Milka Citra Elmeria Horoni

my dear blog, i want to tell you a story. this is a story about Milka Citra Elmeria Horoni, or "Citra", my lovely "adopted" sister.

i met & got to know her from psgp. she's the secretary. i'm not exactly a person who can instantly be friendly to others, but somehow with her, we clicked. she told me stories about her cousin, who died of cancer. and i really listened. we talked about "pacaran", kind of those heart-to-heart talk (really a long sentence for "curhat", don't u think, hahahaha.)

then i got interested in her. "hey," i thought, "i like this girl, i want to be closer to her." so i called, sent smses, asked to meet. u know, the things we called "PDKT". it was really getting intense. but unfortunately i was going to bali at the thick of things, for Rianti's wedding. sooo i had to disappoint her because i couldn't sing with the choir the night i flew to bali. i really felt bad. sometimes i still do. but things went on. i talked to her on the phone. it was then when she made me say the words. the magic words.

then her grandpa passed away. and i was still in bali. u know, my blog, how i wanted to be with her, comfort her. but i couldn't. what kind of a boyfriend i was, huh?!?! shame on me! and she went to surabaya for the funeral. we talked and talked and talked.

when i returned to jkt, she was in sby. the first time we met, as a couple, was in the church. i can't describe how i felt. i was still dazed, not believing she say yes to me. this lovely lady actually accepted me to be her boyfriend...

fast forward. it wasn't really a smooth road. we hit roadblocks. mainly because she didn't approve the way i behaved in the choir. we broke up, rebound, broke up, rebound. i can't remember how many times we did that. and then she gave up. i was really angry. so angry i said some mean words to her. then i realized, it was all my fault. i apologized.

things went ok.we went (and still go, today) as "kakak-adik". during this time, she was knitting back her relation to her previous bf before me. when she told me she was back with him, felt like someone just hit me on the nose, real hard. i had a hard time digesting it. i even asked for a permission to go away. but she refused, saying i meant a lot to her. me being not me, accepted what she said.

came new year. we talked on the phone. she really pushed for me to get a girlfriend, and she set her eyes on this girl, who was actually my "crush" for sooo many times. things became strange when she became mad at me, after i said i still had a soft spot for this girl. i thought, my blog, "hey, you wanted me to like her, now i said i like her, you're angry with me?? what's going on here?" she actually ignored me for a few days. when we met, at starbucks, she treated me very badly. but then, later that night, she called me and she said she was just being playful on me.

then i was going to australia with papa & Chelsea. she was sad, and told me she didn't want me to go there. but i had to go. while i was there, we smsed a lot. she was still sad. when i joked that i considered for a permanent residency, she got mad and ignored me. i was touched. someone really cared for me.

then i got back. however, i began to feel lonely. i didn't get many calls and smses from her. i should had understood that she had her own life, and she didn't belong to me anymore. but i stood firm on her sms which said she would always be there for me. i finally found the nerve to remind her. in what was an unexpected answer, my blog, she decided to withdrew from my life. what the?!?!?! i refused to let her go away. in what was described as a panic mode, i sent her sooo many smses. her friend thought i was going crazy. amazing. i didn't know i had the capability, hahahaha...

soon we patched things up. sooo, until today, we're still "brother & sister." of course, we have our differences here and there. but i love & care for Citra so much, i just can't be angry at her for long. after each "fight", most of the time i'd be the first to apologize. things i do for love.

so, u see, my dear blog, it's an interesting relationship, isn't it? i actually have so many things to tell u, but i'll keep them for myself for now. maybe later ya. gotta go now. bubye.

my new toy

yihaaaa... finally! i've got my new "toy"!! hahahaha... it's about time i take the next step. coincidentally, i can use the "toy" for other means as well. hehehehe... i'm so excited!!

Today's birthday

9 Mei:

- Arly
- Zusan
- Ervin Lubis

Happy birthday!!

Today's birthday

8 Mei:

- Temmy

Happy birthday!!

"nah, kamu kapan nih??"

pictured here is my cousin, Elvi, with her husband, Andre. Elvi is a year younger than me. now she's married.

next came the inevitable question: "giliran kamu kapan? khan Jola (my sister) udah nikah, udah punya anak pula. skrg Elvi nikah. nah, masa kamu dilewatin gitu diem2 aja?"

*sigh*

katana to cut a wedding cake?? kill bill, anyone?? hehehe...

alone

why is it, today, i've been feeling so lonely... alone... almost to point of desperation... i'm so ashamed. i have God to guide me. i have my parents. i have Jola, Donny, and Chelsea to cheer me from afar. i have Ajeng. i have Adeline. i have Venny, my faithful SMS mate. i have Erita. i have Tirza. i have Citra, my lovely, lovely "adopted" sister. i have friends. i have my notebook. i have my iPod. i have my mobile phones. but still, i'm so lonely... alone... oh how unfaithful of me...

maybe i'm just being selfish. yes. i think i am. selfish & stupid. stephen. you're a fool. i'm a fool. see, self-pity. what kind of a man i am, huh? shame on me...

what i didn't see..

rumput tetangga selalu lebih hijau.
ya.
gw ngerti skrg.
lebih hijau.
memang.
pdhl yg tidak hijau itu tidak selamanya jelek.
gw udah tll sering ngejar hal-hal yg gak jelas.
susah2, jauh2, repot2, capek2.
pdhl ada yg mgkn gw gak perlu kejar.
mgkn gw tinggal deketin sbntr, gw udah bakal dpt.
yup.
i was blind.
perhaps i still am.
perhaps i'm still wrong.
chasing shadows.
useless.
waste of time.
waste of energy.
akhirnya gw yg rugi sendiri.

*sigh*

Today's birthday

4 Mei:

- Astrid

Happy birthday!!

menulis itu gampang

bener deh! nulis itu gampang. KLO: udah nemu ide, bahan2 udah dapet, dan, ini yg plg penting, kita udah dpt mood utk nulis.

itu yg gw alami skrg. stlh berthn2 gak nulis, rasanya kakuuuuuuuuuuuuu banget utk bisa nulis lagi. dan begitu nulis, wah kok rasanya kurang sana-sini ya. posting pertama (dan masih satu2nya) di blog gw yg i did this for a living aja udah bbrp kali gw revisi.

cape sih... tapi somehow gw ada kepuasan di sana.

rasain loe!

stephen alexander yoshua warouw. salah satu org yg plg cuek. itu mnrt gw sih. tp ada bbrp org laen yg jg blg klo gw orgnya cuek. mo ada yg marah2, bodo amat. sebaliknya, gw bisa dgn gampang marah2 klo ada hal yg gw gak suka. i'm very outspoken. dan gw ngomong apa yg ada di pikiran gw (even though most of the times my "pikiran" aren't in control). dan terus terang aja, gw bangga dgn kecuekan gw ini.

tp knp ya, utk 1 org ini gw sama sekali gak bisa cuek. oh, of course, gw pernah berusaha utk cuek. tp kok gak bisa. aneh. mgkn gw kena karma ya. hahaha.. dan anehnya lagi, gw jg gak tll keberatan utk gak cuek. bener2 aneh. i'm cursed. really, really cursed. but i don't mind.

step, rasain loe!

dasar anak2...

percakapan paling lucu yg gw denger di acara paskah warouw kmrn:

"adik-adik, setelah kita mati, kita masuk ke...?"
"ke kuburan, kak!"

hehehehe... namanya jg anak2 ya. biarpun abis "sekolah minggu", tp cara berpikir mrk msh lugu banget. polos.

gelep..

gw pengen nulis. tp gw gak tau mo nulis apa. makanya judulnya gelep. eniwei gw lg di starbucks, on my sweet spot. udah rada lama jg gak online dari sini. kmrn2 itu sempet mati wifinya. skrg udah on lagi. kyknya ada perubahan dikit deh di sistemnya. skrg udah lebih secure. at least gw gak dpt security warning dari software gw.

oya. citra lagi ngambeg. knp ya? kyknya gara2 gw semlm ngotot gak mo nyanyi kantoria deh. salah jg gw smlm burst out gitu. tp konsepnya ternyata emang aneh. dan bener2 makan tenaga banget. dan gw, me being outspoken, gw selalu ngomong apa yg ada di pikiran gw. peduli amat org laen mo nganggep apa. tp terus terang gw kaget jg wkt citra ngomong rada marah gitu. mgkn dia jg lagi capek ya.

