Lomba ngumpulin air. rada konyol sih, untung gw pegang kamera, jadi gw bisa excused myself. hehehe...
sepak bola pantai. ce2 kalah lumayan telak. rada gak adil sih...
iyan & ronald lagi menyalurkan tenaga dalam. ato emang rada gila kali yaaa..
tim ce rembuk sebelom maen galasin. kirain ngomongin strategi... ternyata...
galasin. rada kaco yaa...
ayo itung, ada brp segitiga?!?!
kebaktian di sekeliling api unggun...
berpose di depan api unggun. panas yaa...
"surat cinta of the event"!
Bukit Pasau Resort. tempat refreshing psgp 1-3 juni 2007
Citra & Melanie berpose untuk kamera
Satu dari sedikit foto gw. maklum, namanya juga fotografer. hahaha..
Anak-anak psgp berpose di tangga
Pembangunan "wall of china"
Melanie & Sabrina pura2 jadi spg kamera digital
"Lomba Nyanyi"akhirnya, gw bisa ngeblog lagi, stlh sekian lama... *kesannya udah lama banget ya?!?!? hahaha*
eniwei, refreshing psgp di anyer akhirnya udah selesai. gw lega banget deh. acaranya lmyn lancar.. anak2nya kompak2 semua, dan gak ada gangguan yg berarti, kecuali cuaca dan that bloody fashion designer who annoyed me like hell!
there are some developments,. gw seneng banget pulang dari sana. really, really happy. it may not be good for myself, tp gw udah gak peduli. let things flow by themselves from now on.
acara ini jg gw pake utk ngetes kemampuan gw motret pake d80, utk yg kedua kali. the first was when i visited the museum with erita. dan gw gak sia2 beli 3 memory card, soalnya 2 kepake dlm wkt 3 hari. total foto yg gw ambil tuh 800 lebih! hahaahaha... most of them are citra's pics, of course. saking banyaknya, anak2 lain sampe sebel2 gitu. melanie bahkan sampe rela2in berdiri ato duduk deket2 citra spy bisa kepotret jg... hehehehe...
i took a leave yesterday, so for me it was a 5-days holiday, hahahaha...
so, ngapain aja gw kmrn? bangun siang. trus ngajarin mama pake hp bentar. abis itu mandi, trus cabut ke dharmawangsa. erita dateng jam 12 lewat gitu deh. trus kita makan & ngobrol sampe jam 2. topik obrolannya banyak banget, tp pada dasarnya gw update dia mengenai berita2 (alias gosip) di effatha. makannya jg gak tll banyak. terus terang aja, gw kmrn gak tll nafsu utk makan sih.
ngebahas macem2, sampe muncul itu utk coba burger king. ha! di depan kita msh ada bbrp sushi, tp udah mikir utk makan burger. hahahahaha...
abis itu kita ke pasaraya dulu, ktnya dia mo cari sepatu-sendal gitu deh. tp udah muter2, ada bbrp yg dicoba, tp gak pas. ya udah, lgs cabut ke senayan city. berhubung msh rada kenyang, kita gak lgs ke burger king, tp muter2 dulu. dia beli kaset, trus kita liat2 barang2 elektronik, homewares. pegel nih, jadi ke burger king deh.
it was as expected ya, the magnificent burgers of bk. wowwwww... paketnya jg lmyn reasonable, cuma tambah 2rb utk upsize. dan berhubung gw udah janji gak minum coca cola selama sebulan ke citra, ya jadi minumnya dituker ke ice lemon tea aja. erita jg gak minum soda, jadi ice lemon tea jg.
stlh "wahhh enakkk" "manteppp" dsb, kita ngobrol2 lg. dia cerita ttg anak2 buahnya. lucu jg. gaya dia ceritanya itu lho yg bikin gw seneng dengerin. tp mgkn gw jg udah agak biased ya, hahahaha...
abis dari sana, kita balik ke pasaraya lagi. soalnya gw mo latian psgp, dan dia dijemput di gereja. spt biasa, mampir dulu ke starbucks. gw buka laptop, trus dia akses friendsternya deh. gosip berlanjut. trus citra dateng. wah makin seru gosipnya.
gw gak tau, ada topik yg pas banget, dan terus terang bikin gw rada hepi sih. kita lg ngomongin kakaknya wkt citra dateng. jadi, erita minta dicariin jodoh buat kakaknya. trus citra tanya, apa musti 1 suku. trus dia blg, keluarganya sih skrg udah gak tll mikirin. wah! dudidudidu...
gak lama2 di starbucks, jam 7 kita jalan ke effatha. trus bubaran deh. citra dijemput pacarnya, erita dijemput sopirnya, dan gw dijemput... er... sayangnya gw gak ada yg jemput. hahahahaha...
sesebel2nya gw sama ortu, mrk tetap ortu gw. tanpa mrk, gw gak mgkn ada di sini skrg, nulis blog ini. nah, bbrp hari ini gw brusaha utk bikin mrk seneng. sabtu, misalnya. kita emang udah niat mo ke itc fatmawati, utk ambil hp fren mobile-8 bonus dari indovision. tadinya hpnya itu utk mama, soalnya ktnya dia pengen pake cdma. tp khan zte tuh, jd rada ruwet, mana layarnya kecil banget pula. ya udah, gw tuker aja sama cdma flip gw. jadi gw pake zte, mama pake nokia. nomornya dituker jg, jd gw keep nomor fren gw.
abis itu kita sempet muter2 bentar di itcnya, utk cari handsfree buat n-gage papa (which was actually mine sih, hehehehe). berhubung tuh hp udah langka banget, jd udah gak ada handsfreenya. abis itu kita coba ke pim, khan di sana byk toko nokia tuh. ehhhhhhh gak dapet jg. ya udah, muter2 bentar, trus kita ke clubstore (skrg udah ganti nama, tp gw lupa namanya apa), utk beli dim sum kaki ayam. ihhh... kok bisa pd doyan yah?!?!?! abis itu pulang. eh gak dink, sempet mampir di pizza hut.
