the days have passed...

akhirnya acara the youth weekend fellowship kelar juga. capenya amit2. dan yg bikin lebhi cape lagi adalah the two incompetent teammates i had: citra & olen. citra, yg de jure adalah koordinator sie pubdok, knew nothing. olen, knew nothing but begaya. gw mgkn sound harsh ya, tapi faktanya begitu. kita ngomong soal dokumentasi. in an event, mgkn dokumentasi adalah salah satu faktor yg paling penting, soalnya pictures make the event (and people who participated in the event) immortal khan. nah, how can those be immortal, klo gak kliatan apa2 di gambar2nya? we were using compact camers, dammit, so get close! mo diharepin apa dari flash yg segitu kecilnya? wkt gw lihat foto2nya, i had to delete some of them, soalnya bener2 gak bisa diapa2in lagi. bbrp msh bisa gw re-touch, diterangin dikit, meskipun hasilnya adlh noise yg gila2an. oh well.

terus ada lagi: equipment. wkt gw diminta sama reinnese utk jadi sie pubdok, gw lgs keinget kamera olympus gw: what a piece of junk for indoor picture taking. c-310z lgs out. dan mulailah gw mencari kamera2 baru. dan hasilnya adalah canon powershot a95 gw. dan gw jg lgs beli memory card yg cukup gede: 512mb. nah, citra doesn't have a digicam. olen punya, tapi memory cardnya cuma 32mb, for a 5mp camera, that translates into... what... 10-16 photos?!?! come on guys, have some common sense, please! if you can't be serious, don't take the job! kalian cuma bakal jadi burden bagi org laen! dan burdennya itu jatoh ke gw. i had to take over everything. being me, gw emang cenderung work alone sih, so no probs there. tp, tugas gw selama acara kmrn bukan cuma motret2. gw musti jadi operator notebook.

dan akhirnya, gw cape abis2an. begitu sampe rumah kmrn sore, gw lgs tepar. sayangnya, gw gak bisa lgs tidur. gw musti neraning sebagian foto dulu, then i could go to sleep. dan bangun2, everything was spinning. i guess it was my low bad pressure. damn!

oh well, gw musti back to work nih. 2 more days, stlh itu libur seminggu!

(trying to ) sleep, creatively!

katanya, klo susah tidur, kita bisa ngitung domba yg loncat pagar. sounds boring to me. gimana klo dombanya kita ganti aja. misalnya dgn pacar. now it's more interesting, isn't it? bayangin pacar kita yg lompat2 pagar. dan tentunya lebih dari satu donk, tapi tetap org yg sama, biar bisa diitung. nah krn manusia itu seharusnya lebih pinter dari domba, si pacar ini bisa aja nolak utk loncat pagar. mgkn dia bakal jalan muter. cari celah, gitu. ato bersama2 dgn kembaran2nya, kerja sama, saling dukung, utk bisa ke tanah sebelah tanpa harus ngelompat. ato mgkn karena capek, gak lompat, tapi manjat. ato, nah yg ini plg pinter: pagarnya dipotong, terus dia bikin pintu. niat khan? hehehe...

ide gila ini muncul semalem, sewkt gw "sama2 nyampah" sama 1 temen gw. dia blm ngantuk, dan lagi cari cara utk bisa jadi ngantuk. nah gw usulin aja ide yg di atas. klo gw sendiri sih, sleeping is not a problem. justru yg jadi masalah gw skrg2 adalah lack of sleep!

mixed, mixed, mixed

gw gak tau, am i supposed to be grateful being involved di tim kerja youth weekend fellowship, ato malah cursing all the way to hell. now i know things i'd rather not know. spt misalnya psgp. gw akhirnya sadar banget, when i was out, i was OUT. capitals. big. yup. out of touch. gak ada yg bother utk update2 gw on everything. anes nikah, i didn't know. psgp pergi ke yogya, i knew. tp keberangkatannya, gw gak tau. damn it. i thought i deserved at least some respect from them. or maybe it was just that fucking fashion designer. hmmm... kyknya gw musti jaga2 jarak ya, spt gak kecewa lagi.

on the other hand, gw seneng dgn tim kerja inti ywf ini. soalnya cukup kompak. pdhl sebagian itu baru gw kenal stlh gw balik lagi ke psgp. misalnya dips & alda. two of the most hard-working, intelligent girls i know in effatha. now i have more friends, dan gak usah terpaku banget sama psgp. perasaan yg sama yg gw dapet wkt gw ikutan jadi tim kerja acara pelatihan pengurus pemuda taon 94 dulu banget itu.

a new toy

gw blm puas ngutak-ngatik kamera canon powershot a95, ehhh dateng lagi pesenan baru gw: sony ericsson k750i. akhirnya gw mutusin utk beli hp dgn kamera built-in! (actually, my first camera phone was se t310, tapi itu khan kameranya model attachment, hehehe) yup, gw udah fed up sama n-gage gw yg udah mulai sering error. dan gw pikir, akhirnya ada hp yg kameranya good enough utk dibawa ke mana2, for candid shots. kebetulan jg a95 itu bulky banget dibanding olympus camedia c310 gw, jadi klo gak perlu2 banget, gw gak usah bawa ke mana, cukup bawa k750i aja.

keunggulan2 k750i dibanding n-gage jelas cukup banyak. mendingan gw ngebahas kekurangan2nya aja. yg pertama, gw udah kebiasa multitasking di n-gage. jadi misalnya gw cek email, gw yakin bakal lama koneknya, jadi gw buka aja browser. multi-task! yg kyk gini gak bisa gw lakuin di k750i. but it doesn't matter sih benernya.

yg kedua, phonebooknya. se udah improve greatly, removing its old, silly limitation of only 510 numbers. now k750i has 500 names, each with its own fields. nah, sayangnya, utk hp, cm terbatas 5 nomor: work, home, mobile, fax, other. ini beda banget sama n-gage (and nokia's other symbian phones), yg bisa nerima custom fields.

apa lagi ya... kyknya sih baru segitu. gw masih maen2in nih. dan already gw udah mikir utk beli memory stick yg gedean *sigh*

mojok

gw lg mojok di gedung pertemuan, soalnya laptop gw ini baterenya udah mo abis. secara gw males pindah ke bawah balkon (tempat colokan biasanya), gw liat2 apa di panggung ada colokan. eh ternyata ada. ya udah, here i am, di balik tirai, gelap2an. hehehe... unik juga. tp yg jelas: gelap banget! keyboard sampe gak kliatan.

claudia alexandra a.k.a sandra a.k.a. al3x4ndr4

claudia alexandra. nama yg cantik. knp gw bisa milih nama itu utk alter-ego gw di irc? claudia. gw selalu suka nama ini. gak ada hubnya sama claudia schiffer, btw. somehow gw ngerasa nama ini cakep banget. alexandra. this one is easy. ini ngambil dari alexander, kata ke-2 di nama lengkap gw. sebenernya, di awal rencana gw, nama lengkap sandra itu adalah: claudia alexandra josephine warouw. oh wow! hahahaha... tp seiring wkt, yg dipake cuma claudia alexandra, or just sandra.

nah. knp gw chat sbg ce? ceritanya gini. gw dulu lebih sering chat di microsoft comic chat. sama dgn irc, tp interfacenya agak unik, krn bentuknya comic strips. di ms cc, gw chat sbg diri gw sendiri. akrab dgn 2 pasang manusia, 1 co 1 ce. i'm ashamed of myself now soalnya gw lupa nama mrk. anyway. kemudian gw akrab dgn imelda, temen gw di bond uni. dia yg ngajak gw utk chat di dalnet. dgn mirc. i thought, ok, nothing to lose. dan masuklah gw ke dalnet. otak sinting gw wkt itu tau2 dapet ide utk masuk sbg ce. mgkn biar gak digosipin ya, kok tau2 si ime bawa2 co ke irc. dan lahirlah claudia alexandra, ato sandra, dgn nick al3x4ndr4. lgs bikin heboh. di channel gado. sementara itu, si sandra jg terkenal sadis thd co. begitu ada co yg ngomongnya ngawur dan nyrempet2 ke arah seks (and there are a lot of people like that in irc, even now), lgs di-nuke sampe diskonek. she was mean! hahaha... i was enjoying myself greatly then. rencana gw saat itu adalah utk pelan2 tampil sbg diri gw yg asli. tapi ada 1 penghalang yg kemudian muncul: sandra diangkat sbg op. uh-oh. trouble. masa stlh diangkat sbg op, ilang dan tau2 muncul co, dgn alamat ip yg sama? gw putusin utk memperpanjang hidup sandra lebih lama lagi. dan makin populer si sandra ini. ime sendiri pernah blg ke gw, klo dia chat dgn sandra, serasa ngomong dgn ce, org yg sama sekali beda, dan bukan lg ngobrol dgn gw. omigod. i was that good at impersonating a girl! hahaha... dan gw bahkan sampe niat utk ngebikin alamat email khusus utk sandra.