Today's birthday

26 April:

- Francisca Wungu

Happy birthday!!

mind your own business!!

how i hate this person. hatehatehatehate! damn it! she just can't mind her own business! damn it! what a bitch!!!

but i guess it's hereditary. of all the bawangs i know, only 1% is nice. the rest are pricks & bitches. damn it!

Today's birthday

25 April:

- Lena Apriliya

Happy birthday!!

the fashion designer

Citra ngelarang gw utk ngomong hal ini ke si fashion designer. tp gw bener2 lagi eneg sama dia. drpd gw stress, mending gw tulis di blog aja dah. gw yakin si fashion designer cukup gaptek utk bisa baca blog. and if she does read this post, it's good!

wkt dulu gw deket sama dia, dia bener2 treated me like garbage. ckckck.. dan bodohnya dulu gw nurut aja. tp pernah, gw sakit, sampe2 gak bisa nyanyi. dia bilang apa? "klo gw ya, klo gw sakit dan bener2 gak bisa bangun dari tempat tidur, baru gw gak nyanyi!"

ohya? nowadays, dia tuh NGAKUNYA sakit mulu. sakit ini lah, sakit itu lah. what, you're so sick you can't get up from your bed? is that the case, huh, fashion designer?

gw ngeliat hal ini sbg satu contoh where we can be haunted by what we said or did in the past. fashion designer ini dulu begiiituuu bangganya dgn kemampuan dirinya sendiri, sampe2 dia bisa ngomong spt itu. dan skrg liat hasilnya. gw gak perlu ngelakuin apa2 utk ngebales perlakuan dia thd gw. no, she doesn't deserve anything from me. not anymore. and seeing her "eating her own words" like this, it's reward enough for me. hahahaha...

Today's birthdays

gw skrg pengen mulai lagi naro ultah temen2 gw di harinya.

23 April:

- BM Adam
- Jerry Udampo

Happy birthday!!

apakah gw romantis?

berikut ini percakapan gw dgn Citra, semalem:
"kak, tau gak, rabu kmrn wkt km udah pulang, iyan bilang km tuh romantis deh."
"ha? aku romantis? kok bisa?"
"iya lah kak. km tuh bela2in abis dari airport utk mampir ke gereja cuma buat ktemu aku. km dtg, trus sun aku, trus km pergi. gak sampe lima menit. itu romantis lah!"
"iya kah?"
"iya kak. aku tuh sedeket2nya sama orang, ato sama pacar2ku, gak ada yg sampe segitunya tau."
"hahahahaha... kok aneh ya..."
"aneh kenapa?"
"iya aneh, kok aku bisa ngelakuin hal yg aku gak tau. apalagi dulu ada beberapa orang yg bilang aku tuh paling gak romantis."
"km tuh romantis, kak. dari cara2mu itu lho. justru krn km gak sadar klo km romantis, jdnya km gak pura2."

uplifting, isn't it? hahahaha... tp gw kok msh blm yakin ya. blm yakin klo gw romantis. you see, of the pluses that i'm sure i do have, i wouldn't count romantic ability as one of them. had i been romantic, i wouldn't have problems with my love life, would i?

dan gw jg gak mo terlalu di awang2. i'm still sure i'm not romantic. what i am, is hopelessly sentimental. that's what i am. that's why i do the things i do. that's the stephen warouw that i know. hahahahaha...

me & ajeng

kyknya ini foto pertama gw yg bareng2 ajeng deh. iya gak sih jeng? diambil pake hp renya di acara nikahan chicha, anak detikinet, sabtu kmrn. yg bikin gw rada kaget, kok di sini muka kita kliatan mirip deh.

me & citra

Ini dua foto dari acara jualan psgp utk pergi refreshing ke carita, juni nanti. mesra banget ya sepasang "kakak-adik" ini? hahaha... klo org2 gak tau, pasti kita dikirain pacaran deh!

nekad

ya, gw akhirnya nekad. stlh dpt ide dari ajeng, gw ubah tulisan gw di blog gw yg satu lagi ke bhs inggris. gak gampang sih. nekad. tapi kyknya it's the way to go gitu loh...

I did this for a living

seneng deh rasanya gw punya tempat untuk nulis lagi. soalnya klo nulis di sini kyknya kok campur aduk antara masalah2 pribadi (BACA: curhat dan omelan) dgn tulisan2 semi-pro. nah, dgn blog I Did This For A Living, gw skrg bisa misahin kedua hal tsb.

knp nama blognya kok gitu? sederhana aja sih. dulu khan gw kerja di infokomputer. sbg reviewer. jadi dgn nama itu, gw mo sekaligus nostalgia gitu. dulu gw dibayar utk nulis. skrg gw "cuma" iseng aja, sambil terus ngasah kemampuan gw spy gak tumpul *CIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*

eniwei, kyknya sih emang udah mulai tumpul. dalam wkt kurang dr 24 jam, gw udah berkali2 revise tulisan gw. kurang sana, kurang sini, jelek sana, jelek sini. waahhh... tp itulah enaknya nulis di blog (dan internet, for that matter). kita bisa dgn cepet mengkoreksi. bandingin sama print media (koran, majalah), ribet banget untuk dikoreksi klo udah naik cetak.

a new, serious blog

gw bikin blog baru. namanya I Did This For A Living. panjang ya namanya? isinya adalah tulisan2 gw mengenai review2 produk2 (mainly gadgets) dan mgkn berita2 IT. udah lama banget lah gw pengen nulis lagi. tp kyknya klo gw post di sini kok ya gak pas. makanya gw bikin blog baru aja deh. simple template, gw gak pake utak-atik lagi....

The 1-day Yogya Trip

yogya. or is it jogja? gw gak tau deh. yg pasti gw lebih suka aja nulis "yogya", pdhl klo ngomong, ya gw blg "jogja".

rabu kmrn itu pengalaman pertama gw tugas keluar kota, pergi pake pesawat, dan pulang di hari yg sama. my first! ckckckck... gak usah gw bilang capenya kyk apa.

begini perjalanannya:

1. jam 4 pagi gw udah brkt ke airport. sampe di sana jam 5 kurang banyak. pesawat gw scheduled for 6am, jadi gw pny byk wkt. secara gw pulang hari, jadi gak bawa koper. cukup bawa tas kerja (udah pasti salah satu isinya adalah laptop), dan ransel kecil yg isinya baju. jadi check-in pun simpel.
2. brkt ke yogya. it was uneventful. mulus2 aja. it made me bored to death. perjalanan 50 menit paling membosankan.
3. sampe di yogya. airportnya udah bagus. brought me many memories, secara wkt gw terakhir ke yogya, baru abis gempa. ancur2an sana sini, termasuk airportnya. gw lgs keluar, pesen taksi. lewat pintu utama, gw sempetin diri nengok ke pojok tempat dulu "tenda" media center bakornas. "tempat kerja" gw selama seminggu wkt tugas di sana thn lalu.
4. sampe di hotel. hyatt regency. very, very nice. resort, ada lapangan golfnya.
5. di kamar, gw rada kaget jg liat barang2 byk banget. gw salut sama kristin & fannie, 2 ce tp cukup perkasa. ngobrol2, trus kita turun utk makan pagi.
6. balik ke kamar utk istirahat. gw sempet tidur2an bentar. udah mulai ngantuk. tp gw putusin utk mandi aja. abis itu lgs turun utk cek tempat media conference.
7. di tempat medconf, kita bengong. manfaatin wkt utk beres2 media kit. panas banget, pdhl musti pake complete suit.
8. rehearsal. mulus lah. tugas gw "cuma" jadi mc & moderator. piece of cake. ada tugas ekstra: nerjemahin balik ke bhs indonesia.
9. the real thing. mulus juga. no probs.
10. selesai. beres2. sempet ngobrol sama mas gigin dari swa.
11. balik ke kamar. sempet coba tahan utk gak tidur (soalnya gw gak tega sama Citra), tp akhirnya gak kuat, dan teparlah gw.
12. jam 5 bangun utk mandi. berendem di bath tub. ahhhh... abis itu shower.
13. jam 6, brkt ke airport. sampe, check-in, masuk ruang tunggu. wahhhhhhhhh udah keren! ckckckck... ternyata gempa ada gunanya jg ya...
14. 7.30, pesawat take off. gerimis. ohya, landasan di bandara adisucipto itu kyknya landasan paling gak mulus dari airport-airport yg pernah gw datengin. gilaaaaaaaa, serasa polisi tidur sepanjang landasan gitu. tp itu yg bikin gw seneng. hahahaha...
15. lagi2 uneventful flight. tp anehnya kenapa kali ini kerasa lebih cepet dibanding wkt brkt ya?
16. mendarat pk 08.25. on time. lgs keluar. gw dijemput pak basirin. gw lgs telp rumah, trus telp Citra.
17. jam 9 lewat dikit sampe semanggi. gw putusin utk mampir ke gereja, krn anak2 latian ps. lagian gw pengen ktemu Citra.
18. sampe di gereja. gw berdiri di belakang Citra. begitu dia nengok, kaget dia. hehehe... kasian, pdhl niat gw bkn utk bikin kaget.
19. ngomong bentar sm Citra, trus gw lgs pulang. gak enak sama pak basirin, soalnya dia musti balikin mobil ke rawasari, pdhl rumahnya di bintaro. gw gak tega.
20. sampe rumah, mandi, trus tidur deh...