minggu, gw nyanyi di grj jam 8 pagi. abis itu niatnya mo ktemuan sama ajeng, tp dia mendadak gak bisa, lagi agak gak enak badan ktnya. eh kebetulan alda jg lagi rada bengong, jadi gw aja dia aja. ke pim lagi. hahahaha... nah, dari malem itu gw udah niat mo beliin hp baru buat ortu. tadinya khan bisa aja ya gw beliin wkt sabtu, tp gw pengen kasih surprise buat mrk. ya udah, hari minggu itu obyektif gw adalah beli hp. buat bokap, musti symbian (krn n-gage tuh symbian), trus musti ada radio. nah, tadinya gw pengen beliin 6600, tp udah gak ada. 7610, terlalu ce, dan ternyata gak ada radio. ya udah, gw beliin 3230 aja. sori2 aja, mo surprise tp budget gw khan jg limited, hehehehe... utk nyokap, gw beliin nokia 2310. simpel lah. dia pernah pake 3330, belajar bentar jg udah bakal feel at home di 2310. khan nokia ktnya teknologi yg mengerti anda. hahahaha...
nah, pulangnya gw blm kasih liat hp2nya. gw bawa ke kamar. trus gw jg pinjem hp2 lama mrk, bilangnya sih buat mama, utk copy phone book ke nokia cdmanya. half-lies sih, soalnya gw emang beneran pindah2in phonebook. tp yg papa khan gw gak ada alasan, jd gw bilang aja mo compare phonebooknya. udah beres semua, gw setting2 dll, gw tunggu sampe mama tidur. udah lamaan dikit, gw turun deh. gw taro tuh hp2, lengkap sama accessoriesnya. then i went to sleep.
hari ini, gw ijin dr ktr. papa udah brkt ke bengkel. eh kok ada telp dari mama. gw gak angkat, gw lgs turun aja. ternyata mama lagi rada bingung sama hp barunya. hehehehe... trus dia bilang klo papa sih kyknya lgs enak2 aja sama 3230. wah. seneng gw dengernya.
yahhh.. at least gw bkn cuma anak yg bisa bikin mrk sebel sekaligus mrk takutin, tp gw jg bisa jadi anak yg sekali2 bisa bikin mrk seneng. hehehehe...
yah. by now i've spent some time familiarizing myself with the new toys, nikon d80 & huawei hsdpa card.
nikon d80:
jelas aja gw msh kagok banget sama digital slr. kamera slr film gw tuh canon, sementara digital slr gw nikon. fundamentally, they're the same. cuma sistemnya aja yg gw msh bingung. obviously picking the subject, trus focusing, wah msh kaco balo. exposure jg msh rusak. gelep lah, tll terang lah. wah! tp ini jd tantangan buat gw. hehehehe... i'll be better, for sure.
huawei hsdpa card:
kenceng! jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh lebih kenceng dibanding zte cdma 1x card gw. bahkan mnrt gw jauh lebih kenceng dibanding hotspot biznet, yg mnrt gw skrg ini mrupakan the fastest commercial hotspot. gila. indosat jg lmyn bagus utk koneksi 3gnya. gw cukup salut deh. wkt gw dulu pake zte, gw blg klo itu serasa pny akses ke hotspot pribadi. tp skrg, klo ngebandingin kecepatan internet antara pake zte & huawei, wah serasa bandingin mobil sedan biasa sama formula 1 kali yaaa... tp gak adil jg sih, ngebandinginnya. 1x itu khan kira2 sepantar sama gprs, sementara hsdpa mustinya dibandingin sama evdo. tp yaaa... dari segi harga, gw sama sekali gak nyesel udah beli card huawei ini.
musik digital. gw pertama kali "kenalan" sama yg namanya mp3 itu wkt gw mulai kul di bond uni. "wih keren juga nih," begitu kesan pertama gw. trus lgs deh nyari2, di mana bisa download. koleksi gw yg skrg ini hasil download dari web, irc, napster, dll dll.
trus muncul deh masalah2 sharing mp3 itu ilegal, blablabla... dan benernya emang ilegal sih. tp ya pabolebuat, justru yg ilegal2 itu yg seru khan? hahahaha... tp skrg nyari mp3 itu jadi rada susah. not impossible, it's just difficult. apalagi lagu2 yg aneh2 ya.
nah, wkt gw iseng2 googling utk cari lirik lagu, hasilnya nunjuk ke 1 halaman multiply.com. lha kok di situ ada library. bisa download pula! ternyata, byk jg member multiply yg post lagu, dan bisa didownload. gw heran aja, kok bisa ya, knp gak dilarang?!?! dan makin anehnya lagi, gw nih member jg, tp kok gak tau... jadi malu...
nah, skrg jadinya gw klo mo cari mp3, tinggal buka google advanced search, trus masukin "multiply.com" di domain search. dapet deh! hahaha... moga2 aja bisa bertahan lama nih, sblm "digrebeg" sama aparat. hehehe...
kurang dari 3 minggu menuju refreshing psgp. by then, a great burden will be lifted off me. dan bukan cuma burden yg gw pikirin skrg. terus terang gw lagi cape. psgp has been my everything for the past few years. yaa, gw pernah bbrp kali keluar masuk, tp gw gak pernah bisa sama sekali gak mikirin psgp. dan itu yg bikin gw cape...
what will i do next? gw bersyukur bass udah ketambahan bbrp org. that's very good. artinya gw bisa setiap saat "mewariskan" psgp ke mrk2 yg masih muda2 ini. ahhh... it's not like i'm that old, no... tp gw ngerasa kemampuan gw udah menurun banget. not to mention my work will be much much heavier these coming weeks. dan prinsip gw adalah klo gw gak bisa sepenuhnya konsen di psgp, gw musti keluar. gw gak mo setengah2. dan tampaknya gw musti bener2 consider that principle.
so what am i going to do?? dunno yet. i guess i'll have a clue sooner, rather than later. in any case, i expect myself to reach a decision by the time of refreshing. i may not like, certain people may not like it, but if it's the decision i've been dreading for some time now... i'd have to embrace it. whatever i may desire...
gw udah pernah post ttg mainan baru gw. hahaha.. nikon d80, my first digital slr camera!! i'm still sooooo excited about it. can't wait to properly "play" with it. wonder what will be the event ya... here it's pictured with my "old" canon eos 300v.
next is my new 3G pcmcia modem. compared to my cdma modem, it's fast! wahooo!! it's back to living on fast lane! hahahaha...
I Hate Myself For Losing You
Oh,oh,oh
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that i pull through
I wish you knew, I WISH YOU KNEW!!!
