gw sering nyela2 dia. hehehe...

apa lagi yaa... otak gw udah kebakar nih. can't think of anything else to write...

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

hari terakhir liburan

ini hari terakhir liburan. dan begitu masuk kerja lagi, lgs ngadepin banyak banget kerjaan! hehehe..

so what have i been doing ya... let's see...

hari pertama liburan, check-in di peninsula, ngindarin takbiran. kasian ponakan gw soalnya. so-so lah, yg penting bisa tidur adem.

hari kedua, check-out, terus makan di shangri-la. undangan tante maxi & oom iwan. sedapppp...

hari ketiga itu hari... jumat ya... kok gw lupa... kyknya sih gak ngapa2in...

hari keempat, sabtu, gw nongkrong di aksara. i was disappointed, soalnya koneksi internet di sana jadi jelek banget. mgkn krn gratisan ya... tp dibandingin sebelum2nya gw ke sana, kmrn itu asli jelek banget! malemnya ada kebaktian gp di effatha. yg bikin kebaktian ini rada penting adalah ini kebaktian pertama setelah youth weekend fellowship. dan ternyata ada muka2 baru, yg ikutan di ywf, muncul di kebaktian ini. that was good.

minggu, i did nothing and went nowhere. tidurrrr! hahaha... oh, sore2 chatting sama kakak gw. kasian dia, kangen sama anaknya. untung gw udah bisa mecahin masalah koneksi m8.

senin, siang2 gw bengong. sore2 ktemu icha di pasaraya buat maen bowling. 3 games. and those were my 3 worst games, ever! gak tau, jelek banget gw wkt itu. sama sekali gak bisa strike! damn! tp plg gak, si icha bisa hepi dikit dah, soalnya menang dari gw, hahaha... di sana ktemu jg sama conya. yg ktnya cukup penasaran pengen tau gw kyk gmn. hahahaha... abis itu gw lgs ke effatha. gak ada lat ps, tp sebagian anak2 tim kerja ywf pd ngumpul, soalnya mrk abis presentasi. biasa lah, becanda gila2an. stlh kelar, gw, dips, & era makan di lapangan deket pskd/gki.

hari ini, gw gak ngapa2in. baru bangun jam 11! hahaha... tekad gw hari ini adalah manfaatin hari libur terakhir ini dgn istirahaaaaaaatttt....

so it'll end the whole week of day off...

Sunday, November 06, 2005

i'm connected again! wahoooo!!!

akhirnya gw bisa konek lagi ke vpn cbn m8 (say that eight times in a row)!!! setelah ngutak-ngatik sana sini, kok aneh... gw curiga dnsnya gak resolve. dan pas lagi stress2nya, sampe disable microsoft antispyware, terus liat2 zonealarm. lha, kok ada ip address utk cbn-vpn... gw masukin aja, gantiin "m8.cbn.net.id". voila! it's correct! lalala...

Saturday, November 05, 2005

lagi2 di aksara

berhubung fren gw lg ngambeg, gw terpaksa musti online di aksara nih. lagian utang foto ke kakak gw udah banyak banget. so, here i am, back in aksara. dan di tempat yg sama! bused dah, gw sampe creep out sendiri. dari sekian kali gw ke sini, pasti selalu di tempat yg sama. which is good, soalnya rada private.

sayangnya, they've made some changes to the wifi connection. different access point, kyknya. klo dulu namanya "aksara-back", skrg jadi "3com". terus dnsnya jadi dodol, soalnya banyak domain yg gak resolve. hmph. but it's still free, so i shouldn't complain. hehehe...

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

gw bt

hmmm... knp ya gw malah bt, pdhl ini hari terakhir sebelom libur seminggu? mgkn krn obrolan gw dgn dips tadi pagi, soal ramses? kyknya sih. it turned out some people can't take jokes, even from their supposedly friends. skrg gw jd mikir utk gak get close with anybody. males khan, klo gw sangka mrk temen gw, tapi ternyata gampang banget tersinggung.

ngomong2 soal friends, kmrn gw ngobrol cukup lama sama icha di telp. dia nanya: "loe pny temen deket gak, phen?" i thought, i thought, and i thought. the answer is no. none. gak ada yg bener2 deket. gak ada org yg bener2 tau semua secret gw.

so, should i put barriers?