itulah perjalanan gw hari rabu kmrn... perjalanan yg mnrt gw bener2 buang2 wkt gw doank, dan bikin kerjaan gw yg laen terbengkalai... huh!

when is love "love"?

hari ini Citra, seseorang yg udah gw anggap adik, seseorang yg gw sayang banget, nulis sesuatu di notepad gw. ttg seseorang yg gw taksir. dia gak tll setuju dgn pilihan gw tsb. mnrtnya, si ce ini gak pny sesuatu nilai tambah yg bisa bikin gw berkembang.

gw tau Citra sayang sama gw, dan cuma mikirin yg terbaik buat gw. makanya, gw hargain banget pendapat2nya. krn gw rasa dia udah tau banget ttg gw, dan kadang2 gw ngerasa dia lebih kenal gw dibanding gw sendiri.

jadi, wkt dia bilang gitu, gw jadi mikir. apa mgkn gw cuma naksir sesaat? apa mgkn gw cuma "have a crush"? betul, gw seneng banget wkt masa2 gw naksir nih ce. spt yg gw tulis di posting gw sebelomnya. tapi trus, apalagi stlh kejadian di nikahan cucunya tante gw itu, yg gw spt dicuekin, gw jadi mikir lagi. mgkn itu tanda2 yg gak bagus buat gw.

balik ke laptop, eh Citra, wkt dia baca posting gw, dia jadi nyesel gitu. dan itu yg dia tulis di notepad gw. dia jadi ngerasa egois, udah "ngejatuhin semangat gw", dan bikin gw mikir dua kali utk nerusin dgn si ce ini.

nah, jadi balik ke judul, kapankah cinta itu "cinta"? apa bedanya cinta sama sekedar naksir? terus terang gw gak tau. di satu sisi gw yakin gw adalah org yg gak tll plinplan. klo gw udah pny satu tekad, gw bakal kejar trus. bahkan Citra pun gak bakal bisa ngubah pendirian gw. tp knp utk hal yg satu ini gw bisa jadi bimbang? apakah gw jatuh cinta? ato gw cuma lagi ngerasa kesepian, trus nemu si ce ini, yg bisa ngehibur gw, dan jadi naksir dia?

Nearer My God To Thee...

hahaha... tenang2. gw nyanyi lagu ini bkn krn gw mo meninggal! tp gw merasa sejak paskah jadi makin deket aja ke Tuhan. which is a good thing. and which is what i'm supposed to be, secara gw jd "aktivis" di effatha gitu loh!

tp rupanya bener jg ya, semakin kita berusaha utk bertobat, cobaan tuh makin banyak aja. in the days following easter, gw makiiiiiiin sibuk banget. kerjaan tuh bertubi2 gitu. dan temptation utk jadi unfaithful jg makin besar. hal2 sederhana lah, spt waktu utk berdoa. tp gw udah bertekad utk make it stick this time. gw udah berkali2 dikasih kesempatan, masa sih mo ancur2an trus. it's time to change!

come to think of it, the mess i was in during the year before easter, mnrt gw terjadi krn gw gak setia. all those "disasters". ckckckckck... gw bisa berulang2 "what if", "coba aja kalo...", "gimana klo wkt itu..", tp semuanya gak ada gunanya selama gw gak tobat2.

so here i am. not a new man. not being reborn. no. gw cuma sedang berusaha utk gak berbuat lebih banyak dosa. dan kali ini gw yakin & percaya, Tuhan ada bersama-sama gw. Amin!

foto2 paskah

easter is near!!

jarang2 ya gw baca kalimat spt judul posting gw. biasanya "christmas is near!" hehehe.. besok udah jumat agung. minggu, paskah. can't wait for it. mksdnya, gw gak sabar utk nunggu paskah selesai, spy gw bisa rada santai. sibuksibuksibuksibuk...

kegiatan paskahnya sendiri, kali ini beda sama taon lalu. taon lalu gw jadi panitia. dan sibuknya amit2. skrg gw "cuma" jadi pengisi acara. tp kok kyknya tetap aja lmyn sibuk ya?!?!

gw jg mo kritik panitia kali ini. leleeeeet banget kerjanya. paskah di awal april, baru mulai sibuk akhir feb. jadinya, kegiatannya almost zero. ckckckck... trus juga kebanting banget dibanding natal. come on, easter is far far far more important than christmas! kenapa, uang udah abis utk bayar artis2 drama natal kmrn? what a joke! gw gak bilang klo kerjaan panitia taon lalu lebih baik, tapi gw cuma mo blg klo kegiatan2 kita dulu lebih banyak, dan mnrt gw lebih berbobot.

a side note: i'm getting tired...

it's this subject again

gw benernya udah bosen banget ngomongin ttg kematian. really. tp kmrn temen bokap meninggal. oom didi. lmyn deket sama bokap. klo nyokap lagi males pergi2, bokap bakal telp oom didi, dan dia dgn senang hati bakal dateng utk pergi bareng bokap.

yesterday he died. cancer. went downhill in only three weeks. just like that.

yg bikin gw kuatir adalah, semakin banyak temen2 bokap (& nyokap) yg meninggal, i'm being constantly reminded that my parents are getting old. they are. and inevitably, they too, will die. sesering-seringnya gw cekcok sama mereka, mereka tetap ortu gw. dan gw sayang sama mereka. i can't imagine losing them...

dipromosikan?

gw heran nih. kmrn wkt kebaktian gp mupel selatan, Pdt. Sri Wadu yg jadi pembawa firman. di situ lagi2 dia "promosiin" gw. ktnya, di mana ada stephen, pasti ada sukacita. wedew. am i that fun? am i that heboh? trus dia blg lagi, ce2 silakan apply, soalnya stephen itu orgnya gini gitu gini gitu, basically gw baik banget deh, bertolak belakang sama karakter "bruce" yg gw mainkan kmrn itu.

so, yeah, i was promoted heavily last saturday. for free. oleh seorang pendeta lho. hahahaha... does that make me a good guy? not even me know the answer! hahahaha...

acting or not?!?!?

sabtu kmrn gw lagi2 dapet peran. fragment di acara kebaktian gp mupel selatan. peran gw adalah bruce, seorang lulusan luar yg skeptis banget sama acara2 di gereja. bruce ini orangnya sepaaaa abisssss. sombong, pede berlebihan, etc etc. pokoknya nyebelin banget. saking percaya dirinya, wkt mo diinterview, dia bilang gak usah, soalnya perusahaan2 pasti mo terima dia, krn kualifikasinya yg gila2an. predictably, dia malah gak diterima di mana2 krn kesombongannya itu. bahkan ujian pns jg gak lewat. alhasil, dia sadar, dan akhirnya malah masuk stt utk jadi pendeta.

nah. yg menarik utk gw bukan ceritanya. itu sih biasa banget. tp bgmn gw ngebawain karakter si bruce ini. yg plg bisa ngenilai tentu aja lawan maen gw ya, violen. dia jadi bagian hrd yg mo interview gw. mnrt dia, gw tuh asli sepaaaaaaaaaa abisssss. hahahaha... dia blg org2 laen jg yg jadi sebel2 gitu. mission accomplished!