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no
I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you
gw dpt mp3 ini dari site Multiply. meskipun blm tau liriknya kyk apa, tp gw lgs aja download, save ke hp gw, dan gw jadiin ringtone. only for 1 person. skrg udah gak relevan sih. tp gw msh tetap pake, to remind me what a fool i was (and still am). liriknya mustinya gak sesuai jg, soalnya ini lagu ce yg dinyanyiin buat mantannya, yg notabene co. but it's me. and most people don't understand me anyway. haha... whatever i may desire, it's mine and mine only.
my dear blog, i want to tell you a story. this is a story about Milka Citra Elmeria Horoni, or "Citra", my lovely "adopted" sister.
i met & got to know her from psgp. she's the secretary. i'm not exactly a person who can instantly be friendly to others, but somehow with her, we clicked. she told me stories about her cousin, who died of cancer. and i really listened. we talked about "pacaran", kind of those heart-to-heart talk (really a long sentence for "curhat", don't u think, hahahaha.)
then i got interested in her. "hey," i thought, "i like this girl, i want to be closer to her." so i called, sent smses, asked to meet. u know, the things we called "PDKT". it was really getting intense. but unfortunately i was going to bali at the thick of things, for Rianti's wedding. sooo i had to disappoint her because i couldn't sing with the choir the night i flew to bali. i really felt bad. sometimes i still do. but things went on. i talked to her on the phone. it was then when she made me say the words. the magic words.
then her grandpa passed away. and i was still in bali. u know, my blog, how i wanted to be with her, comfort her. but i couldn't. what kind of a boyfriend i was, huh?!?! shame on me! and she went to surabaya for the funeral. we talked and talked and talked.
when i returned to jkt, she was in sby. the first time we met, as a couple, was in the church. i can't describe how i felt. i was still dazed, not believing she say yes to me. this lovely lady actually accepted me to be her boyfriend...
fast forward. it wasn't really a smooth road. we hit roadblocks. mainly because she didn't approve the way i behaved in the choir. we broke up, rebound, broke up, rebound. i can't remember how many times we did that. and then she gave up. i was really angry. so angry i said some mean words to her. then i realized, it was all my fault. i apologized.
things went ok.we went (and still go, today) as "kakak-adik". during this time, she was knitting back her relation to her previous bf before me. when she told me she was back with him, felt like someone just hit me on the nose, real hard. i had a hard time digesting it. i even asked for a permission to go away. but she refused, saying i meant a lot to her. me being not me, accepted what she said.
came new year. we talked on the phone. she really pushed for me to get a girlfriend, and she set her eyes on this girl, who was actually my "crush" for sooo many times. things became strange when she became mad at me, after i said i still had a soft spot for this girl. i thought, my blog, "hey, you wanted me to like her, now i said i like her, you're angry with me?? what's going on here?" she actually ignored me for a few days. when we met, at starbucks, she treated me very badly. but then, later that night, she called me and she said she was just being playful on me.
then i was going to australia with papa & Chelsea. she was sad, and told me she didn't want me to go there. but i had to go. while i was there, we smsed a lot. she was still sad. when i joked that i considered for a permanent residency, she got mad and ignored me. i was touched. someone really cared for me.
then i got back. however, i began to feel lonely. i didn't get many calls and smses from her. i should had understood that she had her own life, and she didn't belong to me anymore. but i stood firm on her sms which said she would always be there for me. i finally found the nerve to remind her. in what was an unexpected answer, my blog, she decided to withdrew from my life. what the?!?!?! i refused to let her go away. in what was described as a panic mode, i sent her sooo many smses. her friend thought i was going crazy. amazing. i didn't know i had the capability, hahahaha...
soon we patched things up. sooo, until today, we're still "brother & sister." of course, we have our differences here and there. but i love & care for Citra so much, i just can't be angry at her for long. after each "fight", most of the time i'd be the first to apologize. things i do for love.
so, u see, my dear blog, it's an interesting relationship, isn't it? i actually have so many things to tell u, but i'll keep them for myself for now. maybe later ya. gotta go now. bubye.
yihaaaa... finally! i've got my new "toy"!! hahahaha... it's about time i take the next step. coincidentally, i can use the "toy" for other means as well. hehehehe... i'm so excited!!
pictured here is my cousin, Elvi, with her husband, Andre. Elvi is a year younger than me. now she's married.
next came the inevitable question: "giliran kamu kapan? khan Jola (my sister) udah nikah, udah punya anak pula. skrg Elvi nikah. nah, masa kamu dilewatin gitu diem2 aja?"
*sigh*
why is it, today, i've been feeling so lonely... alone... almost to point of desperation... i'm so ashamed. i have God to guide me. i have my parents. i have Jola, Donny, and Chelsea to cheer me from afar. i have Ajeng. i have Adeline. i have Venny, my faithful SMS mate. i have Erita. i have Tirza. i have Citra, my lovely, lovely "adopted" sister. i have friends. i have my notebook. i have my iPod. i have my mobile phones. but still, i'm so lonely... alone... oh how unfaithful of me...
maybe i'm just being selfish. yes. i think i am. selfish & stupid. stephen. you're a fool. i'm a fool. see, self-pity. what kind of a man i am, huh? shame on me...
rumput tetangga selalu lebih hijau.
ya.
gw ngerti skrg.
lebih hijau.
memang.
pdhl yg tidak hijau itu tidak selamanya jelek.
gw udah tll sering ngejar hal-hal yg gak jelas.
susah2, jauh2, repot2, capek2.
pdhl ada yg mgkn gw gak perlu kejar.
mgkn gw tinggal deketin sbntr, gw udah bakal dpt.
yup.
i was blind.
perhaps i still am.
perhaps i'm still wrong.
chasing shadows.
useless.
waste of time.
waste of energy.
akhirnya gw yg rugi sendiri.