things became more complicated. people got attached to sandra. ada 1 co yg bahkan nembak. ridiculous. gimana ceritanya co bisa naksir ce yg dia gak pernah liat. note: sandra itu gak pernah ketauan mukanya kyk gmn. lha ya, gw gak sampe seniat itu utk cari2 foto ce cakep dan ngakuin foto itu sbg foto sandra. dasar co gebleg. haha... pusing jg gw ngadepin org kyk gini. not to mention eneg banget. there i was, chatting, talking to someone who proposed to what he thought was a girl, not knowing that "the girl" was actually a man. hahahaha...

pelan2 gw mulai munculin diri gw yg asli. tentu aja gak bisa bareng, soalnya pasti ketauan, krn ipnya sama. tapi terus muncul script yg bisa spoof ip address. dan gw ngelakuin hal yg cukup mustahil saat itu: muncul sbg sandra dan diri gw sendiri di saat yg bersamaan. damn, intel wasn't thinking about hyper-threading or dual-core yet, but my brain was divided into two already! hahaha... pusing sih jelas. soalnya gaya sandra dan gw itu beda banget. si sandra yg centil, dan gw yg rada serius. ketawanya pun beda. sandra: huhahauahuahuahuhuauhauha ato kekekeke. sementara klo gw ya ketawanya standard: hahahaha ato hehehe... gaya ngomong udah jelas beda. ime sampe ktawa ngakak beneran di depan layar monitornya ngliat org2 tertipu dgn tingkah gw. me, i didn't have the time to laugh. i was concentrating hard! hahahaa...

terus ada penyelamat: liburan semester! nah, gw pikir itu saatnya utk menyingkirkan sandra. stlh kul mulai lagi, sandra tiba2 menghilang. poof. gone. disappeared. sementara gw pelan2 makin sering muncul. ime pun played her part in the drama, blg klo gw dulu chatnya di tempat lain. klo ada yg nanyain sandra, kita blg: wah dia balik indo ktnya, disuruh nikah sama ortu. stories like that lah. until some times, people asked for sandra. tapi akhirnya ilang. dan channelnya sendiri makin lama makin sepi jg.

ada bbrp org yg curiga sih, jelas. who wouldn't?? tp coverupnya lmyn aman. but sandra left something. sampe bbrp wkt lalu, some people actually remembered claudia alexandra. ckckckck... gila ya. but that's irc. you'll never know who you chat with. waspadalah!

tempat sampah

i'm a blessed person. yup, talenta gw cukup banyak. mulai dari nyanyi, cepet adaptasi dgn electronic gadgets, good at languages, etc. tapi ada 1 talenta gw yg benernya bikin gw bingung sendiri: i'm a good trash bin.

not that people stuff me with garbage, no. jgn dibayangin yah! hehehe.. somehow org demen curhat ke gw. dan gw sendiri don't mind dengerin curhat org. gw bahkan seringkali jadi simpathetic dgn org tsb. ini gw baru sadari wkt gw mulai demen irc, taon 98, my first year in gc, oz. wkt itu gw klo online, nyamar jadi ce, dgn nama yg sangat cantik: claudia alexandra. i'll post another blog on why i disguised myself as a girl, in another time, hehehe... nah. si claudia alexandra ini, ato lebih dikenal dgn "sandra", wkt itu terkenal sbg ce yg heboh, supel, lucu, cakep (pdhl si sandra gak pernah nunjukin foto), dan demen dengerin curhat org. co ato ce, meskipun baru kenal, lgs pd curhat. *note to self: i may have a chance to apply for a job at those hotline services...* naturally, karena si sandra tampak sbg ce, lbh byk co yg ngajak ngobrol & curhat. which they did. and sandra, or rather, me, listened.

why sandra listened? krn cukup menarik dengerin cerita2 org. sangat menarik, malah. bukan utk jadi bahan gosip lho (bukan sering2, mksdnya), tp ngebuka wawasan. ternyata banyak banget karakter org, dgn masalahnya masing-masing.

nah, kebiasaan si sandra dengerin curhatan org ini, akhirnya kebawa ke diri gw yg asli. gw jadi demen denger org curhat. bahkan kadang2 gw nawarin diri utk jadi tempat curhat. sampe skrg. tentu aja, gak semua org bisa curhat ke gw. skrg2 ini gw orgnya subyektif banget. cuma org2 yg gw anggap temen baik yg bisa curhat ke gw. salah satu temen baik tsb kasih julukan buat gw: tempat sampah. thanks a lot! hahaha...

ok. there's nothing special being tempat curhat. biasa banget khan, temen loe curhat, loe dengerin. klo temen gw curhat, gw bisa kasih ide ato solusi yg ternyata, beberapa kali, tepat sasaran buat mrk. practical ideas. mgkn krn itulah mrk demen curhat ke gw ya. soalnya gw gak cuma "oic. ya. uh-huh. ok.", tapi gw bisa kasih saran.

dari seluruh curhat2 yg masuk ke gw, sebagian besar, naturally, adalah tentang kehidupan percintaan. things i'd normally classify as BORING. tapi anehnya, gw gak bosen dengerin. knp bisa gak bosen? ngejawabnya gak gampang. meskipun saran/ide/solusi gw seringkali tepat sasaran, strangely enough i can't apply them for myself. ini mgkn situasinya mirip dgn dukun nomor yg gak bisa nebak nomor undian utk dirinya sendiri. my love life sucks. and it has been like that since the very first day i fell in love.

nah, balik lagi ke pertanyaan "knp bisa gak bosen?" jawabannya, mgkn, adalah gw sendiri berusaha mencari solusi yg pas utk diri gw sendiri. dgn tau permasalahan org lain, mgkn ada yg situasinya mirip dgn gw, dan dgn begitu bisa gw coba sendiri. sayangnya sampe saat ini, blm ada situasi yg bener2 sama dgn situasi gw, jadi my love life still sucks. hahaha...

jawaban lainnya, mgkn, i'm a nice person. sebuah pernyataan yg mnrt diri gw sendiri adalah sangat menggelikan. i'm far from being nice. lebih tepat klo dibilang rude ato kasar. i don't greet people unless i have to. i don't look up to my elders. and so many other things i don't do, even though morally i should. but coming from a person who had an alter ego of a girl, i'm just an unpredictable guy. hahaha...

my sweet spot

klo di aksara, gw pasti selalu dapet tempat di kiri pojok. always. gak pernah gak. ya mgkn gw lucky aja ya. hehehe... nah klo di starbucks pasaraya, dlm 3 kali kunjungan terakhir, gw selalu di tempat yg sama jg. always. my sweet spot. hahaha...

how do i live...

gw bukan mo nulis ttg lagunya yearwood ya. hehe... udah ada bbrp org yg nanya gmn rencana gw ttg masa depan. nah, terus terang gw bingung jawabnya. soalnya gw bukan org yg mikir terlalu jauh ke depan. cara gw ngejalanin hidup gw sehari2 adalah dengan nentuin peristiwa penting apa yg bakal terjadi, plg jauh 1 bln di muka. nah, stlh ktemu peristiwa tsb, gw bakal nungguin sampe saatnya tiba. itu yg bikin gw semangat.

kyk misalnya bulan ini, peristiwa yg mnrt gw menarik dan cukup penting adalah acara the youth weekend fellowshipnya gp effatha, tgl 29-30 okt. krn gw jg termsk dlm panitia, scr otomatis gw ikutan ngurusin khan. dan lmyn sibuk.

utk november, ada bbrp acara yg lmyn penting, misalnya at least 2 acara utk klien. dan mgkn jg gw bakal jadi jalan2 ke kl.

desember, pasti natal lah. selaen itu gw blm tau bakal ada acara apa lagi.

nah, dlm perencanaan gw saat ini, peristiwa yg paliiiiiiiing jauh adalah nikahannya rianti. bulan juli taon depan. that's as far as i want to think. gw blm mikir apa2 lagi stlh itu.

jadi, klo ada yg nanya ke gw, misalnya: rencana jangka panjang loe apa? loe pengen karir loe nanti spt apa? kapan loe nikah? blahblahblah. jawabannya adalah: gw gak tau. i live day by day aja. hehehe... that's how i live.

it would be perfect if i'd just...

go to sleep and never to wake up again. hahaha... cape banget nih. bbrp minggu ini adalah minggu2 tersibuk gw. di gereja. di kantor. everywhere! not that i'm complaining... much! hehehe...

in a way, being busy is also keeping me on alert and focused. klo gw lg santai kyk skrg, kerasa banget klo kepala gw tuh sakitnya lmyn ngeselin, dan balance gw lagi jelek banget. gw bisa bangun tiba2 & lgs gelap semua. klo gak konsen, pasti gw lgs jatoh. darah rendah kali yee... gw jg ngerasa lightheaded banget. kleyeng2 gak jelas. perhaps i'm just not fit right now.

reliving the past

damn! i'm having a nostalgic moment now. gw lg buka irc. malem2. sambil muter mp3. situasinya ampir persis banget kyk dulu wkt gw di oz. perbedaanya adalah: i know noone now. hehehehe... now i'm being melancholic....

meaningless post

secara gw lg iseng doank nih, nungguin download kelar, jadi post gw yg 1 ini rada2 meaningless. asal aja.