trus banyak yg nanya (termasuk gw sendiri), seberapa banyak dari ke-sepa-an itu yg acting, seberapa banyak yg betulan. apakah gw bener2 nyebelin orgnya? hahahaha...

downturn?

gw kok ngerasa dicuekin ya wkt acara nikahan kmrn?

it was such a nice day... but it can be again, hopefully!!

gw semalem seneng, krn bisa ngobrol sama the girl, meskipun cuma lewat telp. dia sms gw, ktnya udah ngantuk banget. ya dengan pede-nya gw telp aja. suaranya ngantuk banget gitu, hahaha... terus gw ajak becanda aja. sampe ke topik ttg gw yg beberapa hari ini ke gerejaaaaaa trus. gw blg ke dia "ya sapa tau gw bisa jadi suci". lha dia lgs ngakak gitu. hahahaha... so i literally opened her eyes. hehehe...

yg bikin gw seneng bkn cuma ngobrol2nya sih ya. itu biasa lah. tp ada kata2nya yg.. waahhh... kyknya bisa bikin gw utk nerusin pdkt. no, she didn't say anything about her liking me. no, i haven't asked the question yet. hahaha... dudududu...

tapiiii, pagi ini suasana gw yg lg seneng itu dirusak oleh ortu gw... ah... cape banget deh kadang2. feels like being in a playpen with two toddlers. which happen to be my parents...

tapiiii lagi, moga2 sore ini suasana bisa jadi lebih baik deh. it has to be!

it's that feeling again

ah... udah lamaaaaaaaa kyknya gw gak ngerasain perasaan ini deh... and i think it's about time.. i'm in love! ah.. dan kali ini ceritanya cukup menarik... saking menariknya, gw blm berani tulis di sini, hehehe... suffice to say, there's this girl... orgnya asik banget, nyambung klo bcanda sama gw. cerdas & ramah.

kita udah ktemu bbrp kali, di acara2. sabtu kmrn, particularly, mgkn pertama kalinya kita bisa ngobrol cukup bebas berdua utk wkt yg cukup lama. becanda, ngomong serius. maklum, kita berdua jadi bintang tamu di acara nikahan sabtu kmrn itu. secara gw & dia gak pernah latian psw, tp kita dipanggil utk nyanyi.

gw ngerasa ada instant chemistry aja gitu. tapi, gw jg musti keep my feet on the ground sih. the fact that i don't know her very well can't be ignored.

but at least, at least, it's good to have this feeling again... temen2 gw bahkan bilang klo kmrn gw kliatan ceria banget. hahaha.. that's me, alright. i just can't hide my feelings.

more pictures from PSW

oops. wrong title. hahaha.. soalnya gw tulis judulnya duluan, baru browsing2 foto2 dari acara nikahan kmrn. ternyata yg lmyn bagus cuma yg ini, foto gw & miranda. yg laen ada jg, tp musti gw brighten dulu. gelap banget euy.

UPDATE: nah, gw udah upload bbrp foto lagi. msh rada gelap sih. gw males soalnya. instead of photoshop, gw cuma pake picasa.

the red angel is still alive, after all

ini aneh banget. klo denger cerita semalem, gw sedih. beneran, sedih klo org yg satu itu jg sedih. tp di sisi gw yg laen, gw seneng. "so that's what you get for hurting me!". dan itu perkataan si malaikat merah gw. gak bagus. quite disgusting, benernya. tp pabolebuat ya. i'm no saint.

4 warouw

ini 4 serangkai Warouw, abis dari gereja, trus siap2 utk "nyerbu" pesta nikahan. hehehe...

foto2 dari acara swap (18 maret 2007)

zzzZZZzzz

doh, cape banget . meeting ke event, ke meeting, meeting, pesta kantor, event lagi... ARRGHHHH!!! i definitely need some sleep!

tp untungnya, i have these people who keep me steady. dan yg Di Atas jg, tentunya. girls, you're all the best deh.

pictures from lembang/bandung

it was nothing

ha... the girl... kita sms2an banyak banget semalem... dia jg telp gw... i felt (and still feel) very comfy with her. tp sblm gw melangkah lebih lanjut, gw ada pertanyaan yg sangat penting. yaitu ttg agama. and unfortunately, we have different faiths. it's just too bad. i think we have the right chemistry. tp perbedaan agama bkn berarti gw gak bisa temenan sama dia. sooo, i'll meet her tonight, have a talk, and it's a new friendship in the making!

what's this???

ada 1 ce. gw pertama kali kenal wkt acara paintball alumni2 bond. taon brp tuh ya?!?! 2003? eniwei. si ce ini sama2 kul di bond, tp kita gak ktemu. soalnya dia masuk taon 2001, sementara gw terakhir di bond taon 1999.

wkt gw sms blast utk announce nomor xl gw, dia termsk yg plg cepet reply. dan stlh itu ya sms2an gitu deh. trus dia ngajak ktemuan. tp gw khan musti ke bdg mgg lalu, jadi gw blg mgg ini aja. nah, wkt hr mgg kmrn, gw sms dia, blg klo gw udah di jkt lagi. ternyata dia di sby. trus dia ngajak ktemuan selasa ini. sms2an lagi tuh, lmyn panjang.

hari ini, ada telp di nomor esia gw. nomornya blm ada di phonebook gw. tp gw lgs nebak, ini pasti dia. dan ternyata emang bener. benernya wkt dia telp itu, gw lg rada ribet. tp gak tau knp, kok mo aja gw ladenin ya... ngobrol2 gitu, kebanyakan ngomongin yg gak penting. but i enjoyed it. she laughed a lot. kira2 nyambung laya ngobrol2nya. trus sorenya, wkt gw mo keluar dari kantor, dia telp lagi. cukup lama, sampe gw di starbucks. itu jg musti stop soalnya hp dia low batt.

gw gak mo ge-er ya... tp utk org yg blm terlalu akrab, she's very friendly. what's this?

the aftermath

gilaaaa... tanggung jawab gw di acara intel media camp kmrn mgkn gak besar, tp ternyata kerjanya malah lebih parah. ato mgkn kondisi "medan" hotelnya yg jauh lebih berat dibanding wkt di bali ya? di bali, mgkn jalannya lebih jauh dari kamar ke meeting room, but almost no stairs were involved. di lembang, tangga2nya itu loh! brrrrr...

hasilnya, 1 hari stlh plg, gw msh pegel2 gini. ditambah a major headache. sampe tadi sore masih kerasa banget. skrg tinggal sisanya... hhh...

lembang oh lembang

gw skrg lagi di lembang, acara intel. kyk taon lalu yg di bali itu. bedanya, dulu posisi gw sbg pemikir, tp skrg gw "cuma" jd account support. hahaha... no probs for me, actually. malah lebih bagus, soalnya tanggung jawab gw jadi gak tll byk, hihihihi... *ktawa licik*

lmyn nih, adem2 gitu. secara di lembang. hotelnya jg lmyn bagus. san gria. dan yg plg asik buat gw: gratis tis tis tis! hahaha...

3G

akhirnya gw bisa juga cobain video call. 3G. telkomsel. biasa aja sih benernya. kualitasnya jg biasa2 aja, malah suaranya cenderung tersendat2 gitu.

skrg gw pengen coba yg xl. tp blm ada temennya nih, buat nyobain. mgkn nanti gw mo ajak citra utk coba. 3G xl rada gak jelas, soalnya kyknya gak perlu register, tp justru prosesnya lebih ribet dari telkomsel. oh well. let's see.

me and the girls...

butuh hal yg bener2 penting utk bikin gw gak nyanyi bareng psgp di gereja, apalagi klo lagu2nya susah. nah, salah satu hal penting tsb: ktemuan sama sodara2 gw. ce2 di foto ini sepupu2 gw. lovely, aren't they? of course donk! hahahahaha...

some updates...

yeah, spt yg gw blg, mgg ini bener2 hectic banget buat gw. meeting meeting meeting meeting! gw gak pny wkt utk kehidupan pribadi! dueh!