*sigh*
bener deh! nulis itu gampang. KLO: udah nemu ide, bahan2 udah dapet, dan, ini yg plg penting, kita udah dpt mood utk nulis.
itu yg gw alami skrg. stlh berthn2 gak nulis, rasanya kakuuuuuuuuuuuuu banget utk bisa nulis lagi. dan begitu nulis, wah kok rasanya kurang sana-sini ya. posting pertama (dan masih satu2nya) di blog gw yg i did this for a living aja udah bbrp kali gw revisi.
cape sih... tapi somehow gw ada kepuasan di sana.
stephen alexander yoshua warouw. salah satu org yg plg cuek. itu mnrt gw sih. tp ada bbrp org laen yg jg blg klo gw orgnya cuek. mo ada yg marah2, bodo amat. sebaliknya, gw bisa dgn gampang marah2 klo ada hal yg gw gak suka. i'm very outspoken. dan gw ngomong apa yg ada di pikiran gw (even though most of the times my "pikiran" aren't in control). dan terus terang aja, gw bangga dgn kecuekan gw ini.
tp knp ya, utk 1 org ini gw sama sekali gak bisa cuek. oh, of course, gw pernah berusaha utk cuek. tp kok gak bisa. aneh. mgkn gw kena karma ya. hahaha.. dan anehnya lagi, gw jg gak tll keberatan utk gak cuek. bener2 aneh. i'm cursed. really, really cursed. but i don't mind.
step, rasain loe!
percakapan paling lucu yg gw denger di acara paskah warouw kmrn:
"adik-adik, setelah kita mati, kita masuk ke...?"
"ke kuburan, kak!"
hehehehe... namanya jg anak2 ya. biarpun abis "sekolah minggu", tp cara berpikir mrk msh lugu banget. polos.
gw pengen nulis. tp gw gak tau mo nulis apa. makanya judulnya gelep. eniwei gw lg di starbucks, on my sweet spot. udah rada lama jg gak online dari sini. kmrn2 itu sempet mati wifinya. skrg udah on lagi. kyknya ada perubahan dikit deh di sistemnya. skrg udah lebih secure. at least gw gak dpt security warning dari software gw.
oya. citra lagi ngambeg. knp ya? kyknya gara2 gw semlm ngotot gak mo nyanyi kantoria deh. salah jg gw smlm burst out gitu. tp konsepnya ternyata emang aneh. dan bener2 makan tenaga banget. dan gw, me being outspoken, gw selalu ngomong apa yg ada di pikiran gw. peduli amat org laen mo nganggep apa. tp terus terang gw kaget jg wkt citra ngomong rada marah gitu. mgkn dia jg lagi capek ya.
how i hate this person. hatehatehatehate! damn it! she just can't mind her own business! damn it! what a bitch!!!
but i guess it's hereditary. of all the bawangs i know, only 1% is nice. the rest are pricks & bitches. damn it!
Citra ngelarang gw utk ngomong hal ini ke si fashion designer. tp gw bener2 lagi eneg sama dia. drpd gw stress, mending gw tulis di blog aja dah. gw yakin si fashion designer cukup gaptek utk bisa baca blog. and if she does read this post, it's good!
wkt dulu gw deket sama dia, dia bener2 treated me like garbage. ckckck.. dan bodohnya dulu gw nurut aja. tp pernah, gw sakit, sampe2 gak bisa nyanyi. dia bilang apa? "klo gw ya, klo gw sakit dan bener2 gak bisa bangun dari tempat tidur, baru gw gak nyanyi!"
ohya? nowadays, dia tuh NGAKUNYA sakit mulu. sakit ini lah, sakit itu lah. what, you're so sick you can't get up from your bed? is that the case, huh, fashion designer?
gw ngeliat hal ini sbg satu contoh where we can be haunted by what we said or did in the past. fashion designer ini dulu begiiituuu bangganya dgn kemampuan dirinya sendiri, sampe2 dia bisa ngomong spt itu. dan skrg liat hasilnya. gw gak perlu ngelakuin apa2 utk ngebales perlakuan dia thd gw. no, she doesn't deserve anything from me. not anymore. and seeing her "eating her own words" like this, it's reward enough for me. hahahaha...
gw skrg pengen mulai lagi naro ultah temen2 gw di harinya.
23 April:
- BM Adam
- Jerry Udampo
Happy birthday!!
berikut ini percakapan gw dgn Citra, semalem:
"kak, tau gak, rabu kmrn wkt km udah pulang, iyan bilang km tuh romantis deh."
"ha? aku romantis? kok bisa?"
"iya lah kak. km tuh bela2in abis dari airport utk mampir ke gereja cuma buat ktemu aku. km dtg, trus sun aku, trus km pergi. gak sampe lima menit. itu romantis lah!"
"iya kah?"
"iya kak. aku tuh sedeket2nya sama orang, ato sama pacar2ku, gak ada yg sampe segitunya tau."
"hahahahaha... kok aneh ya..."
"aneh kenapa?"
"iya aneh, kok aku bisa ngelakuin hal yg aku gak tau. apalagi dulu ada beberapa orang yg bilang aku tuh paling gak romantis."
"km tuh romantis, kak. dari cara2mu itu lho. justru krn km gak sadar klo km romantis, jdnya km gak pura2."
uplifting, isn't it? hahahaha... tp gw kok msh blm yakin ya. blm yakin klo gw romantis. you see, of the pluses that i'm sure i do have, i wouldn't count romantic ability as one of them. had i been romantic, i wouldn't have problems with my love life, would i?
dan gw jg gak mo terlalu di awang2. i'm still sure i'm not romantic. what i am, is hopelessly sentimental. that's what i am. that's why i do the things i do. that's the stephen warouw that i know. hahahahaha...
kyknya ini foto pertama gw yg bareng2 ajeng deh. iya gak sih jeng? diambil pake hp renya di acara nikahan chicha, anak detikinet, sabtu kmrn. yg bikin gw rada kaget, kok di sini muka kita kliatan mirip deh.
Ini dua foto dari acara jualan psgp utk pergi refreshing ke carita, juni nanti. mesra banget ya sepasang "kakak-adik" ini? hahaha... klo org2 gak tau, pasti kita dikirain pacaran deh!
ya, gw akhirnya nekad. stlh dpt ide dari ajeng, gw ubah tulisan gw di blog gw yg satu lagi ke bhs inggris. gak gampang sih. nekad. tapi kyknya it's the way to go gitu loh...
seneng deh rasanya gw punya tempat untuk nulis lagi. soalnya klo nulis di sini kyknya kok campur aduk antara masalah2 pribadi (BACA: curhat dan omelan) dgn tulisan2 semi-pro. nah, dgn blog I Did This For A Living, gw skrg bisa misahin kedua hal tsb.