1. semalem si icha nebak, kira2 gw ini orgnya tipe apa. soalnya dia blg klo dia itu phlegmatik, conya melankolik. ktnya gw mgkn sanguin. what the?!?! i don't even remember what a sanguin is. secara gw penasaran, gw buka wikipedia. dan ini hasilnya:

"Sanguine personality - optimistic, cheerful, even-tempered, confident, rational, popular, fun-loving; the temperament of blood. One of the four humours, the others being choleric, phlegmatic, and melancholic."

gee... ok, i'm usually cheerful. optimist? don't think so. gw mgkn bkn pesimist, tp yg jelas gw jg bkn optimist. confident? yes. rational? sometimes. popular? who am i to say? fun-loving? of course! even-tempered... hmm.. i'm very temperamental, if i may say so myself.

terus gw coba cek yg 3 lagi, choleric (kdengeran kyk penyakit ye?!?!), phlegmatic, dan melancholic. it turned out that ada bagian2 gw di 4 tipe tsb. hmmm.. interesting... that means i can't be typecasted...

2. hari ini gw, ortu, & chelsea ke serpong, ke tempat kakak rona. udah lama jg gw gak ktemu dia, almost a year kyknya. terus kita rame2 makan di japos bsd.

3. gw dpt sms dari marcia, minta gw utk mo jadi panitia natal jemaat effatha, jadi sie pubdok, the same position i'm in for the youth weekend fellowship at the end of this month. what the?! me, stephen warouw the rebel? hahaha... well, gw gak mo back down dari sebuah challenge, so gw setuju aja. who knows, maybe it'll turn out to be fun.

4. blog si icha, yg dihost di modblog, akhirnya up lagi, stlh ampir seminggu ini down. tapi warnanya berubah total. dari item gelap, jadi putih terang. dan dia ngomel2 di shoutboxnya. hehehe.. cha, justru skrg itu jadi sesuai sama namanya: GLOW. alias terang benderang! hahaha... =P

well, that's it. the meaningless post for today. =P

NOW I'M ANGRY!! F**K THE BITCH!!

that was my status on yahoo messenger this afternoon. ya, akhirnya i lost my cool. krn apa? ya sapa lagi klo bukan BAWANG!! pak de also didn't help. ckckck... a couple of stupid, digitally-challenged bosses, who doesn't know what a PCMCIA is, doesn't understand how to create an appointment on microsoft outlook, doesn't know how to organize emails into folders, doesn't understand how to operate mobile phones, and the list goes on... it's amazing they can survive in IT PR for so long... God help indo pacific's IT division...

akhirnyaa...

akhirnya gw ktemu sama si temen gw yg selama ini invisible, icha. hahaha... cha, kok kyknya kita kyk bukan org yg blm pernah ktemu ya?? hahaha... eniwei, lmyn bisa ngobrol2 lgs, ngebahas byk topik pula. sayangnya gak bisa lama2, krn dia ada janji sama temennya & gw musti ke effatha.

omong2 soal effatha, lagi2 gw keburu2 utk kelarin poster youth weekend fellowship. untung gampang, dan gw udah copy semua clipart gw ke komputer ini. dan hasilnya not too bad, mnrt gw. *bangga sendiri*

catatan perjalanan

gw pengen nginget2 lagi perjalanan gw ke bali last weekend, terutama wkt hari sabtu. so here goes:

bangun quite early, jam 9an. soalnya gw kedinginan! airconnya dingin abisss... jadi males2an dulu, terus online deh. stlh itu baru mandi. makan pagi. bengong. atur2 rencana utk hari minggu. makan siang rada telat, sekitar jam 2-2.30. terus lgs cabut ke dreamland. pantai yg penuh org2 bule. tapiii... turun tangga! oh no. gw males mikirin utk naeknya. so i opted to stay behind. it turned out to be the right decision, soalnya temen2 gw wkt naek pd ngeluh capek. hehehehe...

abis itu kita lgs cabut ke discovery mall. i was impressed. mallnya cukup gede. dan di pantainya ada semacam beachwalk, with restaurant. reminded me of st kilda di melbourne. makan di kfc. cabut ke kudeta. tp di tengah jalan, ce2 ganjen pengen belanja. once again, i opted to stay behind. gw ngobrol2 sama driver, pak gunadi. i guess my journalist instinct was at work. gw dpt byk cerita ttg tradisi ngaben, dan apa artinya upacara2 tsb. stlh anak2 balik, kita terus ke kudeta. seblm sampe, guys in the other car called, told us to stop. berhubung sunset udah lewat, kudeta dicancel. kita split, 1 mobil bawa mrk yg pengen belanja, 1 lagi pulang.

secara gw udah janjian sama sepupu2 gw utk ktemu, gw ikutan yg pengen belanja. kita nglewatin jalan yg penuh dgn cafe & shops. di sini jg tempat sariclub & paddy's yg ancur wkt bom bali 2002. lagi2 anak2 turun di sini, dan gw tetap di dlm mobil utk ke discovery. dan lagi2 gw ngobrol cukup byk dgn pak gunadi, kali ini ngebahas ttg bom 2002 dan efeknya buat bali.

sampe di discovery, gw didrop. dan gw ktemu dgn kak alvin & kel, dan kak andre. kita ngobrol2 di pantai, yg beachwalk tadi itu. then i heard the bangs: BOOM! BOOM! they were muffled, but loud enough utk narik perhatian. awalnya gw gak curiga klo itu bom, soalnya, hey, it can happen twice, right? mgkn ada restoran yg kompornya mledak. lagian org2 di discovery msh pada cuek. no signs of panicking whatsoever. tp kemudian my phone started getting busy. calls and smses came in. then i realized something must've gone wrong. kak andre lgs turun utk kontak security, cari info lebih banyak. the smses got more busy. dan gw gak bisa call out, ktnya network busy. it got more serious. kita keluar. jalanan udah macet. org2 centro udah pd berdiri di depan, tangan kiri pegang ht, tangan kanan pegang hp. by this time it was confirmed some bombs exploded.

jalanan macet bukan krn org2 panik, tp krn di sana sini ada roadblocks. kita gak bisa ke mana2. sementara itu, msk sms dari boss, telling us to be on stand by. i didn't reply. more smses came in. beritanya mulai simpang siur. ktnya ada 6 bom lah. more bombs will explode lah. things like that. dan gw msh rada cuek. hey, i'm still standing, i thought. terus kita akhirnya keluar dari mall.

makan di warung somewhere, gw gak tau namanya & tempatnya. di tv udah ada berita soal bom. di sini gw mulai kuatir caranya utk pulang. dan hp gw akhirnya mati, flat batt. untung gw sempet salin sms dari vishnu utk jalan pulang. tempat nginep kita itu di jimbaran. dan 2 bom mledak di 2 tempat di jimbaran. more roadblocks.

kak alvin nganter gw pake motor. dingin, bo! dan secara gw yg gak apal jalanan, jadinya kita sempet muter2. lewat jalanan naik turun. bah. untung akhirnya sampe. my friends were all relieved to see me. terus gw dikasih kabar klo kita udah propose ke boss utk take the stand dan nyiapin media center. oh joy. a holiday turned into a day-to-day routine.

gw lgs ngecharge hp. as predicted, more calls and smses came in. dgn gaya gw yg biasa, gw blg aja klo gw udah mledak, jadi yg bales sms itu arwah gw. hahaha...

setelah mandi dsb, the hectic day & night came to a close. gw tidur kira2 jam 3. dan bangun besoknya jam 6.

and that was it. the bombs sure did ruin everything we planned...

home sweet home

back to jakarta. so damn tired. ya jelas aja cape, kmrn itu hari minggu practically i worked the whole day. itung2 pengalaman pertama di crisis center sih, which was good. tp sebel aja, rencananya liburan, ehhhh malah musti kerja.

but at least i came back in 1 piece.

bali blast

what the hell??? bom! di bali! again??? dan gw lagi di sini! OH MY GOD ALMIGHTY!! i actually heard the blast. thought something was dropped or whatever. well, my pessimist side thought of an explosion, but the optimist one won the day. in the end, it was a blast. two of them, in fact. people died. grrr...

dan secara gw kabar2i kehadiran gw di bali, sms2 lgs byk yg masuk ke hp gw. i'm touched. they're concerned. thanks, people! i love you all...

jalan2 ke bali

pas dgn heboh2nya masalah harga bbm, gw malah ke bali. agak2 gak sensitif ya? hehehe... cuek deh. i can use some holidays like this. =D

ini pertama kalinya gw naek awair. dan pertama kalinya pula gw naek pesawat yg gak pake seat allocation. so bener2 rebutan. siapa cepat, dia dapat. meskipun realitasnya gak seheboh bayangan gw, tetap aja aneh. dan yg bikin gw ketawa adalah pramugarinya yg ngider utk ngitung penumpang pake alat itungan yg klik-klik itu. hahaha... what cracked me up even more was the food. or lack thereof. musti beli! dan spt apa makanannya? well, popmie!! astagaa...

untungnya flight cuma less than 2 hours. kaki gw udah pegel2 banget, soalnya jarak kursi ke kursi bener2 kecil. ckckck...

soooo, here i am. blogging from bali. jangan sirik yah!!