1. the clients
gak cm 1. at least ada 2 client yg gw urusin. gak tll bikin pusing sih, soalnya so far sih good2 aja. tp bos bawang di kantor yg selalu reseh. mgkn dia lagi perlu bayar apartemennya ya, jadi panik gitu deh.

2. the choir
gw udah mulai kerja sbg ketua panitia refreshing. rapat jumat kmrn bener2 kasih gw bbrp tangible, workable ideas. i love them! it's going to be hard work, guaranteed, tp the people seem capable. i know they are.

3. the girl
why is it with the girl? first, she said she was sorry and i was entitled to get angry. i said i wasn't angry, but sad. trus dia mulai diemin gw. sms2 gw gak dibales. dan gw akhirnya mulai sebel. predictably, dia malah jadi marah. hey, i thought you said i had the right to be angry?!?!?! gw ajak ngomong, didinginin. ohhh... that was the last straw. who need you, girl? maybe i did, but i'm not stupid. trus tadi tau2 dia telp, tanya gw di grj ato di rmh. what the?! abis itu dia sms, she said she's sorry. like i said, i'm not stupid. i may regret rejecting her now, but it's better drpd nanti diomelin ato didiemin lagi. it's nola all over again. your loss, girl!!!!

4. the family
as usual, major headache. gw berusaha spy gak bt. dan tampaknya cukup berhasil. it's not that i'm avoiding the problems, no. i'm just trying to solve them without being affected by them, that's all.

5. the gift
what gift?!?!?! my birthday gift from my friends at the office, you silly! gw dibeliin jaket. very, very nice. sayangnya agak kecil, jadi gak bisa ditutup. mgkn ada pesan tersembunyi spy gw ngecilin perut alias diet ya?!?!?! hahahaha...

mmmm i think that's all the updates for this week ya... see you sometimes later, my blog!

happy... er... wedne's day! hahahaha...

valentine's day. gw gak pernah ngerayain valentine. liat nih, deskripsinya dari wikipedia:

Saint Valentine's Day or Valentine's Day is on February 14. It is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other; sending Valentine's cards, candy, or donations to charities, often anonymously. It is very common to present flowers on Valentine's Day. The holiday is named after two men, both Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.

The day is most closely associated with the mutual exchange of love notes in the form of "valentines". Modern Valentine symbols include the heart-shaped outline and the figure of the winged Cupid. Since the 19th century, handwritten notes have largely given way to mass-produced greeting cards. The Greeting Card Association estimates that approximately one billion valentines are sent each year worldwide, making the day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year behind Christmas. The association estimates that women purchase approximately 85 percent of all valentines.

"it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other". lovers. the fact that on every valentine gw gak pny pacar doesn't help, nor does it encourage me to celebrate it. sama sapa?!?! hahahaha...

anyway. it's been hectic like hell even so early in the week. gw musti ngurusin banyaaaaaaaak banget. tapi kok sempet2nya aja ngeblog ya? hahahaha... untungnya gw milih utk gak tll bete. there's so much to enjoy in this life gitu loh! jadi, i'm enjoying life, with some bitching here and there, just a little. and i'm so blessed i have some great friends i can talk to and rely on to. ajeng. venny. adeline. tirza. girls (oh, and one woman =P), you're all the best!

ewwwwwwwww!!!!!

gw tadi sore ktemu adeline. trus kita makan di warung pasta. on her. hehehe... udah lama banget kita gak ktemu, jadi tadi itu semacem kangen2an deh. hahahaha... ohhh we talked, and we talked, and we talked. sampe ke satu subject, web page gw yg jadul banget. ada di sini. it's so humiliating bahkan cuma utk ngliatnya. untungnya, sebagian feature2nya udah gak jalan. jadi gak terlalu kliatan deh noraknya gw dulu wkt masih demen2nya coba2 bikin web pages. hahaha...

it's february!!!

ini udah bulan februari. artinya: masih musim ujan (bahkan banjir besaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr & lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa), bulannya cuma pendek, dan, yg paling penting:

MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY on the 8th!

hehehehe....

here at down under...

here i am, di hari2 terakhir gw di down under, alias oz. gak tau ya, gw emang gak tll semangat utk dateng ke sini, kecuali utk nengok syd uni & coles wynyard (it's now called "coles central" rather than "coles express"). selain itu, kyknya biasa aja. hampir semua temen2 gw udah gak ada di sini.

dan ternyata bener. i got bored, big time! nostalgia cuma bertahan di 2 hari pertama. stlh itu? oh, been there, done that. certainly not a great way to justify spending those hard-earned money to get here, right? right.

sebanyak apapun masalah yg gw hadapi di rmh, home sweet home. i can't wait to go back to jkt!

life is so beautiful

call me norak, call me dodol, call me anything. tapi rasanya gw minggu ini sama sekali gak bt. ada sih "cobaan2" yg benernya bisa bikin gw bt. tapi ngapain ya? gw bisa milih utk bt, ato gw bisa milih utk gak bt. simpel. dan mgkn org2 di sekitar gw udah tll cape ngliat gw bt.

so.. yeah, here i am. revitalized. not really "lahir baru" spt istilah org2 kharismatik sih. gw cuma jadi org goblog for the most part of 2006. not i'm back to my senses. hahaha...

oya, kmrn gw ktemuan sama ajeng. wahhhhh time really flies klo ngobrol sama dia. tau2 udah jam 9 ya jeng? kita bisa ngobrolin banyakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk hal. dari yg gak penting, sampe yg serius banget. i really, really missed talking to her. pdhl hampir tiap hari chatting di ym, tp beda banget lah. iya gak jeng? yuks kita ktemuan lagi, nanti abis gw dari oz. ok? =D

all in all, have a nice weekend, people. i know i will. or at least, i'll do my best to have one. cheers!

now i'm really, really amazed...

visa australia gw keluar! horeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! thank You, God, thank You, thank You, thank You!

welcome to the new week

okeh. hari senin yg baru. essentially the first full week in 2007. nah, gw udah mutusin utk live a new life. turn things around. misalnya aja, gw udah lamaaaaaaaaaaaaa banget gak berdoa. yaaa kecuali klo utk makan dan bbrp hal laen. but basically i've been so far away from God. kyknya itu yg bikin gw jd bt & listless. sooo, swallowing my shame & fear, gw mulai hari ini dgn doa. dan hasilnya, kyknya sih udah mulai kliatan. gw lebih ceria hari ini, lebih positif, lebih optimis. hey, with God on my side, ada alasan apa utk gak optimis, right?

so, here i am. still the same old stephen alexander yoshua warouw. tapi dgn semangat baru deh.

good sunday

ok. the way things are right now, they're much improved. including my mood. gw udah gak tll bt. again, thanks to those bunch of temen2 yg gak cape2nya menghibur gw, pdhl mgkn mrk gak tau gw lg bt. ajeng. alda. dips. patty. tirza. ime.

my relation with one particular person has... come to a... reasonable level. not in the way i would have preferred, but nonetheless it's much better than being enemies, right?

so... yeah... gw udah gak bt. tp kyknya skrg gw malah jadi sedih. damn it! this has been a full roller-coaster week for me dlm hal emosi ya. i wonder... mgkn menjadi Vulcan is not such a bad idea... live long, and prosper!

egois

gw? egois??? moi????? whatthe f*ck have you been eating, my dear sister?!?!?! how dare you call me selfish!!!! have you forgotten the things i said, i did, for you?? and now you call me selfish, simply because i don't like and agree with how things are going with the visa?!?!?! which, was a problem in itself, because you didn't listen to me previously on NOT bringing chelsea back to indonesia???

My God... fine... more and more people are calling me selfish nowadays. people whom i thought understood me, knew me. so you think i'm selfish, sis? fine. let me be selfish!

what?!?!?!?!

gw masih bt. dan pagi ini hampir gak ada alasan buat gw utk ketawa. klo alasan utk bt, banyak! pertama, ini hari jumat, tp gw musti meeting. jadi gw musti pake pakaian resmi. kedua, papa makin reseh aja sama soal visa. ketiga, papa sampe nelp, katanya jola minta nomor kantor visa.

all of this and i have noone to talk to. the person i could always relied on, now is angry with me, krn suatu perkataan yang dia salah ngerti.

i got a little consolation last night, actually. from ime, alda, tirza, patty. you're all great, ladies. tp sayangnya tetap aja beda ya...

damn it! i really, really need to get a grip here. come on, steve! you're much stronger than this!