knp nama blognya kok gitu? sederhana aja sih. dulu khan gw kerja di infokomputer. sbg reviewer. jadi dgn nama itu, gw mo sekaligus nostalgia gitu. dulu gw dibayar utk nulis. skrg gw "cuma" iseng aja, sambil terus ngasah kemampuan gw spy gak tumpul *CIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
eniwei, kyknya sih emang udah mulai tumpul. dalam wkt kurang dr 24 jam, gw udah berkali2 revise tulisan gw. kurang sana, kurang sini, jelek sana, jelek sini. waahhh... tp itulah enaknya nulis di blog (dan internet, for that matter). kita bisa dgn cepet mengkoreksi. bandingin sama print media (koran, majalah), ribet banget untuk dikoreksi klo udah naik cetak.
gw bikin blog baru. namanya I Did This For A Living. panjang ya namanya? isinya adalah tulisan2 gw mengenai review2 produk2 (mainly gadgets) dan mgkn berita2 IT. udah lama banget lah gw pengen nulis lagi. tp kyknya klo gw post di sini kok ya gak pas. makanya gw bikin blog baru aja deh. simple template, gw gak pake utak-atik lagi....
yogya. or is it jogja? gw gak tau deh. yg pasti gw lebih suka aja nulis "yogya", pdhl klo ngomong, ya gw blg "jogja".
rabu kmrn itu pengalaman pertama gw tugas keluar kota, pergi pake pesawat, dan pulang di hari yg sama. my first! ckckckck... gak usah gw bilang capenya kyk apa.
begini perjalanannya:
hari ini Citra, seseorang yg udah gw anggap adik, seseorang yg gw sayang banget, nulis sesuatu di notepad gw. ttg seseorang yg gw taksir. dia gak tll setuju dgn pilihan gw tsb. mnrtnya, si ce ini gak pny sesuatu nilai tambah yg bisa bikin gw berkembang.
gw tau Citra sayang sama gw, dan cuma mikirin yg terbaik buat gw. makanya, gw hargain banget pendapat2nya. krn gw rasa dia udah tau banget ttg gw, dan kadang2 gw ngerasa dia lebih kenal gw dibanding gw sendiri.
jadi, wkt dia bilang gitu, gw jadi mikir. apa mgkn gw cuma naksir sesaat? apa mgkn gw cuma "have a crush"? betul, gw seneng banget wkt masa2 gw naksir nih ce. spt yg gw tulis di posting gw sebelomnya. tapi trus, apalagi stlh kejadian di nikahan cucunya tante gw itu, yg gw spt dicuekin, gw jadi mikir lagi. mgkn itu tanda2 yg gak bagus buat gw.
balik ke laptop, eh Citra, wkt dia baca posting gw, dia jadi nyesel gitu. dan itu yg dia tulis di notepad gw. dia jadi ngerasa egois, udah "ngejatuhin semangat gw", dan bikin gw mikir dua kali utk nerusin dgn si ce ini.
nah, jadi balik ke judul, kapankah cinta itu "cinta"? apa bedanya cinta sama sekedar naksir? terus terang gw gak tau. di satu sisi gw yakin gw adalah org yg gak tll plinplan. klo gw udah pny satu tekad, gw bakal kejar trus. bahkan Citra pun gak bakal bisa ngubah pendirian gw. tp knp utk hal yg satu ini gw bisa jadi bimbang? apakah gw jatuh cinta? ato gw cuma lagi ngerasa kesepian, trus nemu si ce ini, yg bisa ngehibur gw, dan jadi naksir dia?
hahaha... tenang2. gw nyanyi lagu ini bkn krn gw mo meninggal! tp gw merasa sejak paskah jadi makin deket aja ke Tuhan. which is a good thing. and which is what i'm supposed to be, secara gw jd "aktivis" di effatha gitu loh!
tp rupanya bener jg ya, semakin kita berusaha utk bertobat, cobaan tuh makin banyak aja. in the days following easter, gw makiiiiiiin sibuk banget. kerjaan tuh bertubi2 gitu. dan temptation utk jadi unfaithful jg makin besar. hal2 sederhana lah, spt waktu utk berdoa. tp gw udah bertekad utk make it stick this time. gw udah berkali2 dikasih kesempatan, masa sih mo ancur2an trus. it's time to change!
come to think of it, the mess i was in during the year before easter, mnrt gw terjadi krn gw gak setia. all those "disasters". ckckckckck... gw bisa berulang2 "what if", "coba aja kalo...", "gimana klo wkt itu..", tp semuanya gak ada gunanya selama gw gak tobat2.
so here i am. not a new man. not being reborn. no. gw cuma sedang berusaha utk gak berbuat lebih banyak dosa. dan kali ini gw yakin & percaya, Tuhan ada bersama-sama gw. Amin!
jarang2 ya gw baca kalimat spt judul posting gw. biasanya "christmas is near!" hehehe.. besok udah jumat agung. minggu, paskah. can't wait for it. mksdnya, gw gak sabar utk nunggu paskah selesai, spy gw bisa rada santai. sibuksibuksibuksibuk...
kegiatan paskahnya sendiri, kali ini beda sama taon lalu. taon lalu gw jadi panitia. dan sibuknya amit2. skrg gw "cuma" jadi pengisi acara. tp kok kyknya tetap aja lmyn sibuk ya?!?!
gw jg mo kritik panitia kali ini. leleeeeet banget kerjanya. paskah di awal april, baru mulai sibuk akhir feb. jadinya, kegiatannya almost zero. ckckckck... trus juga kebanting banget dibanding natal. come on, easter is far far far more important than christmas! kenapa, uang udah abis utk bayar artis2 drama natal kmrn? what a joke! gw gak bilang klo kerjaan panitia taon lalu lebih baik, tapi gw cuma mo blg klo kegiatan2 kita dulu lebih banyak, dan mnrt gw lebih berbobot.
a side note: i'm getting tired...
gw benernya udah bosen banget ngomongin ttg kematian. really. tp kmrn temen bokap meninggal. oom didi. lmyn deket sama bokap. klo nyokap lagi males pergi2, bokap bakal telp oom didi, dan dia dgn senang hati bakal dateng utk pergi bareng bokap.
yesterday he died. cancer. went downhill in only three weeks. just like that.
yg bikin gw kuatir adalah, semakin banyak temen2 bokap (& nyokap) yg meninggal, i'm being constantly reminded that my parents are getting old. they are. and inevitably, they too, will die. sesering-seringnya gw cekcok sama mereka, mereka tetap ortu gw. dan gw sayang sama mereka. i can't imagine losing them...