here and there, this and that

kemaren practically gw spent the whole day chatting with her. not exactly productive for my company, eh? hahaha... tapi byk banget info yg gw dapet. sayangnya, bbrp info yg justru sangat penting, isinya gak jelas. dia kyknya gak mo terlalu open ke gw. understandable. secara gw jg benernya udah lost hope. dan klo pun ternyata ada hope, gw gak mo muluk2.

terus gw ngobrol sama icha, my "invisible friend". tp skrg udah gak terlalu invi, soalnya udah bbrp kali gw ngobrol sama dia di telp. kemajuan. hahaha... mnrt dia, jgn2 perasaan happy gw selama seminggu itu disebabkan chatting gw kmrn. interesting idea. tp aneh. masa sih otak gw bisa ngeramal klo gw bakal chatting dgn ce ini, and actually sent happy feeling in advance? hmmm...

in any case, strangely enough she was very talkative yesterday. gw gak mo gr, soalnya gw gak tau gimana perlakuan dia thd co laen. in the end, i'm just glad i have some friends to chat and talk with.

i looooooove my ipod!

dari semua gadget yg gw beli, ipod itu yg plg signifikan gunanya buat gw. bener2 menghibur banget! praktis deh. mgkn krn gw emang gila mp3 ya? dulu aja wkt gw msh pake se t310, gw sampe niat beli mp3 playernya. abis itu gw dapet mp3 creative. semua kepake abis2an. terus gw beli ipaq, kebanyakan gw pake buat mp3 jg. same story with my ngage. tapi gak bener2 bisa puas soalnya limited storage. nah, ipod ini bener2 bisa bikin puas, soalnya gw gak usah repot2 re-encode file2 mp3 gw. dan semua file mp3 koleksi gw dari taon 98 bisa masuk. bayangin!!

dontwanttogetangry

hari ini di yahoo messenger gw pasang status "dontwanttogetangry". rupanya ada bbrp org yg notice dan terus nanya gw, knp gw gak mo marah. simpel aja: i love being happy, perasaan yg ada di gw bbrp hari terakhir. nah, tadi gw dibikin kesel banget sama si BAWANG. dan gw nahan diri spy gak marah. makanya gw gak mo marah. marah itu gak enak. ngeselin. bikin cape doank. hmph.

online!

yeah! gw akhirnya beli pcmcia cdma utk konek ke internet pake mobile 8. dan skrg gw post blog ini pake m8. mantapppppppp....

My mind's smarter than me

(posted by email) Ah. Udah lama ya gw gak post lwt email. Anyway, been thinking about my "strange happiness" i've been having for the last few days. Dan gw msh blm nemu jawaban yg jelas. Tp ada 1 teori yg kyknya cukup msk akal. You see, berita ttg dia (the girl) mo nikah was the first in a series of facts. Fakta2 yg ada konflik dgn gw. Fakta berikutnya adalah dia pengen diberkati that bloody ambon ongirwalu klo dia nikah. It's a big NO for me. So, rather than dikecewain trus2an, gw cukup kecewa sekali aja. Dan krn itu, my mind's been sending me this happy feeling. Happy that i won't have to compromise later. Ini, lg2, br teori. Tp kyknya cukup msk akal.

HUAHAHAHA

wkt on the way ke rumah dipsy, gw dpt sms ini dari icha:
"Heh! gw udh di rmh neh. kynya co gw aga bete jg dg sms2 loe trlbh wkt loe nelp. hahahahaha"

gw lgs ngakak pas bacanya. gila! fyi, icha ini adl temen "invisible" gw, yg udah bbrp kali gw singgung di blog ini recently. now, apparently dia sendiri jg gak mind klo gw sms2. tp ternyata conya cemburu. HUAHAHAHAHAHAHA... please, man, klo gw ada hati sama ce loe, gak bakal gw sms2 doank kali yeee...

but i can understand his concern nih. newly couple gitu loh. kyknya masih meraba2 soal hub mrk nih *sok tau mode is ON*.

then again, gw punya 1 prinsip utama dlm hal ngejar ce, dan prinsip ini selalu gw pegang: gw gak pernah mo ngejar ce yg udah ada pacarnya. puas?? hehehe... krn prinsip ini makanya gw jd bt last weekend. tapi sekali prinsip ya prinsip toh?

anyway, weekend ini kegiatan gw rada sibuk. sabtu, gw ada nyanyi sama psgp di nikahan di effatha. not many turned up, tapi ternyata jemaatnya juga sedikit, jd gpp lah. abis itu gw, reinnesse, dan nancy cabut ke jcc. ke pameran travel. minggu lalu kita & dipsy ada rencana utk liburan either ke kl or sg. dan di pameran travel itu ternyata ada bbrp opsi yang menarik. lgs kita telp dipsy utk ngebahas.

tp sebelom jemput dipsy, kita ke pameran komputer dulu. and how i was glad to be able to buy the targus backpack yg gw incer sejak gw beli laptop ini. di metro ps itu harganya 800rb, dan gw benernya udah siap utk beli di sana, eh ternyata di pameran harganya 500rb. lmyn lah save 300rb.

abis dari pameran, dgn kaki yg pegel2, kita jemput dipsy terus pergi makan utk sekaligus ngebahas rencana jalan2. tadinya dia ada offer yg kyknya cukup menarik. krn dia gak yakin, kita ke rmhnya utk ngebaca email yg isinya offer tsb. tp kyknya emailnya udah diapus, so we'll go with one option from the pameran.

hari minggu, gw ada rapat jam 10 utk rencana psgp ke sg ato bali. bangun pagi di hari minggu... abis itu, jam 12 rapat utk kebaktian padang. salah satu alasan gw msh stay up jam segini adalah utk ngebikin draft poster acara tsb, secara gw ditunjuk utk jadi sie publikasi & dokumentasi. i had a crash course in pagemaker, familiarizing myself with the program. it turned out to be good, but i need to get the others' approval, or ideas.

so here i am, on the fifth day of being happy. oh, just remembered. had a talk with yathi on the phone. kondisi nyokapnya memburuk. she was crying when i called her. and i'm very lousy when i talked to a crying girl on the phone! geez... gw blg aja ke dia spy stay strong. dan kt semua bakal ngedoain dia, pray for the best. the best may not be a "kesembuhan", though. how sad.

i'm happy

gw biasanya jarang hepi. paling2 tuh content. nah, sejak kmrn, gw tuh rasanya hepiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii banget. the thing is, i don't why i'm happy. no idea. zip! if it's about a girl, i don't think so. remember, gw justru bt penuh weekend kmrn gara2 soal ce. if it's about money, hareeeeeeee geeeeneeeeeeee, hepi krn uang?!?! tanggung bulan! if it's about home, huaaa... nothing to be happy about at home. if it's about work, well... selama ada BAWANG di kantor, gw gak bakal pernah bisa hepi. hehehe...

sooo, gak ada sebab yg jelas bagi gw utk hepi! aneh! aneh! aneh! but it's a nice feeling, really. gw udah lupa kapan terakhir gw ngerasa hepi gini. even when i had the crush, i didn't feel like this.

yg gw seneng adalah, dgn feeling happy gini, gw ngapa2in tuh jadi lebih enak. no worries lah. hakuna matata! hahaha... it'd be nice to have this feeling forever.

rumput tetangga tidak selalu lebih hijau

gw seringkali ngeluh ttg kerjaan gw, ngurusin intel. tapi ternyata kerjaan oracle JAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHH lebih berat. 3 people on that account, and they still don't get it right. bandingin gw yg bener2 dedicated to intel, with some help (mainly klo gw lg berhalangan) from others, and we're now at a comfort level. (almost) no rush or whatever. (hampir) gak pernah (lagi) dikejar2 klien. now i feel really lucky. rumput tetangga tidak selalu lebih hijau, hehehehe....

zzzzz

here i am, resting at home. how nice! waitaminute... ini khan hari kerja, jd kok gw ada di rmh??? hehehe... i've been working flat out for these couple of weeks, everywhere. kantor & gereja. and eventually my body said to me: "stop! i'm tired! please rest." nah itulah ceritanya knp skrg gw di rmh. on my lovely bed. hmmm...

malam di jakarta

gw seneng jalan2 malem di jakarta. ngeliat suasana yg udah sepi. kesannya damai gitu. jalanan lengang. orang2 udah beres2 dan mulai nyantai. udaranya jg adem. gw baru sadar klo gw seneng jln2 malem tsb dlm perjalanan ke harris hotel. of course, gw msh bisa creep out klo somehow gw trapped di bangunan2 yg udah pd tutup. dan tentu aja, di bbrp daerah, night time means crime time. and that's not cool!

knp gw jd sentimentil gini ye? salah satu sebabnya pasti yesterday's bad news. hmph. tp hari ini gw 2x ktemu si ce tsb. siang tadi wkt rapat gp di effatha. terus malem, wkt psgp nyanyi, lagi2 di effatha. dan dua acara tsb diakhiri makan bareng, dan dua2nya dia ikutan jg. omigod. hehehe... what did i feel? mmm... dunno... felt empty. dulu gw bakal semangat banget, tadi ya msh semangat, tp somehow udah gak se-intense dulu.