Things Geeks Did on New Year's Eve

Things Geeks Did on New Year's Eve
11.	Kissed their WoW avatar at midnight.
10.	Watched the BIOS date change years.
9.	Hoped for a Y2K+7 bug.
8.	Too busy playing nethack to notice.
7.	Listened to Auld Lang Syne on their iPod.
6.	Popped open a bottle of caffeinated champagne.
5.	Updated their New Year's Resolution database to reflect the passing year.
4.	Defragmented their hard drives.
3.	Stayed up for 24 hours to wish all their online friends in different time zones a Happy New Year at the appropriate hour.
2.	Had to come in to work to upgrade and reboot servers all night long.
1.	Nothing. Real Klingons don't celebrate puny holidays like New Year's Eve.

http://www.bbspot.com/News/2007/01/top-11-geeks-new-years-eve.html

week of despair

secara kyknya minggu ini gw bakal ngeluh terus di blog gw ini, i'm declaring this week as my week of despair.

gak tau knp ya, gw dikelilingi oleh org2 egois. org2 yg seharusnya plg deket sama gw, justru minta ini-itu dari gw, tanpa consideration apapun utk kebutuhan gw sendiri. come on, people! or, is it: come on, steve! wake up and face it, this is the world today! people are selfish. there's no "inner circle". nooo... there's only one when they need you. the other way around? "uh, sorry, i've got other engagements."

begitu kah? dan bodohnya gw, gw plg susah utk blg "TIDAK". jadi org2 bakal terus manfaatin gw. hmmm... mgkn ini saatnya utk berubah. dgn begitu mgkn gw akan dicap sbg org yg jutek. but if that's what it takes to save my feelings, and my sanity, let the world (or at least those rotten people) see the selfish stephen warouw.

A new year, but is it a happy one?

call me a pessimist. i don't see how this year can be any different from 2006. in fact, i started the new year with a rather gloomy tone. what's with all those problems, which, i may say, are not mine directly.

resolutions? just want to live my life day to day and get it over with. nothing special. oh i wished for something special last year, but what happened? nothing. well, i may have been given a reprieve or two, but that was it. maybe i have done soooooooo many bad things, i just don't deserve to be happy. it's as if my "happiness allowance" has run out.

so, welcome to a new year, steve. but whether it's going to be a happy one for you, it remains to be seen.

F**KING, STINKING B*TCH!!

yeah, i know we're still in the christmas holiday season. but hey, i'm me, and i'm not known as a person who can hid his emotion.

makhluk tak berguna. ketua psgp effatha. nola marta agustina. *yeah, i'm naming names nowadays* salah satu org plg munafik yg gw tau. dgn berani2nya nanya apa gw bisa on-time dateng utk pelayanan tgl 31. gw?!?!?! on-time?!?!?! f*ck yourself, b*tch!!! or maybe that's just it, you've been f*cking yourself too many times this year, huh?!?! B*TCH!!!

gw, salah satu org yg biasanya jadi bt krn harus nunggu org laen, soalnya gw pny kebiasaan utk dateng on-time. dibanding dgn makhluk tak berguna itu, yg "KATANYA" cuma klo sakit sampe gak bisa bangun dari ranjang, baru dia gak bisa dateng latian ato pelayanan. B*TCH!!!

the gloves are off, so you can expect me to run down hard on you from now on, B*TCH!!!

Sweet Christmas!

Rejoice, it's Christmas time!

Peace on earth, and all those things...
May the Lord bless us all...

busy, busy, busy

.........

i'm in my own world

some people know me as a nice, friendly person. almost always willing to have a chat, and talk the worries out of everybody with my laughter and "crispy" jokes.

well, that's true. but not the whole truth. most of the time i actually prefer to be left alone. like now. i'm basically all alone on a corner in starbucks pasaraya. with my trusted companion, my acer notebook, listening to my xmas collection in itunes. here, i'm feeling comfortable. not a worry in me.

is it anti-social? i don't think so. i still send smses to some friends. but i'm in my own world right now. and noone can take it from me. for whatever reason. whatever i may desire.

*gila. jutek banget ya gw kesannya?!?!*

push me too far, and you'll feel my wrath!

gw udah lama banget sebel sama yg namanya KASTO. salah satu manusia yg plg gak berguna di gpib effatha jakarta ini emang mulut besar banget. sana sini ngomong macem2. tapi no action. klo sampe soal itu sih gw gak peduli. masalahnya, si org brengsek ini udah sering banget ngrecokin kerjaan gw. dan selama ini biasanya gw plg cuma ngomel. tp gak tau knp, kmrn itu gw kyknya lagi rada bt ya.

ceritanya gini. abis kebaktian, anak2 kumpul di gm. pengurus ps sih ceritanya mo rapat sama pgp. nah kita2 jadi penggembira: gw, reinesse, bina, nanda, sama si brengsek. berhubung tadinya gw duduk di depan semmy, gw musti pindah donk, secara gw gak berkepentingan. terpaksa deh gw duduk di depan kasto. udah males banget tuh gw. nah terus gw ditelp sama bokap, disuruh turun, soalnya mo ke rumah tante fiani, buat acara perkenalan calon suami elvi. pas gw berdiri, si kasto ini dgn sok lucunya bilang: daggggg sayang. hmmm!! that was it! gw ambil gelas, isinya susu soda, punya dia sendiri. udah tinggal dikit sih. terus gw sirem ke kepalanya. abis itu gw lgs pergi. nothing else matters. yg penting gw PUASSSS!!!!

apa ya judulnya?!?!

terus terang aja, gw akhir2 ini males banget nulis di blog. jangankan nulis, buka aja udah males. dan gw gak mo posting di blog just for the sake of posting.

kerjaan emang lagi cukup hectic. misalnya aja minggu ini. senin-selasa kmrn gw ke sby. utk acara client. full-full-full! dan cukup melelahkan. tp untung jg, soalnya i still have this annoying headache, which will knock at my head *literally* whenever i don't have anything to do or to think. that'd mean i'd have to be alert almost 24/7. and that's tiring!

untungnya acr di sby cukup sukses. tp hasilnya adalah flu gw makin parah, dan kmrn gw opted utk stay home, drpd nyebarin virus flu di ktr. kebetulan jg kmrn ultah nyokap, jadi gw bisa ngajak ortu & chelsea utk makan di platinum, pim. happy birthday, ma!

other than that, kegiatan2 gw cukup rutin. nyanyi di psgp, misalnya. oya, ada yg baru. gw dipilih utk ikutan drama natal jemaat. dan gw kali ini jd org jahat! wuih! sampe disumpahin, disantet (untungnya gak mempan, dan balik ke pengirimnya), dibilang "bajingan"... ckckckck... tp bagus jg. siapa tau org2 di effatha jadi makin takut sama gw ya...

dear papa mama...

Papa Mama tersayang, dulu wkt Chelsea dibawa Jola & Donny ke australia, kalian nangis2. huuu huuu huuu si chelsea ngapain ya di sanaa... huuu huu huuu... sampe2 kalian maksa jola utk bawa dia balik ke sini. steve sama sekali gak setuju. itu hal yg bodoh! goblog! tolol! tapi ya mo gimana lagi, jola lebih mo denger kata2 kalian. dibawalah chelsea ke sini. hari kedua dia di sini, dia lgs sakit, trus dirawat di rumah sakit. jola sampe musti nginep di rs. kalian sampe nyesel2. tp ya spt biasa, gak lupa utk saling nyalahin. teteuppp...

ok. jola trus mikir, kyknya itu pertanda buruk. dia putusin lah utk bawa chelsea balik ke oz. apa yg kalian bikin wkt denger keputusan jola? marah! ngambeg! chelsea dicuekin! jola diamuk2! sampe akhirnya donny putusin utk chelsea tetap di jkt aja dulu. inget, pa, ma, steve wkt itu pernah bilang, kalian pengen dia di sini, kalian harus urus dia! gak boleh ngeluh!