gw heran nih. kmrn wkt kebaktian gp mupel selatan, Pdt. Sri Wadu yg jadi pembawa firman. di situ lagi2 dia "promosiin" gw. ktnya, di mana ada stephen, pasti ada sukacita. wedew. am i that fun? am i that heboh? trus dia blg lagi, ce2 silakan apply, soalnya stephen itu orgnya gini gitu gini gitu, basically gw baik banget deh, bertolak belakang sama karakter "bruce" yg gw mainkan kmrn itu.
so, yeah, i was promoted heavily last saturday. for free. oleh seorang pendeta lho. hahahaha... does that make me a good guy? not even me know the answer! hahahaha...
sabtu kmrn gw lagi2 dapet peran. fragment di acara kebaktian gp mupel selatan. peran gw adalah bruce, seorang lulusan luar yg skeptis banget sama acara2 di gereja. bruce ini orangnya sepaaaa abisssss. sombong, pede berlebihan, etc etc. pokoknya nyebelin banget. saking percaya dirinya, wkt mo diinterview, dia bilang gak usah, soalnya perusahaan2 pasti mo terima dia, krn kualifikasinya yg gila2an. predictably, dia malah gak diterima di mana2 krn kesombongannya itu. bahkan ujian pns jg gak lewat. alhasil, dia sadar, dan akhirnya malah masuk stt utk jadi pendeta.
nah. yg menarik utk gw bukan ceritanya. itu sih biasa banget. tp bgmn gw ngebawain karakter si bruce ini. yg plg bisa ngenilai tentu aja lawan maen gw ya, violen. dia jadi bagian hrd yg mo interview gw. mnrt dia, gw tuh asli sepaaaaaaaaaa abisssss. hahahaha... dia blg org2 laen jg yg jadi sebel2 gitu. mission accomplished!
trus banyak yg nanya (termasuk gw sendiri), seberapa banyak dari ke-sepa-an itu yg acting, seberapa banyak yg betulan. apakah gw bener2 nyebelin orgnya? hahahaha...
gw semalem seneng, krn bisa ngobrol sama the girl, meskipun cuma lewat telp. dia sms gw, ktnya udah ngantuk banget. ya dengan pede-nya gw telp aja. suaranya ngantuk banget gitu, hahaha... terus gw ajak becanda aja. sampe ke topik ttg gw yg beberapa hari ini ke gerejaaaaaa trus. gw blg ke dia "ya sapa tau gw bisa jadi suci". lha dia lgs ngakak gitu. hahahaha... so i literally opened her eyes. hehehe...
yg bikin gw seneng bkn cuma ngobrol2nya sih ya. itu biasa lah. tp ada kata2nya yg.. waahhh... kyknya bisa bikin gw utk nerusin pdkt. no, she didn't say anything about her liking me. no, i haven't asked the question yet. hahaha... dudududu...
tapiiii, pagi ini suasana gw yg lg seneng itu dirusak oleh ortu gw... ah... cape banget deh kadang2. feels like being in a playpen with two toddlers. which happen to be my parents...
tapiiii lagi, moga2 sore ini suasana bisa jadi lebih baik deh. it has to be!
ah... udah lamaaaaaaaa kyknya gw gak ngerasain perasaan ini deh... and i think it's about time.. i'm in love! ah.. dan kali ini ceritanya cukup menarik... saking menariknya, gw blm berani tulis di sini, hehehe... suffice to say, there's this girl... orgnya asik banget, nyambung klo bcanda sama gw. cerdas & ramah.
kita udah ktemu bbrp kali, di acara2. sabtu kmrn, particularly, mgkn pertama kalinya kita bisa ngobrol cukup bebas berdua utk wkt yg cukup lama. becanda, ngomong serius. maklum, kita berdua jadi bintang tamu di acara nikahan sabtu kmrn itu. secara gw & dia gak pernah latian psw, tp kita dipanggil utk nyanyi.
gw ngerasa ada instant chemistry aja gitu. tapi, gw jg musti keep my feet on the ground sih. the fact that i don't know her very well can't be ignored.
but at least, at least, it's good to have this feeling again... temen2 gw bahkan bilang klo kmrn gw kliatan ceria banget. hahaha.. that's me, alright. i just can't hide my feelings.
oops. wrong title. hahaha.. soalnya gw tulis judulnya duluan, baru browsing2 foto2 dari acara nikahan kmrn. ternyata yg lmyn bagus cuma yg ini, foto gw & miranda. yg laen ada jg, tp musti gw brighten dulu. gelap banget euy.
UPDATE: nah, gw udah upload bbrp foto lagi. msh rada gelap sih. gw males soalnya. instead of photoshop, gw cuma pake picasa.
ini aneh banget. klo denger cerita semalem, gw sedih. beneran, sedih klo org yg satu itu jg sedih. tp di sisi gw yg laen, gw seneng. "so that's what you get for hurting me!". dan itu perkataan si malaikat merah gw. gak bagus. quite disgusting, benernya. tp pabolebuat ya. i'm no saint.
doh, cape banget . meeting ke event, ke meeting, meeting, pesta kantor, event lagi... ARRGHHHH!!! i definitely need some sleep!
tp untungnya, i have these people who keep me steady. dan yg Di Atas jg, tentunya. girls, you're all the best deh.
ha... the girl... kita sms2an banyak banget semalem... dia jg telp gw... i felt (and still feel) very comfy with her. tp sblm gw melangkah lebih lanjut, gw ada pertanyaan yg sangat penting. yaitu ttg agama. and unfortunately, we have different faiths. it's just too bad. i think we have the right chemistry. tp perbedaan agama bkn berarti gw gak bisa temenan sama dia. sooo, i'll meet her tonight, have a talk, and it's a new friendship in the making!
ada 1 ce. gw pertama kali kenal wkt acara paintball alumni2 bond. taon brp tuh ya?!?! 2003? eniwei. si ce ini sama2 kul di bond, tp kita gak ktemu. soalnya dia masuk taon 2001, sementara gw terakhir di bond taon 1999.
wkt gw sms blast utk announce nomor xl gw, dia termsk yg plg cepet reply. dan stlh itu ya sms2an gitu deh. trus dia ngajak ktemuan. tp gw khan musti ke bdg mgg lalu, jadi gw blg mgg ini aja. nah, wkt hr mgg kmrn, gw sms dia, blg klo gw udah di jkt lagi. ternyata dia di sby. trus dia ngajak ktemuan selasa ini. sms2an lagi tuh, lmyn panjang.