and that brings me to this thinking, that i can't trust my feeling. gw selalu terkecoh dgn feeling gw sendiri. always. masalahnya adalah, otak gw biasanya kalah dgn feeling. gw musti shut off nih feeling gw. logic, logic, logic. jadi org vulcan? yaaa... emosi sih selalu ada lah, i can't live without it. tapi klo feeling yg hubnya sama romantis2, i think it should be ignored. hmph. it's been bringing me nothing but pain!

the funny thing is i've been in quite a constant contact with tirza, who calls me "her invisible friend". like so many friends i have from chatting or internet, gw & tirza gak pernah ktemu. kontak cuma lwt email, sms, & yahoo. telp pun gak pernah. nah, kebalikan dgn gw yg lg patah hati, dia lg bingung, soalnya baru ditembak. i gave her some advice, dan kyknya cukup tepat jg buat dia. now here's the funny thing: gw, yg selalu gagal dlm masalah percintaan, giving advice, and they're good advice! ya ampun, talk about not being able to practice what i preach! in turn, gw curhat ke dia ttg masalah gw. and she's been quite successful in lifting my spirits up! hey, thanks, girl! really appreciate it! =D

ada 1 ce laen yg jg cukup makan waktu pemikiran gw, but not romantically. yathi. yg skrg2 gw panggil "cinderella". ibunya lagi sakit di palu, masuk icu. now, usually, klo org msk icu, kondisinya pasti parah banget. i should know, i've been there twice, almost dying. gak tau knp, si yathi kok sepertinya selalu sial. really. blm lama ini hpnya ilang. dan sebelom itu, temennya meninggal. kasian banget. emang sih, klo di psgp gw selalu ngledekin dia. panggilan "cinderella" jg bukan utk muji, tp utk ngledek, hehehe... but we're good friends. gw bisa ngomong macem2 sama dia, apalagi klo soal gp. honestly, gw sedih liat dia selalu kena mslh. dan sakit ibunya ini sptnya her worst case to-date. keep strong, yat, believe in the best He'll give to you and your family. your friends in effatha are all praying for you.

wow. this must be one of my longest blogs so far, not including the joke and muvee announcement.

insomnia strikes again

*sigh* i guess i'm really disappointed. so disappointed in fact, i can't sleep. so here i am, 3h30 in the morning, typing blog. and in less than 9 hours, i must go to effatha for a meeting. then go again at 5h30 to sing. and after that, go to harris hotel to meet chorie to prepare for monday's event. well, who knows when i get busy, i can forget my disappointment. but i'll be a zombie for the day, because of this lack of sleep. hmph.

SAYA KESALLLLLLL!!!!

hari jumat kmrn turned out to be one of the worst days in my life. rencananya rapat acara psgp di kfc bulungan. cuma 4 org yg dateng, termsk gw. that was bad. i could use the time for something else, namely, resting. untungnya brains from those 4 persons could work and we made some decisions. tapi itu bkn hal yg gawat, gw udah tau lah anak2 effatha itu emang disiplinnya ancur banget.

yg bikin gw kesel adalah berita bhw ce yg gw lg taksir itu udah ada rencana utk married. !&%&%!@(*%!%@(!)_! why oh why. dan hari ini stlh gw sms2an sama dia, i kinda got a confirmation from her that indeed, she's being involved with someone. hmph. oh well. at least that was better than a rejection. tapi tetap aja SAYA KESALLLLLLL!!!!

If Then Else

surat berantai. it's everywhere. dulu, ya pake pos. some people were actually really, really scared when they received it, they did what was told, almost instantly. gw mgkn bakal ngelakuin hal yg sama sih, honestly.

terus email mulai populer. logically, surat berantai muncul juga lewat email. ada hoax virus. ada email2 aneh lain2nya. dan skrg, surat berantai malah bisa otomatis "merantaikan" *istilah apa tuh ye?!?!* dirinya sendiri, alias email yg isinya worm2 itu. hebat.

next, sms. it started to piss me off. klo gw gak fwd isi smsnya (yg biasanya religius), gw bakal ketiban sial, friends will go away, romance will not happen, etc etc... GEEZ!!

dan skrg, surat berantai muncul di bulletin board friendster! isinya ya sama aja. ancaman2, klo kita gak terusin post. dan berkat2, klo kita post.

now, seharusnya utk email & bb fs, it's almost effortless ya, tinggal klik forward, ato copy post. but that's not the problem. if i want to fwd something over email or bb, i'd do that. tapi gw gak demen klo pake diancem2. hey, what can a bunch of text do? put a spell on me? come on, people. you don't actually believe you'll be liked by new people a couple of days after you hit that forward button. not if you don't change your attitude or behaviour. on the other hand, if you're well-liked already, you don't need to send anything over the internet to get new friends, do you?

it's just common sense lah. save your time, save my time, save our time. cut the bullshit, stop wasting bandwidth and space.

this is fun!!

INSTANTLY CREATE COOL, STYLISH VIDEOS LIKE A PRO

Intel and muvee Kick Off Asian "Click, Style, Show" Digital Video Contest

JAKARTA, September 5, 2005 - Unleash your creativity and join in the fun. Intel and muvee Technologies, a pioneer and global leader in Instant Personal Video, invite home video and photo enthusiasts to put their talent on show by signing up for the "Click, Style, Show" digital video contest. Participants are invited to transform their raw digital video footage and pictures into cool, edited productions using muvee autoProducer software, then show off their masterpieces to compete for the title of Most Creative and Fun Video.

The online contest kicks off on September 5 and will run for five weeks until October 9. Eligible residents of Australia, China, Hong Kong, Indonesia, Malaysia, Pakistan, the Philippines, Singapore and Taiwan are encouraged to get online and experience how fast, easy and fun video styling can be.

Entrants will get a free, full-featured 30-day trial download of muvee autoProducer software, which they must then use to style their raw footage into fun music video clips not exceeding 60 seconds in duration. Each week, a maximum of six clips from each region will be shortlisted and showcased online for public voting. The public's top picks will then be automatically entered into a Grand Showcase, where a final round of public voting will be held to determine a Grand Prize winner from each region. The Grand Prize winner from each region will receive a PC system equipped with the latest Intel dual-core Pentium D processor coupled with Intel 945 Express chipset, enabling impressive multimedia capabilities and new user computing experiences to take their entertainment savvy to the next level at home.

"Turning your videos and pictures into slick productions can be fast, easy and fun," said Philip Morgan, Chief Operating Officer of muvee Technologies. "More and more people everywhere are shooting home videos and taking digital pictures. muvee autoProducer offers these folks a very simple and effective way of creating compelling content that they'll be proud to share with others. We make working with digital media easy and fun so that the results will make any user go 'wow'."

"We are pleased to be collaborating with muvee on the 'Click, Style, Show' digital video Contest," said Marta Debellis, Digital Home Brand Manager, Intel Asia Pacific's Branding and Promotions Marketing Group. "Consumers want to have a fun, pleasant and easy digital media experience on their PC. Intel is working with industry players - across hardware, technologies, initiatives and software, to develop and deliver the technology platforms required to help people unleash their natural talents in new, easy and exciting ways."

HOW TO PARTICIPATE
Entrants are to submit their entries via the contest website, click.muvee.com. Every week, from Tuesday to Sunday beginning September 13 to October 9, a maximum of six stellar clips from each of the nine regions will be shortlisted and showcased on the contest's website for the public to vote for a Clip of the Week winner. Winning clips will then be automatically entered to compete for the Grand Prize. A special souvenir from Intel and muvee will be awarded to Clip of the Week winners. Time is short so join in now! Public voting for the Grand Prize Winner is to be held during the week of October 10 through October 16, 2005.

The "Click, Style, Show" digital video Contest is open to residents of the following regions: Australia, the People's Republic of China, Hong Kong SAR, Indonesia, Malaysia, Pakistan, Singapore and Taiwan who are aged 18 and above. Entry is free of charge. Entries are to be submitted through the "Click, Style, Show" website. Entry submission closes at midnight Hong Kong Time on October 2; the contest ends at midnight Hong Kong time on October 9, 2005. The Grand Prize winner from each of the regions is to be announced during the week of October 17, 2005.

For more information and complete contest rules, please visit http://click.muvee.com.

walking dead for the day

spt yg gw tulis di post gw sebelom ini, gw baru tidur jam 5. dan jam 10 udah musti bangun lagi buat ke rumah tante epi utk makan2, ktemu tante josie. aarggghhh... having to get up so early... inhuman! so there i was, looking like a walking dead... not really sih, actually. good food, good talks. tapi panas banget! i was sweating like crazy! huh. menyebalkan.

nah skrg ini mustinya adem, soalnya abis ujan, dan mendung2 gitu, byk angin pula. but strangely, i'm sweating. hmmm... hmmm....

anyway, my "online" friend icha wrote on her blog (check out my list on the left to see her blog) about me being her "invisible friend". interesting. knp dibilang invisible? soalnya kita blm pernah ktemu. not only that, denger suara masing2 aja blm pernah. cm kontak2 lwt sms & ym. oh, the beauty of technology. katanya teknologi bisa bikin org jadi asosial? kyknya gak deh. malah jadi lebih gampang utk berkomunikasi, mnrt gw.

efek kafein

sabtu kmrn, jadwal gw lmyn full. sebelom lunch udah musti cabut ke gki pi, utk nikahan oom iwan. pake acara amplop nyelip pula, nyaris melayang tuh 100rb, hehehe... terus jam 4 gw udah musti ke effatha utk rapat psgp. secara jam 2 gw udah sampe blok m, gw beli majalah dulu di pasaraya, terus nongkrong di starbuck. frappucino mocha. 1 itungan. terus jam 4 gw cabut ke eff. spt biasa, ngaret. baru melanie yg ada. rapat baru mulai ampir jam 5. sampe jam 7. abis itu gw cabut ke le petit paris. pesen coffee float. 2 itungan. itu jg gw yg plg pertama sampe. grrrrrr.... makan, ngobrol, becanda2, minum gw abis. pesen coffee float lagi. 3 itungan. abis itu bubaran, terus gw plg bareng grace.

efek dari 3 itungan tadi adalah: SEKARANG UDAH JAM 4 DAN GW MASIH MELEK!!!!! gilaaaaaaaaa!!!!