sekarang, chelsea udah makin besar, udah makin rewel. jadi manja. gampang nangis. dikit2 ngambeg. krn apa? krn dimanja. dia minta gendong, kalian gendong. dia minta ini itu, kalian kasih. alasannya? khan cucu, masa mo dicuekin? ohhh... tp terus kalian ngeluh, punggung sakit, kok dia makin rewel, kok dia gini gitu. hei! kalian yg maksa dia utk tetap di sini! kalian yg marahin jola wkt dia mo bawa chelsea balik ke oz! sekarang kalian kok ngeluh???

papa mama tersayang, kapan ya kalian bisa jadi dewasa...

bule stress

hari minggu kemaren, ada cerita menarik. gw & feri lagi nunggu temen2 tim advance di gereja. tau2 kita liat ada bule berdiri di tengah jalan, nyegat taksi. tp kok dia nyamperin pintu sopir ya? taksinya lgs kabur. taksi kedua, ternyata mo nurunin 2 tante jemaat effatha. si bule jg nyamperin pintu sopir. kita gak bisa liat apa2, tau2 si sopir udah keluar sambil mukulin si bule pake kunci mur. sementara itu kedua tante udah masuk ke pekarangan effatha sambil ketakutan gitu. sopir nyusul tante2 ini soalnya mrk blm bayar. si bule jg ikut masuk. sempet mo dicegat sama satpam, tp gak bisa, soalnya si bule ini gede, lebih gede dari gw. tau2 si bule keluar lagi, terus masuk ke taksi. dan dibawa kaburlah taksi tsb.

or so we thought. gak jauh2, cukup sampe halte depan effatha, CRASH! BOOM! BANG! si bule udah nabrakin taksi ke mobil jaguar & taksi laen yg lg brenti di depan halte. lgs heboh. si bule keluar, terus dikejar sama sopir2 taksi. satpam eff berhasil nyegah si bule dikeroyok. terus daniel, 1 satpam eff, coba megangin si bule spy gak kabur. tp keseret. sampe di situ gw mutusin utk bantuin megangin si bule. dia nyaris aja manjat tembok. tp krn mabok, gak bisa manjat. gw pegangin deh tangan kanannya, sambil ngawasin tangan kirinya, jgn sampe dia nyolong nonjok. sementara itu dia ngomong "kill me... kill me..." bener2 mabok dah nih bule, gw pikir. terus daniel bawa borgol. kebetulan si bule jatoh, ngadep ke bawah. ya udah lehernya gw jepit aja pake dengkul, sementara tangannya diborgol ke belakang. sementara itu, teteupp kill me kill me.

abis dia diborgol, gw lgs cabut ke wc utk cuci tangan. soalnya darah tuh bule ada yg nempel di tangan gw. hiyyyyy! terus gw ke belakang, utk siap2 brkt ke cibubur.

motret

motret itu kliatannya hal yg simpel banget ya. apalagi klo pake kamera yg serba auto. tinggal make sure ada film ato memory card, terus nyalain. abis itu klik aja deh. beres. klo gitu doank sih emang gampang. tp motret dgn bagus itu yg susah.

buktinya ya gw sendiri. gw termasuk yg cukup gila motret. sayangnya kurang modal, jadi gak mampu beli kamera slr digital. hahaha... tp dgn canon powershot a95 gw, gw udah cukup bisa ngelakuin bbrp hal yg mustinya diketahui pemotret yg cukup serius. bedanya nyaris cuma di gak bisa ganti2 lensa. mengakrabkan diri dgn kamera itu ternyata adalah hal yg pentiiiiing banget. sebagus apapun perlengkapannya, klo gak dipelajari & blm paham, ya hasilnya gak bakal maksimal.

ini yg terjadi di kebaktian padang kemaren. krn gw jadi sie acara, gw gak bisa motret2. jadi kamera gw dipinjem sama vany & anya yg jadi sie publikasi & dokumentasi. ternyata salah jg di gw, soalnya gw baru kasih kameranya di hari h. jadi mrk gak sempet utk "mengakrabkan" diri dgn kamera gw itu. dan ternyata lagi, a95 itu cukup rumit, apalagi buat yg gak kebiasa. apalagi layoutnya. "stray finger" itu bisa dgn gak sengaja ngubah mode dialnya ke setting yg gak diharapkan. hasilnya? fotonya jadi blur. ato, dlm kasus dipsy, kepilih setting yg resolusi fotonya cuma 640x480! nah, padahal klo settingnya berubah, mustinya kliatan di lcd monitornya. sayangnya, krn mrk ini gak kebiasa, mrk gak sadar klo ada yg berubah.

hasilnya, foto2 kebaktian padang kmrn itu cukup byk yg gak bagus. burem, out of focus, ato blurred. sayang banget.

itu klo kita ngomong ttg perlengkapannya ya. seni motretnya sendiri, laen soal. klo yg 1 ini, gw sendiri masih meraba-raba, msh blm bs nemu yg pas. gw msh sering sebel sendiri. apa yg di lcdnya kliatan bagus, ternyata di komputer jadi jelek. kaco khan. ini terjadi pula sama anya & vany. posisi obyeknya byk yg perlu dipertanyakan. jadinya kurang bagus. foto yg gw pasang di bawah, posenya cukup bagus. kita semua ampir kliatan natural. sayangnya, kameranya kurang turun dikit.

tp lagi2 itu pendapat subyektif gw. dan krn gw bkn sie dokumentasi, gw gak bisa protes apa2 lah. hehehe...

kebaktian padang

gw & temen2 tim kerja kebaktian padang sedang nyantai dikit abis makan siang. acaranya cukup seru sih, apalagi stlh makan siang. tp akibatnya jadi pada tepar. hahaha...

di kebaktian padang ini, gw dapet tugas yg udah lama banget gak gw dapet: sie acara. kaget jg. soalnya terakhir kali gw jd sie acara itu wkt camp gp & retreat nafiri. jujur aja, sampe hari "h" gw jg msh gak bisa enjoy tugas gw. apalagi Citra gak bisa ikut krn dia mudik ke sby. gak ada penyemangat, hehehehe... makanya gw pulang2 itu rasanya capeeeeeeeee banget. tp gak mgkn donk klo gw gak jalanin tugas gw. dan untungnya temen2 gw di sie acara bs backup gw dgn baik banget. i can't thank them enough! dan big thanks jg to my girl yg selalu kasih semangat lwt telp & sms.

kebaktian padang

knp ya, gw kyknya gak bisa nyambung banget sama kebaktian padang? jadinya gw gak bisa enjoy. dan klo gw gak enjoy, gw jadi males utk ngapa2in. pdhl gw musti nyiapin games2. secara gw koord sie acara. damn it!

donor darah

stlh sekian lama gw gak pernah donor darah lagi, tadi di effatha gw donor darah. wow! gw terakhir itu donor darah either taon 1996 ato 1997, pokoknya wkt gw masih di atma. stlh itu gw ke australia. di sana benernya ada bbrp kali kesempatan, tp entah knp, gw takut. mgkn gw gak percaya sama jarum donor bule ya, hahahaha...

yg unik di hari ini adalah, gw pertama kali donor darah itu di effatha. taon 1994. sekitar 12 taon yg lalu. wow! kyknya gw udah full circle deh nih. and that can make me feel really, really old. hahahaha...

it felt good to donate some blood, i can tell you that. kyknya udah saatnya sebagian kecil dari darah gw yg kotor ini dikasih ke org laen. biar org yg terima darah gw jg jadi ikut sableng. hahaha... ya sapa tau, nanti gw pny penerus yg bisa dikasih gelar "rektor universitas garing". apa sih?!?!

fenomena the body shop

the body shop. toko yg bisa bikin (hampir) semua temen2 gw yg jenis kelaminnya perempuan nengok, bahkan mampir. hampir semua! apalagi klo lagi ada diskon. gw sampe heran... makanya gw sebut fenomena. terus terang gw gak ngerti apa yg diliat ya, soalnya bagi gw semuanya tuh sama aja. bahkan ada bbrp barang yg rada absurd, alias gw gak ngerti fungsinya apa. misalnya aja: body butter. wha..?!?! mentega utk badan?? stlh itu terus diapain, fried or grilled, ma'am? hehehehe...

another "sad" picture

kayaknya gw hampir selalu motret peti mati klo gw post berita duka cita ya. anyway, ini dia, si oom drety. salah satu org plg lucu & plg rame di matuari waya. selamat jalan, oom. i'm sure you're resting in peace.

why oh why

pagi ini gw bangun, mandi, siap2, dan pergi ke kantor dgn perasaan sediiiiiiiih banget. dunno why. gw curiga mgkn ada hubnya dgn kejadian minggu lalu. tp kok telat ya? perasaan itu terus gw buang jauh2 deh. tapi tetap aja sedih.

then the news came: oom drety dotulong meninggal! ya ampun... si oom ini, salah satu org plg lucu di matuari waya. duh, klo gak ada dia, tuh kumpulan gak rame deh. dan gw jg udah cukup lama gak ktemu dia, soalnya dia belakangan ini lebih sering tinggal di manado. what a loss. i'm certainly missing him.

me & my big mouth

The Prayer / La Preghiera

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go. And help us to be wise in times when we don't know. Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way. Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace To a place where we'll be safe.