hari ini, ada telp di nomor esia gw. nomornya blm ada di phonebook gw. tp gw lgs nebak, ini pasti dia. dan ternyata emang bener. benernya wkt dia telp itu, gw lg rada ribet. tp gak tau knp, kok mo aja gw ladenin ya... ngobrol2 gitu, kebanyakan ngomongin yg gak penting. but i enjoyed it. she laughed a lot. kira2 nyambung laya ngobrol2nya. trus sorenya, wkt gw mo keluar dari kantor, dia telp lagi. cukup lama, sampe gw di starbucks. itu jg musti stop soalnya hp dia low batt.
gw gak mo ge-er ya... tp utk org yg blm terlalu akrab, she's very friendly. what's this?
gilaaaa... tanggung jawab gw di acara intel media camp kmrn mgkn gak besar, tp ternyata kerjanya malah lebih parah. ato mgkn kondisi "medan" hotelnya yg jauh lebih berat dibanding wkt di bali ya? di bali, mgkn jalannya lebih jauh dari kamar ke meeting room, but almost no stairs were involved. di lembang, tangga2nya itu loh! brrrrr...
hasilnya, 1 hari stlh plg, gw msh pegel2 gini. ditambah a major headache. sampe tadi sore masih kerasa banget. skrg tinggal sisanya... hhh...
gw skrg lagi di lembang, acara intel. kyk taon lalu yg di bali itu. bedanya, dulu posisi gw sbg pemikir, tp skrg gw "cuma" jd account support. hahaha... no probs for me, actually. malah lebih bagus, soalnya tanggung jawab gw jadi gak tll byk, hihihihi... *ktawa licik*
lmyn nih, adem2 gitu. secara di lembang. hotelnya jg lmyn bagus. san gria. dan yg plg asik buat gw: gratis tis tis tis! hahaha...
akhirnya gw bisa juga cobain video call. 3G. telkomsel. biasa aja sih benernya. kualitasnya jg biasa2 aja, malah suaranya cenderung tersendat2 gitu.
skrg gw pengen coba yg xl. tp blm ada temennya nih, buat nyobain. mgkn nanti gw mo ajak citra utk coba. 3G xl rada gak jelas, soalnya kyknya gak perlu register, tp justru prosesnya lebih ribet dari telkomsel. oh well. let's see.
butuh hal yg bener2 penting utk bikin gw gak nyanyi bareng psgp di gereja, apalagi klo lagu2nya susah. nah, salah satu hal penting tsb: ktemuan sama sodara2 gw. ce2 di foto ini sepupu2 gw. lovely, aren't they? of course donk! hahahahaha...
yeah, spt yg gw blg, mgg ini bener2 hectic banget buat gw. meeting meeting meeting meeting! gw gak pny wkt utk kehidupan pribadi! dueh!
1. the clients
gak cm 1. at least ada 2 client yg gw urusin. gak tll bikin pusing sih, soalnya so far sih good2 aja. tp bos bawang di kantor yg selalu reseh. mgkn dia lagi perlu bayar apartemennya ya, jadi panik gitu deh.
2. the choir
gw udah mulai kerja sbg ketua panitia refreshing. rapat jumat kmrn bener2 kasih gw bbrp tangible, workable ideas. i love them! it's going to be hard work, guaranteed, tp the people seem capable. i know they are.
3. the girl
why is it with the girl? first, she said she was sorry and i was entitled to get angry. i said i wasn't angry, but sad. trus dia mulai diemin gw. sms2 gw gak dibales. dan gw akhirnya mulai sebel. predictably, dia malah jadi marah. hey, i thought you said i had the right to be angry?!?!?! gw ajak ngomong, didinginin. ohhh... that was the last straw. who need you, girl? maybe i did, but i'm not stupid. trus tadi tau2 dia telp, tanya gw di grj ato di rmh. what the?! abis itu dia sms, she said she's sorry. like i said, i'm not stupid. i may regret rejecting her now, but it's better drpd nanti diomelin ato didiemin lagi. it's nola all over again. your loss, girl!!!!
4. the family
as usual, major headache. gw berusaha spy gak bt. dan tampaknya cukup berhasil. it's not that i'm avoiding the problems, no. i'm just trying to solve them without being affected by them, that's all.
5. the gift
what gift?!?!?! my birthday gift from my friends at the office, you silly! gw dibeliin jaket. very, very nice. sayangnya agak kecil, jadi gak bisa ditutup. mgkn ada pesan tersembunyi spy gw ngecilin perut alias diet ya?!?!?! hahahaha...
mmmm i think that's all the updates for this week ya... see you sometimes later, my blog!
valentine's day. gw gak pernah ngerayain valentine. liat nih, deskripsinya dari wikipedia:
Saint Valentine's Day or Valentine's Day is on February 14. It is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other; sending Valentine's cards, candy, or donations to charities, often anonymously. It is very common to present flowers on Valentine's Day. The holiday is named after two men, both Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.
The day is most closely associated with the mutual exchange of love notes in the form of "valentines". Modern Valentine symbols include the heart-shaped outline and the figure of the winged Cupid. Since the 19th century, handwritten notes have largely given way to mass-produced greeting cards. The Greeting Card Association estimates that approximately one billion valentines are sent each year worldwide, making the day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year behind Christmas. The association estimates that women purchase approximately 85 percent of all valentines.
"it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other". lovers. the fact that on every valentine gw gak pny pacar doesn't help, nor does it encourage me to celebrate it. sama sapa?!?! hahahaha...gw tadi sore ktemu adeline. trus kita makan di warung pasta. on her. hehehe... udah lama banget kita gak ktemu, jadi tadi itu semacem kangen2an deh. hahahaha... ohhh we talked, and we talked, and we talked. sampe ke satu subject, web page gw yg jadul banget. ada di sini. it's so humiliating bahkan cuma utk ngliatnya. untungnya, sebagian feature2nya udah gak jalan. jadi gak terlalu kliatan deh noraknya gw dulu wkt masih demen2nya coba2 bikin web pages. hahaha...
ini udah bulan februari. artinya: masih musim ujan (bahkan banjir besaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr & lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa), bulannya cuma pendek, dan, yg paling penting:
MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY on the 8th!
hehehehe....
here i am, di hari2 terakhir gw di down under, alias oz. gak tau ya, gw emang gak tll semangat utk dateng ke sini, kecuali utk nengok syd uni & coles wynyard (it's now called "coles central" rather than "coles express"). selain itu, kyknya biasa aja. hampir semua temen2 gw udah gak ada di sini.