Joke of the week

(posted by email) Secara gw lg males nulis2 blog, mending gw isi sama lawakan aja deh yee... Hehehe...

Alkisah di sebuah perusahaan besar di kawasan Keprabon, tengah melakukan beberapa tes wawancara untuk "*tidak*" menerima calon karyawan baru, tentu saja salah satu prasyaratnya adalah harus berbahasa EJD (Ejaan Jawa yg nDaksempurna).. Bagi yang tidak memahaminya nggih nyuwun sewu ... Boso Jawi ...Meniko

G : Kowe nduwe omah opo ora.....? kamu sudah punya rumah atau belum?
A : dereng.... belum.....
G : Wah kowe ora iso ketompo nang kene wah..kamu ndak bisa ketrima di sini
a : Lho kok ngaten........? lho kok begitu...???
G : Mengko kowe mesthi ngajukne utang nang perusahaan. Nanti kamu pasti ngajuin utang ke perusahaan...
a : Ah.. mboten kok, Sak janipun tiyang sepuh kulo niku sampun sugih. ah...ndak kok, sebenernya orang tua saya sudah kaya raya....
G : Yo malah ora ketompo .....ooo malah ndak ketrima...
a : Lho kok ngaten.....? lho kok begitu....?
G : Mengko kowe kerjo mung nggo hiburan, nongkrang nongkrong ae. Nanti kamu kerja cuman buat hiburan, cuman nongkrang-nongkrok thok... #@*!

G : Kowe nduwe motor opo ora....? Kamu punya motor ndak...?
b : Mboten. ....tidak punya....
G : Ora ketompo ....Tidak diterima.....
b : Lho kok mboten ketompo ? ....lho kok ndak ketrima...???
G : Mengko kowe mesthi njaluk bantuan kredit. ...Nanti kamu pasti minta bantuan kredit...
b : Sak janipun gadhah, ning tasih ten kampung, gampil mangke kulo beto ngriki. ... Sebenernya punya, cuman masih di kampung, gampang nanti saya bawa ke sini...
G : Wah malah ra ketompo.... Wah....malah ndak diterima...
b : lho kok ngoten .........lho kok begitu..???
G : Tempat parkire wis ra cukup. Tempat parkirnya udah penuh.....

G : Kowe wis lulus sarjana tenan.....? Bener kamu udah lulus sarjana?
c : sampun pak.... Sudah, Pak....
G : Ora ketompo, kene iki golek sing SMA ae, luwih manutan lan ben mbayaremurah gak diterima, di sini cari yang cuman lulusan SMA aja, lebih nurut dan biar bayarnya murah....
c : Sak janipun kulo tasih badhe skripsi sebenernya saya masih belum kelar skripsi...
G : Malah ora ketompo..... lebih ndak diterima...
c : Lho kados pundi to....? lha gimana sih......?
G : Mengko kowe kerjo mung ngetik skripsi, lek wis lulus mesti golek kerjo neng perusahaan liyo. Nanti kamu kerja cuman ngetik skripsi, dan nanti kalo udah lulus pasti nyari kerja di tempat laen.........

G : Kowe seneng guyon opo ora ? Kamu suka becanda nggak?
d : Mboten pak, kulo serius nek nyambut gawe. Tidak, Pak. Saya serius kalo kerja.
G : Ra ketompo..... Tidak diterima....
d : waa......kok ngoten? waa....kok gitu?
G : Engko konco koncomu lan anak buahmu podho stress. Nanti temen-temenmu dan anak buahmu pada stress..
d : Sak jane nggih sekedhik sekedhik seneng guyon. Sebenernya ya, sedikit-sedikit suka becanda....
G: Malah ora ketompo. Malah ndak diterima....
d : Lho kok...... lho kok..??
G: Engko kowe mung email emailan sing lucu....... Nanti kamu cuman e-mail-emailan yang lucu...

G : Kowe mau mrene numpak opo ? Tadi dateng ke sini naek apa?
e : Nitih mobil ... Naik mobil...
G : Kowe ora ketompo Kamu ndak diterima...
e : Sebabipun ? sebabnya ?
G : Saiki BBM mundhak terus, mengko kowe njaluk mundhak bayar terus Sekarang BBM naik terus, nanti kamu minta naek gaji terus..
e : Wo, kulo wau namung mbonceng, kok .... Wo.. tadi saya cuman ngikut temen, kok...
G : Tambah ora ketompo makin ndak diterima...
e : Lho, lha kok ... ? Lho, lha kok...?
G : Mengko mung gawene mbonceng mobil kantor. Ngrusuhi ! Nanti cuman bisanya ngikut mobil kantor.... Ngerepotin!

G : Anakmu akeh opo sithik ? Anakmu banyak apa sedikit?
f : Kathah pak banyak, Pak...
G : Kowe ora ketompo Kamu ndak diterima..
f : Sebabipun ? Sebabnya..?
G : Nyambut gawemu ora jenjem, mung mikir gawe uanaaaaaak terus Kamu kerja ndak konsen, cuman mikirin bikin anak meluluu.....
f : Lha wong namung anak adopsi, kok. Lha wong cuman anak adopsi, kok...
G : Tambah ora ketompo Makin ndak diterima....
f : Lho, lha kok ... ? Lho, lha kok...?
G : Gawe anak bae aras2en, opo maneh nyambut gawe Bikin anak aja males, apalagi kerja.....

G : Kowe wis ngerti gaweyanmu durung ? Kamu dah tahu kerjaanmu belum?
h : Dereng Belum
G : Kowe ora ketompo Kamu ndak diterima
h : Sebabipun ? Sebabnya
G : Arep nyambut gawe kok ora ngerti gaweyane ? Mau kerja kok ndak tahu kerjaannya...
h : Oo, nek damelan niku mpun ngertos kok Ooo...kalo kerjaan itu sudah tahu kok...
G : Tambah ora ketompo Makin ndak diterima...
h : Lho, lha kok ... ?
G : Kowe rak mung arep keminter, to ? Kamu kan cuman mau sok tahu..kan???

G : Kowe ngerti kahanan kantor kene durung Kamu tahu keadaan kantor ini belum?
k : Dereng Belum
G : Kowe ora ketompo Gak diterima
k : Sebabipun ? Sebabnya..?
G : Arep nyambut gawe kok ora ngerti kantore ? Mau kerja kok ndak tahu kantornya?
k : Wo, sekedhik2 mpun ngertos kok Wah... sedikit-sedikit sudah tahu kok.....
G : Tambah ora ketompo Makin ndak diterima
k : Lho, lha kok ... ? Lho...???
G : Kowe senengane ngudhal-udhal wewadi kantor, to ? Kamu senengnya ngubek-ubek gosip kantor kan?

G : Kowe kerep loro ? Kamu sering sakit?
m : Mboten Tidak
G : Kowe ora ketompo kamu ndak diterima
m : Sebabipun ? Sebabnya?
G : Mesthi kerep mbolos, wong arang2 gering Pasti bakal sering bolos, lha wong jarang sakit...
m : Wah, sakjanipun nggih asring Ya..sebenernya ya sering...
G : Tambah ora ketompo Makin ndak diterima....
m : Lho, lha kok ... ? Lho..?
G : Kantor iki ora nompo karyawan pileren di sini ndak mempekerjakan karyawan penyakitan....

G : Kowe biso main Internet ? Kamu bisa pake internet?
n : mBoten Ndak bisa
G : Kowe ora ketompo Kamu ndak diterima
n : Sebabipun ? Sebabnya
G : Perusahaan ora nompo BI (Buta Internet) Di sini ndak nerima orang BI
n : Wah, sakjanipun nggih saged Wah...sebenernya sih bisa..
G : Tambah ora ketompo Makin ndak diterima
n : Lho, lha kok ... ? Lho..?
G : Mesthi ora bakal nyambut gawe, kakehan dolanan Internet, to? Ngenték-entekké pulsa ! Pasti bakalan ndak kerja, kebanyakan pake internet, kan? ngabisin pulsa!!!!

