Thursday, August 30, 2007

Today's birthday

30 Agustus:

- Patty

Happy birthday!!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

lazy, lazy,lazy

my other blog, i-did-this-for-a-living.blogspot.com, was originally meant as a medium for me to again have the feeling as a writer. unfortunately i've been to lazy to write in it. as of today, there are only 2 articles in it. *sigh*

but since i'm still unemployed, i should've more time to write anything. u know, to keep me sharp.

come on steve, u can do it! hahahaha...

Monday, August 27, 2007

make myself visible

wherever i go, whenever i see someone i know, i'd make an effort to say hi. everytime. jadi ini kadang2 bikin Citra bete, apalagi klo ke pim, soalnya hampir pasti gw ktemu org yg gw kenal di sana. hehehe... gak tau knp ya, gw ngerasa perlu aja utk nyapa, apalagi klo orgnya gw yakin tau, apalagi kenal. kcuali klo org yg gw sebel, ya gw gak bakal sapa. pasti lah.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Today's birthday

26 Agustus:

- Rani

Happy birthday!!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Today's birthday

25 Agustus:

- Anky

Happy birthday!!

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Today's birthday

23 Agustus:

- Tante Anneke
- Mbak Tetty

Happy birthday!!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Today's birthday

21 Agustus:

- Iyan

Happy birthday!!

Monday, August 20, 2007

lose vs loose

gw gak ngerti, kok masih byk ya yg gak bisa bedain antara "lose" & "loose". ketika kita kehilangan sesuatu, it's "lose". ketika sesuatu menjadi 'kendor', it's "loose". mudah khan? jadi, bkn "i'm loosing my mind", tp "i'm losing my mind". begitu! jgn pake bhs inggris deh klo gak bener2 yakin sama artinya.... *Sebel Mode is ON*

Sunday, August 19, 2007

blessings

geez... i'm really blessed. in the midst of this hard time, i still get support from people who loves me, who are my friends, and of course, from He Who Sits Above.

misalnya hari ini. gw ktemu 1 temen. dia ngajak ktemuan utk ngomongin something about it for his project. it turned out he offered me a position. i saw it coming, actually, tp gw gak mo ge-er dulu. dan posisi ini kinda leap of faith, soalnya beda banget sama yg udah gw jalanin selama ini. tp sebenernya klo gw dapet posisi ini, i'll be back to my roots: IT. challenging, of course. i've been out of touch from it for too long.

trus Citra. yes, we had some problems earlier this week. but now our bond is stronger than ever. kmrn itu kita "evaluasi" kejadian gak enak wkt hari kamis & sebelum2nya. dan kemudian kita nyimpulin klo kita berdua udah changed quite a lot. simpelnya ya gw. klo dulu, mgkn gw udah bakal meledak klo diperlakuin spt itu. in fact, the reason for our last break-up was that i exploded in front of others. tp kmrn, meskipun gw marah, gw udah lebih "beradab". klo aja gw mledak, mgkn dia jg bakal ikut mledak, dan hasilnya, mgkn aja, kita putus lagi. tp yg terjadi khan bukan itu, dan justru kita skrg malah lebih saling sayang.

dan masih banyak temen gw yg laen, spt adeline, ajeng, amel.. (how come all of their names begin with "a"?!?!?!) tremendous, tremendous support. love you all, ladies!

Happy Sunday, all! GBU! :-)

black & white

ce: item, baju seksi, muka kampung, centil
co: bule

apa artinya? kentucky fried chicken?!?!? hahaha... tentu aja gak bisa digeneralisasi spt itu ya. tp stlh sekian lama & sekian sering gw nongkrong di starbucks pasaraya, gw bisa ngeliat mana yg bener2 pasangan, mana yg cuma bayaran. tingkahnya itu beda.

gw heran aja sama selera bule2 ini. eksotik? dunno. but i think those women are cheap ya. hehehehe...

Saturday, August 18, 2007

My Honey Bunny

hehehe... gw musti ngaku, bbrp posting terakhir gw yg isinya omelan itu yaaa krn gw lg sebel sama Citra. soalnya dia lagi gimanaaaaaaaaaa gitu wkt itu. gw jd ngrasa dicuekin banget. nah, puncaknya ya kamis kmrn. gw bener2 didinginin. niatnya buat mampir, gw udah males banget. gw jd marah banget. besoknya gw sms dia, gw tumpahin uneg2 gw. ehhhh trus dibales, isinya bikin gw makin sebel. dia minta ditelp, awalnya gw males. soalnya gw gak mo meledak gitu. tp dia paksa, ya udah deh gw telp aja.

bener, gw marah2 ditelp. trus yg bikin makin sebel, dia kebanyakan diem aja. mana gw udah musti mandi utk pergi pula khan. ya udah, gw ngomongnya bener2 yg marah2 gitu. kyknya yg pertama kalinya deh gw semarah itu ke dia. krn dia diem aja, gw akhirnya tutup aja telpnya, soalnya gw udah musti mandi. abis mandi, gw cek hp, oh gak ada sms. ini artinya dia jg marah! wah sebel banget deh gw. ya udah, terserah, pikir gw. gw toh lg mo ktemu sodara, jd gw mo enjoy aja hari itu.

wkt gw lg ktemuan sodara gw, ada sms. dia minta ditelp, soalnya ada pesen dari kak sandra, sepupunya. gw emang diajak usaha gitu deh sama si kakak. ya udah, gw telp. pdhl sih masih males, sebenernya. dia bilang, kak sandra ngajak ktemuan. tp gak bisa hari itu, soalnya dia sekeluarga mo pergi nginep. tp Citra bilang gw dtg aja ke rmhnya. lho buat apa, tanya gw, khan kak sandra gak ada. tp khan ada dia, kt Citra. hahahaha... lumer jg rupanya. gw gak bisa tahan ktawa deh jadinya.... hehehehe...

ya udah, sorenya gw ke rmhnya. begitu dia buka pintu, gw lgs dipeluk. rupanya dia nyesel. nah ngeliat begitu, ya buat apalagi ya gw terusin marah2, ya udah jadinya kita beres lagi deh kmrn. hehehe...