dan ternyata bener. i got bored, big time! nostalgia cuma bertahan di 2 hari pertama. stlh itu? oh, been there, done that. certainly not a great way to justify spending those hard-earned money to get here, right? right.
sebanyak apapun masalah yg gw hadapi di rmh, home sweet home. i can't wait to go back to jkt!
call me norak, call me dodol, call me anything. tapi rasanya gw minggu ini sama sekali gak bt. ada sih "cobaan2" yg benernya bisa bikin gw bt. tapi ngapain ya? gw bisa milih utk bt, ato gw bisa milih utk gak bt. simpel. dan mgkn org2 di sekitar gw udah tll cape ngliat gw bt.
so.. yeah, here i am. revitalized. not really "lahir baru" spt istilah org2 kharismatik sih. gw cuma jadi org goblog for the most part of 2006. not i'm back to my senses. hahaha...
oya, kmrn gw ktemuan sama ajeng. wahhhhh time really flies klo ngobrol sama dia. tau2 udah jam 9 ya jeng? kita bisa ngobrolin banyakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk hal. dari yg gak penting, sampe yg serius banget. i really, really missed talking to her. pdhl hampir tiap hari chatting di ym, tp beda banget lah. iya gak jeng? yuks kita ktemuan lagi, nanti abis gw dari oz. ok? =D
all in all, have a nice weekend, people. i know i will. or at least, i'll do my best to have one. cheers!
visa australia gw keluar! horeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! thank You, God, thank You, thank You, thank You!
okeh. hari senin yg baru. essentially the first full week in 2007. nah, gw udah mutusin utk live a new life. turn things around. misalnya aja, gw udah lamaaaaaaaaaaaaa banget gak berdoa. yaaa kecuali klo utk makan dan bbrp hal laen. but basically i've been so far away from God. kyknya itu yg bikin gw jd bt & listless. sooo, swallowing my shame & fear, gw mulai hari ini dgn doa. dan hasilnya, kyknya sih udah mulai kliatan. gw lebih ceria hari ini, lebih positif, lebih optimis. hey, with God on my side, ada alasan apa utk gak optimis, right?
so, here i am. still the same old stephen alexander yoshua warouw. tapi dgn semangat baru deh.
ok. the way things are right now, they're much improved. including my mood. gw udah gak tll bt. again, thanks to those bunch of temen2 yg gak cape2nya menghibur gw, pdhl mgkn mrk gak tau gw lg bt. ajeng. alda. dips. patty. tirza. ime.
my relation with one particular person has... come to a... reasonable level. not in the way i would have preferred, but nonetheless it's much better than being enemies, right?
so... yeah... gw udah gak bt. tp kyknya skrg gw malah jadi sedih. damn it! this has been a full roller-coaster week for me dlm hal emosi ya. i wonder... mgkn menjadi Vulcan is not such a bad idea... live long, and prosper!
gw? egois??? moi????? whatthe f*ck have you been eating, my dear sister?!?!?! how dare you call me selfish!!!! have you forgotten the things i said, i did, for you?? and now you call me selfish, simply because i don't like and agree with how things are going with the visa?!?!?! which, was a problem in itself, because you didn't listen to me previously on NOT bringing chelsea back to indonesia???
My God... fine... more and more people are calling me selfish nowadays. people whom i thought understood me, knew me. so you think i'm selfish, sis? fine. let me be selfish!
gw masih bt. dan pagi ini hampir gak ada alasan buat gw utk ketawa. klo alasan utk bt, banyak! pertama, ini hari jumat, tp gw musti meeting. jadi gw musti pake pakaian resmi. kedua, papa makin reseh aja sama soal visa. ketiga, papa sampe nelp, katanya jola minta nomor kantor visa.
all of this and i have noone to talk to. the person i could always relied on, now is angry with me, krn suatu perkataan yang dia salah ngerti.
i got a little consolation last night, actually. from ime, alda, tirza, patty. you're all great, ladies. tp sayangnya tetap aja beda ya...
damn it! i really, really need to get a grip here. come on, steve! you're much stronger than this!
Things Geeks Did on New Year's Eve | |
| 11. | Kissed their WoW avatar at midnight. |
| 10. | Watched the BIOS date change years. |
| 9. | Hoped for a Y2K+7 bug. |
| 8. | Too busy playing nethack to notice. |
| 7. | Listened to Auld Lang Syne on their iPod. |
| 6. | Popped open a bottle of caffeinated champagne. |
| 5. | Updated their New Year's Resolution database to reflect the passing year. |
| 4. | Defragmented their hard drives. |
| 3. | Stayed up for 24 hours to wish all their online friends in different time zones a Happy New Year at the appropriate hour. |
| 2. | Had to come in to work to upgrade and reboot servers all night long. |
| 1. | Nothing. Real Klingons don't celebrate puny holidays like New Year's Eve. |
secara kyknya minggu ini gw bakal ngeluh terus di blog gw ini, i'm declaring this week as my week of despair.
gak tau knp ya, gw dikelilingi oleh org2 egois. org2 yg seharusnya plg deket sama gw, justru minta ini-itu dari gw, tanpa consideration apapun utk kebutuhan gw sendiri. come on, people! or, is it: come on, steve! wake up and face it, this is the world today! people are selfish. there's no "inner circle". nooo... there's only one when they need you. the other way around? "uh, sorry, i've got other engagements."
begitu kah? dan bodohnya gw, gw plg susah utk blg "TIDAK". jadi org2 bakal terus manfaatin gw. hmmm... mgkn ini saatnya utk berubah. dgn begitu mgkn gw akan dicap sbg org yg jutek. but if that's what it takes to save my feelings, and my sanity, let the world (or at least those rotten people) see the selfish stephen warouw.
call me a pessimist. i don't see how this year can be any different from 2006. in fact, i started the new year with a rather gloomy tone. what's with all those problems, which, i may say, are not mine directly.
resolutions? just want to live my life day to day and get it over with. nothing special. oh i wished for something special last year, but what happened? nothing. well, i may have been given a reprieve or two, but that was it. maybe i have done soooooooo many bad things, i just don't deserve to be happy. it's as if my "happiness allowance" has run out.
so, welcome to a new year, steve. but whether it's going to be a happy one for you, it remains to be seen.