G : Kowe waras opo ora? Kamu waras apa tidak ?
o : Lha, kulo nggih waras to Pak. Lha, saya ya waras dong, Pak....
G : Ra ketompo....... Tidak diterima...
o : Kenging nopo .....? Kenapa?
G : Mengko kowe mesthi ora krasan neng kene. Nanti kamu pasti ndak krasan di sini....
o : Niku rumiyin Pak, sakmeniko sampun rodo edan. Itu dulu, Pak.... sekarang sih sudah rada gila...
G : Malah ra ketompo...... Makin ndak diterima...
o : Pripun to niki....? Wah..gimana sih?
G : Mengko aku duwe saingan.......... Nanti aku punya saingan.....

Oh happy day...

(posted by email) Gw td udah capek banget di ktr. Jam 7 lwt, gw putusin utk ke effatha aja, biarpun udah telat. Sampe di sana jam 8 kurang dikit. Pelatihnya bung rensi. Tp lagunya on eagle's wings. Lgs males deh. Gw duduk aja di pinggir, sambil ikut2 dikit. Krn ngrasa gak enak, gw pindah ke depan utk lat. Eh tau2 hp gw bunyi. Kirain utk urusan intel. Ternyata dr dipsy, minta ditemenin di luar. Secara gw emang lg gak niat lat, ya gw lgs kluar aja. Hehehe...

We talked and talked. Some similarities here and there. Saling curhat lah, istilahnya. It was good. Gak sia2 gw ke eff, jd bs ngalihin pikiran gw dr kerjaan. Dan ada 1 hal yg dia kinda revealed yg bikin gw seneng.

All in all, a tiring day, but i got to end it with a happy note.

lagu yg ngeselin

gw heran, paduan suara itu khan ada empat suara: sopran, alto, tenor, bas. so why the hell would we sing a song with only 2 voices?!?!?! judul lagunya: On Eagle's Wing. gak enak banget lagunya. biasanya gw awal2 klo baru belajar lagu ya sebel2 gitu, but over time, lama2 bisa enjoy. nah itu gak berlaku utk lagu ini, sampe tadi udah kelar lat gw msh sebel. udah lagunya gak enak, ehhh cuma 2 suara. gak menantang banget deh. denger2 sih lagunya jadi cadangan in case ada suara yg gak ada, misalnya tau2 tenor gak ada yg bs nyanyi gitu. tapi tetap aja, gw gak suka lagunya.

tp kekesalan gw rada terobati soalnya tadi sempet ngobrol2. sayangnya, byk bener gangguan selama obrolan yg singkat itu. huh!

oh well. it's been a long and busy day. gw udah pny bbrp AR (action required), ato tugas yg musti gw kerjain bsk. definite tasks/actions. brrr...

2nd reportage from aksara

walah. gw kira notebook gw tuh udah cukup gede. ternyata, dtg ce, petite, thin, dan dari tasnya keluarlah sebuah notebook dgn layar 17 inci! hahahaha... boy, do i feel small right now.

aksara's not fun any longer

secara gw nanti sore mo ke effatha, dan ortu mo pergi kluar, gw pikir mendingan gw nongkrong di aksara aja, terus nanti lgs cabut ke eff. dan skrg gw "terdampar" di sini. to tell the truth, it's no longer fun. not when i'm alone. gw blg "creepy". tp amel blg "itu bukan creepy, tp melankolis". yeah, whatever. yg jelas aneh aja deh. tp ya yg jelas di sini sangat berguna utk update2 whatever apps, terus jg dl2 whatever.

Pelayanan Kasih PSGP 2005 re-visited

gw akhirnya dapet foto2 acara pelayanan kasih psgp 17 agustus kmrn dari era/ramses. wow, they bring back some memories. they make me smile, laugh, but sad at the same time. i did look like enjoying myself back then. kecuali di bbrp foto terakhir, gw udah kliatan cape. interestingly, gak ada 1 foto pun yg show me looking at the camera. yup, i don't like to pose currently. ok, back to the topic. mnrt gw acaranya cukup sukses. anak2 kliatan seneng, dan mksg gw bkn cuma anak2 bakti luhur, tp jg anak2 psgp. hehehe... acaranya cukup bagus utk ngumpulin mrk2 yg gak cukup aktif (that includes me as well). dan ngebuktiin klo anak2 psgp gak cuma pinter nyanyi, tapi juga bisa ngelakuin sesuatu yg nyata, utk ngebantu org2 laen. gw gak tau klo msh ada yg ngerasa gak puas ato gak cukup, but for starter, i'd say we did good. yeah, we did good.

next big agenda for psgp: acara rekreasi. acara ini udah disinggung sama reinnesse, katanya ada undangan ke singapore. wow, interesting! dan sabtu ini rencananya ada rapat utk ngomongin acara tsb. i'm invited. i guess they want me in as a panitia or something like that. to tell the truth, i'm excited. now, compared to pelayanan kasih, i'd say acara rekreasi ini a bit selfish, soalnya murni utk jalan2. nah, gw ngerasa kok kyknya bakal ada resistance dari segelintir org. biasa, org2 sirik. kyk wkt dulu aja taon 2003 ke lembang. tp klo psgp ngerasa we deserve a break, why not? but i don't have the detailed brief for now, jadi mendingan nanti gw denger dulu aja rencananya kyk apa. at least i'll have something to do this weekend lah.

are we ready?

still on the subject "iyank', ada posting di blognya yg mnrt gw sangat, sangat, sangat touching. ini apparently bukan iyank sendiri yg nulis, tp org laen, dan dipost oleh iyank. i took the liberty of copying and pasting the post here. i shed a tear or two wkt baca post ini. dan perkataan2nya bener2 "dalem".


http://iyankonly.blogs.friendster.com/iyanks_blog/


Bandung, Sabtu, 20 Agustus 2005

Pertama kali gua merasa dekat dengan Edo,
lewat tatapan matanya, lewat mimiknya,
ewat sambutannya yang tak terucap, di sela-sela usahanya
untuk bernafas, dia tetap menyambut hangat orang yang menjenguknya.

Entah kenapa, gua langsung menyesal gak mengenalnya dekat selama ini.
Sejak saat itu namanya selalu ada dalam doa gua dan Andy,
kami berdoa untuk kesembuhannya
dan untuk kesempatan untuk bisa lebih dekat.

Jakarta, Kamis, 25 Agustus 2005 malam Iyank telepon bilang kalo
Edo udah gak ada, kita yang di rumah menangis.
Biasanya setiap gua mendengar orang meninggal, gua langsung
berdoa, "Tuhan, terima dia di sisiMu".

Tapi malam itu doa gua "Tuhan,
Tuhan bisa menghidupkan orang mati kan?
Beri kami mujizat, ijinkan Edo hidup lagi"
Itu doa gua, gak tau kenapa. Malam itu dalam perjalanan ke
Bandung gua tetap berdoa agar Edo hidup.

Di Cikampek, Iyank dapet kabar kalo Edo stabil lagi, dia kembali.
Ini pertama kalinya dalam perjalanan akhirnya dia drop.
Sampai Bandung, terlihat sekali Edo berjuang mengatasi sakitnya,
tetap menyambut orang yang datang dengan caranya.

Bandung , Jumat, 26 Agustus 2005 pk.08.00
Edo drop lagi untuk yang kedua kali.
kita yang ada di samping tempat
tidurnya gak henti-hentinya berdoa dan bernyanyi,
tiba-tiba dia stabil lagi,
dan seolah ingin memberitahu semua orang "ini, aku ada"
dengan mencoba membuka matanya.

Jumat siang, Edo dipindahkan ke RS. Barromeus.
Secercah harapan baru karena alat-alatnya lebih canggih
dan jumat sore Edo dioperasi, lehernya
dibolongin untuk membantunya bernafas.

Jumat pk. 17.30 Edo drop lagi untuk ketiga kalinya.
1 jam dokter dan suster berusaha memompa jantungnya.
Kehendak Tuhan terlaksana : “Edo pulang ke rumah Bapa.”

Gua gak tau apa yang harus gua ucapkan,
karena selama 20 jam bergumul
dalam doa sejak kamis malam mendengar Edo
gak ada, doa yang gw ucapkan selalu,
"Tuhan, sembuhkan Edo, beri mujizatMu."
Pertama kalinya dalam hidup gua merasa doa gua dijawab Tuhan
dengan "tidak". Gua marah sama Tuhan.
Kenapa Tuhan gak beri gua kesempatan mengenal
Edo lebih dekat.

Tapi setelah sabtu gua di rumah, gua menangis sambil merenung,
gua temukan jawabnya :
Biasanya setiap gua berdoa gua selalu mengakhiri
permohonan gua dengan
"tapi Tuhan, bukan kehendakku yang terjadi, melainkan kehendakMu."
Tapi sejak gua berdoa untuk Edo, gua gak pernah ucapkan kalimat itu,
gua memaksa Tuhan untuk melaksanakan kehendak gua,
biar Edo sembuh, masih bisa dekat keluarganya dan Iyank,
dan gua bisa mengenal dia. Gua sadar,
ketika kita tidak berserah pada kehendak Tuhan, rasa frustasi
karena gagal menjadi penghancur terbesar dalam hidup kita.

Puji Tuhan, DIA segera menyadarkan gua,
ditambah lagi dengan kesaksian mamanya Edo
yang sama dengan yang gua alami, dan mamanya Edo
terang-terangan meminta ampun
kepada Tuhan karena tidak berserah,
karena memaksakan mujizat datang.