La luce che tu dai nel cuore restera a ricordarci che l'eterna stella sei.

I pray we'll find your light, and hold it in our hearts When stars go out each night, remind us where you are..

Nella mia preghiera quanta fede c'e. Lead us to a place

Let this be our prayer when shadows fill our day guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza,
un mondo di giustizia e di speranza.
Ognuno dia una mano al suo vicino,
simbolo di pace...di fraternita.

La forza che ci dai e desiderio te ognuno trovi amor intorno e dentro se. Let this be our prayer, just like every child.

We ask that life be kind and watch us from above. We hope each soul will find another soul to love. Let this be our prayer, just like every child.

Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che hai acceso in noi
sento che ci salverai.....

lirik lagu di atas, mgkn udah pada tau ya. the prayer-nya celine dion & andrea bocelli. lagunya enak banget. bisa dinyanyiin wkt nikah, natal, ato perayaan2 laennya. gw udah janji ke tirza utk nyanyi lagu ini di nikahan dia. dan gw jg udah nemu partner, alda. partiturnya jg udah dapet dari alda.

ternyata, nyanyi sambil denger mp3 ato cdnya itu jauuuuuuuuuh lebih gampang dibanding nyanyi dgn baik dan benar, alias ngikutin notasi partitur. dan selama ini jg, ternyata klo gw nyanyi, gw tuh ngikutin celine dion, bukan andrea. notabene andrea, being a tenor, nyanyi dgn nada yg lebih tinggi dari celine. me, i'm a bass! oh no! nyampe sih nyampe lah, cuma perlu latian keras aja nih.

problemnya lagi, tirza udah ngeplot the prayer utk jadi lagu pas dia & suaminya msk ke ruang resepsi. argh! ini bener2 sangat menantang. dan semuanya gara2 my big mouth. hehehe...

death

gw kyknya gak bosen2 ya ngomongin kematian. nah, hari ini adik dari melanie, temen gw di psgp, meninggal, krn kecelakaan. kasian banget ya, tragis gitu. ya bayangin aja, pamit utk pergi jalan2 sama temen2, terus balik udah dlm keadaan "lurus".

gw bukan pengen ngomongin soal adiknya melanie, soalnya gw sendiri gak kenal dia. tp, mo gak mo gw lgs kebayang dgn kecelakaan gw dulu. mgkn malah lebih parah ya. bedanya, gw gak msh hidup, adiknya melanie meninggal. klo mnrt citra, adiknya melanie ini orgnya baik banget, sopan, dsb. berarti emang bener ya, org baik itu cepet dipanggil Tuhan. mgkn spy gak sempet jadi jahat.

that brings me to myself. how blessed i am ya. udah mo dibilang sekarat lah, apa lah, i'm still here. gw msh diperlukan utk ngelakuin sesuatu nih, whatever they are. apesnya, kok gw gak sadar2 ya. bikin dosa mulu nih. jadi malu.

Point of Grace

I Choose You

All our mind's attention
All our hearts affection
Every heart-cry, every rhyme
Everybody's worshipping something

All our life's devotion
Has been set in motion
Religions dozen for a dime
Everybody's worshipping something

'Cause that's what we were made to do

Chorus
And I choose You
All my attention, affection
And all my devotion's for You
If everybody's worshipping something
I choose You

You are beyond conception
Defying definition
And You knew me before time

Centuries of pagans
Idols fill the nations
But You are Lord to me and mine
Everybody's worshipping something

'Cause that's what we were made to do...oh oh

Chorus

Before I chose You, You first chose me
I worship You, You alone are worthy

You alone deserve it-all of my worship
Lord I choose You

Point of Grace ini grup favorit gw utk lagu2 gospel. "diracunin" sama reney. hahaha... tapi ternyata gak nyesel, soalnya 95% lagu2nya bagus2. yg I Choose You itu album terbarunya. ya gw telat beli 2 thn, soalnya keluar di 2004, dan gw baru beli 3 minggu lalu. hahaha...

hectic hectic hectic

it's been soooooooo hectic these past few days. rasanya gw udah mo abis napas gini. capecapecape!

alda & her birthday present

hahaha... alda & sendal barunya.

pliz deh!!!

happy sunday!

literally, yesterday was a happy sunday. knp bisa hepi... krn kmrn gw & citra rujuk! hahaha.. simply put, i'm very very happy. hari ini sih pastinya juga hepi banget. jadi gak bisa nulis apa2 gini. hahaha...

wuzz wuzz wuzz!

Your Driving Is is: 64% Male, 36% Female

According to studies, you generally drive like a typical male. You're confident in your driving skills, and hardly any situation gets the better of you. And while you may have a few tickets under your belt, you're still a very good driver.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

mais oui!

Your Inner European is French!

Smart and sophisticated. You have the best of everything - at least, *you* think so.

Who's Your Inner European?

crazy pics

ini ada 2 foto dari acara intel, minggu lalu. event terakhir dgn vishnu. hehehe...

yo! no! ho ho ho!

udah seminggu lebih nih gw gak post blog. not much to tell, actually. so this is it, my seventh post in august. hahaha... kyknya ini salah satu post gw yg plg gak penting deh!

but no, pas ngobrol2 sama ajeng, gw akhirnya dapet topik deh. ya, semingguan lebih ini gw selalu diganggu migren. really, really annoying. gak terlalu painful, tp cukup bisa ngrusak konsen gw. luckily, kerjaan gw selama ini gak terlalu byk, jadi gak terlalu butuh konsen. tp tetap aja. hmmm... i'm not going into the morbid mode again. NO!

krn migren ini jg gw skip latian psgp minggu ini. pdhl tgl 17 & 20 psgp nyanyi di eff. berhubung udah 2 minggu gw gak lat, ya jadinya gw gak nyanyi. oh well...

Chelsea Rebecca Simply

just got a potentially bad news from Jola, about Chelsea. oh dear...

I HATE CIGARETTES!!

ya betul, gw benci banget sama rokok & asapnya. bau & mengganggu! huh!

condolence

gw udah seminggu ya gak ngeblog? well, been busy. with work, as well as with ehem ehem. hahaha...

tapi kali ini posting gw bukan ttg gw, tapi ttg nona, temen gw di gp effatha. temen yg satu ini gw kenal gara2 gw ikutan buletin gp (RIP -red). terus pernah juga jadi pasangan solo gw, wkt psgp nyanyi di acara AIDS di effatha.

thn lalu, persis 1 hari sebelum Youth Weekend Fellowship, mama dari nona meninggal. secara gw anggap dia temen yg baik, ya gw dateng. rela deh, padahal gw klo gak salah wkt itu abis dari meeting, ujan2 pula. itu di bulan oktober. mamanya emang udah sakit cukup parah sih.

tp semalem, gw baru abis mandi, & lagi telp Citra, tau2 ada sms dari melanie: papanya nona meninggal. WHAT?!?! gw sampe kaget, soalnya gak ada kabar apa2 kali ini. kyknya mendadak deh. OMG... dalam wkt kurang dari 1 thn, nona udah jadi yatim piatu.

gw yakin ada mksd Tuhan di balik semua ini sih. tp tetap aja rasanya kok kejam gitu ya... gw cuma bisa berdoa deh buat nona, semoga dia dikuatkan. sejauh yg gw tau, anaknya cukup tegar. dan klo malem ini kebaktian, gw musti dateng. it's the least i can do for a friend.

God Bless You, nona.