I love you, Honey...

Today's birthday

18 Agustus:

- Alda
- Misty
- Joanne Balthazar

Happy birthday!!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

too bad

what do you really want, eh? can't tell? or don't want to tell? or do you want me to guess? whatever.

Today's birthday

16 Agustus:

- Indrie

Happy birthday!!

irreplacable

gw gak mo sombong. but it seems that i'm somehow irreplacable at indopacific. knp gw bisa ngomong gitu? tadi siang, gw ditelp sama pak nugroho, one of the editors there. mrk bingung gimana mo terjemahin "integer throughput". gw bilang aja, klo gw gak bakal translate, dan dulu2 gw cuma miringin. and that's what they did afterwards.

geez.. it's so simple, yet they had to ask me? hahahaha... i think i have to charge a fee to them, for consultation like that! hahahahaha... i'm flattered!

anyway, "integer throughput" itu adalah angka kemampuan prosesor yg diukur program benchmark, in this case, specINT. prosesor pny 2 kemampuan, integer dan floating point. integer itu, kasarnya, adalah bilangan2 bulat. sementara floating point adalah bilangan2 pecahan. naturally, floating point is much more difficult to handle. therefore, in benchmarks, integer would have higher results, since it's easier to be tested. still with me so far? hehehehe...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

BULLSH!T

today's daily motivational guide from facebook is:
"no act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted."

i totally disagree with this statement! hell, i'm not the kindest person on earth, but i sure do have my shares of kindness. and what do i get? NOTHING!!! that's a big NOTHING!!! oh sure, there's a heavenly reward waiting for me when i die. but for once, just for once, i want to be rewarded here on earth. is that too big a desire? is it selfish? is it stupid?

damn it! (that's the fourth for today, i believe)

today, in this world, only the most, cruelest person will ever succeed. ANYWHERE. i've seen proofs of that. and for that, i'll never make it since i can never be truly cruel. people will only take advantage of me. take me for granted.

and i'm really pissed off here. can be seen from the english only posting. i only post entirely in english when i'm mad. and i believe i have every reason to be mad. people have objections for this, they can SHOVE IT UP THEIR ASSES!!! i don't care!! i did care, and i got nothing!

what the @$@^&%#??

hey, have i just been scorned?? what's going on here? i know it's partly my fault, but i don't think i like what i've just heard...

what are you, steve?

damn it! damn it! damn it! i'm so envious! why does it seem that other men can always leave their marks on women? by "leaving a mark" i mean when they broke up with their girls, the girls would cry, felt helpless, depressed, sad, etc etc etc. just these past 2 weeks i have been a witness to this kind of situation, where the girls cry over their exes.

what am i? not that i want to be compared to others, but this annoys me. am i really that "plain"? "boring"?

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

it's gag!

malem minggu kmrn, abis dari pesta ultah ex-boss, gw lewat kemang timur. trus mata gw ngeliat plang "GAG. Law Firm." gw lgs ktawa. what in the world were they thinking when they decided to use that name?!?!

bayangin percakapan ini. it's only funny in english, however.
"hey, have you got yourself a lawyer?"
"oh yeah, i went to this law firm and talked to them."
"that's great. who is it?"
"it's gag."
"come on. i'm being serious here. who is it?"
"i told you, it's gag."
"man, you don't kid around with things like these. tell me the law firm's name!"
"mate, it's the GAG law firm."
"geez... i hope they don't joke around in the court!!"
"of course not. they'll silence everyone there!"

gag. artinya bisa 2 macem: bikin diem, ato lawakan utk mancing tertawa org. gw gak tau apakah "GAG" yg kantor pengacara itu singkatan nama, ato mrk pikir kok kyknya keren, ato apalah. tp gw bakal pikir 2x sebelom mutusin utk sewa mereka for any law-related things. hehehe..

Today's birthday

14 Agustus:

- Amel
- Helen Gah

Happy birthday!!

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Today's birthday

8 Agustus:

- Fannie
- Anya Maitimoe

Happy birthday!!

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Today's birthday

7 Agustus:

- Erita

Happy birthday!!

Sunday, August 05, 2007

now what, step?

2 minggu belakangan ini bener2 jungkir balik deh gw. many ups, some downs. fortunately i'm still somewhat optimistic and cheerful.

yg down itu ya gw skrg nganggur, soalnya gw udah bener2 eneg sama si bawang. jadi gw resign aja deh. biar mampus si bawang itu. i've had talks with some people, with promising outcomes. tapi gw msh musti tunggu dulu. there are other things yg bisa bikin gw down jg, tp gak tll penting sih, apalagi utk dibahas di sini.

yg ups? ahhh... ini yg bikin gw semangat. she's chosen me! hahahaha... udah pernah gw bahas sih. tp kali ini udah bener2 confirmed. i've been praying to God that hopefully this time it'll last. trus ada bbrp hal lain jg yg bikin gw rada semangat. tp pastinya yg bikin gw semangat banget ya Citra. not a day has gone by without her in my mind.... hehehehe....