Padahal apa sih mujizat itu? Hanya kesembuhan? Ternyata bukan.
Kelahiran dan kematian ternyata bagian dari mujizat Tuhan. Gua pernah
nonton video kedokteran ttg terjadinya anak, sungguh ajaib, kalo bukan
tangan Tuhan yang bekerja gak akan pernah ada seorang bayi lahir.
Kayak gua dan mbak Budi, sesering apapun kita melakukan usaha, kalau
Tuhan belum bilang "ya" pembuahan gak akan pernah terjadi, walaupun
seluruh teori kedokteran sudah dipakai.

Begitu juga kematian.
Usus, ati, jantung, paru-paru, semua yang ada di dalam tubuh bisa
dikeluarkan dari tubuh manusia, tapi roh, bagaimana cari
mengeluarkannya? Gak ada yang bisa, kecuali Tuhan.
Jadi sebenarnya Tuhan menjawab doa gua ya?
Saat terakhir Edo drop, seluruh teman-teman gerejanya berdoa bergandeng
tangan, karena gua duduknya jauh, gua hanya menggandeng tangan Andy
sambil bernyanyi "curahkanlah kuasaMu Tuhan, mujizat terjadi di tempat
ini, curahkanlah kuasaMu Tuhan, mujizat terjadi sekarang ini".
Tuhan menjawab, mujizat itu terjadi, kesembuhan datang bersama kematian
tubuh. Edo pulang ke rumah Bapa.

Iyank menangis, itu manusiawi. Jangankan dia, gua pun menangis, semua
menangis. Iyank bilang banyak yang keinginan Edo yang belum terwujud.
Gua pun sedih berpikir demikian.
Tapi terus gua inget cerita tentang kematian Musa (Ul.34).
Udah 40 th (bener ya 40 th?) Musa memimpin bangsa Israel menuju tanah
terjanji. Cape-cape dia berjuang mengatasi segala rintangan, tapi apa
dia sampai ke tanah terjanji?
Gak. Ketika sudah hampir sampai, ketika tanah terjanji sudah terlihat dari
jauh, Tuhan bilang "Inilah negeri yang kujanjikan dengan
sumpah kepada Abraham, Ishak dan Yakub;
dengan demikian : Kepada keturunanMulah akan kuberikan
negeri ini. Aku mengijinkan engkau melihatnya dengan matamu sendiri,
tetapi engkau tidak akan menyeberang ke sana" (Ul. 34:4)
Dari awal Musa gak tau kalo dia hanya akan sampai di situ, hanya boleh
memandang negeri terjanji itu. Tapi dia gak marah sama Tuhan dengan
bilang "ah Tuhan sih gak bilang, kalo tau cuma sampe sini mah aku gak
mau cape-cape berjuang". Tapi dia menurut kehendak Tuhan.
Musa mati bukan karena sakit, walau umurnya 120th, tapi masih sehat,
masih segar bugar, tapi Tuhan mau dia pulang karena tugasnya sudah
selesai. Sebelum mati Tuhan menuntun Musa untuk memilih penggantinya,
Yosua. Dia tumpangkan tangan ke Yosua sebagai berkat bahwa
Yosua akan menjadi penerusnya.
Gua jadi berpikir, pasti Edo saat itu juga tumpang tangan ke orang yang
belum kita tahu sekarang untuk menggantikan tugasnya menjaga mamanya,
menjaga ka ute, menjaga mazda, menjaga iyank, calon suami ka ute, calon
suami mazda (mungkin icong), dan calon suami iyank.
Kita aja yang belum bisa melihatnya sekarang.

Tugas Musa selesai sampai di gerbang kota terjanji. Mungkin secara
manusiawi kita bilang, "kasihan amat, cape-cape berjuang gak boleh ikut
masuk" Tapi itulah orang-orang yang upahnya besar di surga. Dia rela
mengesampingkan keinginan duniawinya yang mungkin masih banyak, untuk
menanggapi panggilan Allah, "pulang ke KerajaanNya", karena di
sana pasti lebih indah dari keinginan-keinginan kita di dunia.

Gak cuma panggilan untuk pulang aja sebenarnya, keinginan ketika kita
masih hidup juga, kalo kita berani mengesampingkan keinginan kita untuk
menyenangkan hati Tuhan, pasti upah kita besar di surga nantinya.

Bapak juga sempet bilang, "kasihan, masih muda udah gak ada". Gua
pikir-pikir, bukannya yang kasihan kita? Edo umur 29th sudah selesai
mengerjakan semua PR yang Tuhan beri. Sedangkan kita, PR kita masih
teramat banyak, mungkin kita yang kasihan, karena bebal, gak selesai-
selesai mengerjakan PR dari Tuhan.

Minggu lalu ketika Edo tersenyum dibalik masker oksigennya, tiba-tiba
dia mengisi hati gua dengan sebuah kebaikan. Gua sadar, gua sering gak
ramah sama orang, Tapi setelah hari itu, gua mau mencoba
ramah sama siapa pun. Ketika gua bertemu dengan orang
yang biasanya gua enggan untuk bertegur sapa,
mulai saat itu, gua tegur dengan rapah (dan tulus juga lho, gak basa-basi).
Dan gua merasa Tuhan Yesus dan edo di sana bilang
"ya, begitu nda, bagus."

Edo tuh bener-bener kaya para nabi, seperti Musa dan juga Ayub yang
sakit tapi ketika dibujuk untuk meninggalkan Tuhan di gak mau, dia tetap
setia pada Tuhan ditengah sakitnya (Ayub 2:1-10)

Kata Andy, kepergian Edo bener-bener jadi pelajaran berharga bagi kita.
Siap gak kita seperti Edo saat nanti Tuhan memanggil kita.
Edo pergi bener-bener siap. 3 minggu di rumah sakit, pasti menjadikan
dia lebih dekat dengan keluarga dan Tuhan.
Dia bener-bener sudah berdamai dengan
keluarga dan Tuhan ketika berangkat ke surga.
Siap gak kita kayak dia, kalau-kalau kita secara mendadak dipanggil?

Melihat saat-saat terakhir hidup Edo, gua seperti melihat perjalanan
salib Tuhan Yesus. Ditengah kesakitannya dia tetap sadar. Baru kali ini
gua melihat orang separah Edo tapi tetap sadar dan pikirannya tetap
sehat, terus mendekati saatnya dia bilang "aku haus"
Sebelum pergi pun dia drop 3 kali.
Akhirnya dia pulang, diusia muda, sama seperti Tuhan (muda Edo 4 th).
Hari dia pulang itu hari Jumat, sama seperti kepergian Tuhan.
Dikuburkan hari Minggu, saat yang sama juga dengan kebangkitan Tuhan.
Dan gua percaya saat jasadnya tertanam, rohnya diangkat Tuhan ke surga.

Dan saat penguburannya indah banget, Roh Kudus datang dalam rupa angin
pada moment-moment tertentu upacara pemakamannya.

Kepergian edo juga mengingatkan gua bahwa bila umur gua lebih panjang,
gua akan kehilangan 10 org yang gua kasihi, Andy, bapak, ibu, mbak
anjar, mbak budi, iyank, bang Janri, mas edi, ryssa, ryan.
Edo mempersiapkan gua untuk itu.

Saat gua atau kalian mati pun, apakah nanti kita sudah punya cukup
waktu bersama?

Gua selalu ingin dekat sama kalian semua. Gua ingin kita menjadi lebih
baik, biar Tuhan Yesus dan Edo di sana tersenyum dan bilang "ya, bagus,
begitu terus, berjuang terus agar kita semua berkumpul kembali di
kerajaan Allah"

Gua sayang kalian semua.
Terima kasih Malaikat Edo.

Posted by 'Iyank' JustAGirl

Death. Inescapable.

(posted by email) On the other hand, ada 1 temen gw di friendster, namanya iyank. She's just lost her boyfriend. Dia sedih banget I feel sorry for her. Di profil dia di fs, ada foto dia & jenazah conya. Gw mrinding banget liatnya. Hal spt ini yg gw gak mo terjadi ke pacar gw (if i ever get one, that is), & keluarga gw. Bikin org lain sedih. Now, i still believe i'll die young. And soon. Why? Because i'm a violent person. Gw gampang marah. Dan gw udah bbrp kali ada dlm situasi yg cukup panas. I can get killed. Dan jg, i'm kinda sub-consciously hoping i'll catch cancer or something. Sad. But, on the other hand, i'm very curious to know how people will react when they hear my dying. Org akan ketauan popularitas sebenarnya ketika dia meninggal. Not that i'm worried about my popularity, though.

I'm so happy

(posted by email) Yay! Artikel pertama gw yg msk mjlh di thn 2005! Dan bukan di infokomputer pula. Di animonster! Yaah, bkn artikel beneran sih. Advertorial. Ttg intel pentium extreme edition. Tp gw yg tulis. Hehehe... I'm so proud of myself!

*yawn*

(posted by email) Gw capek. Capek banget! Kyknya pengen tidur & gak bangun2 lg. Aneh. Pdhl td di ktr gak repot2 amat.

back in aksara!

ini kedua kalinya gw nongkrong di wifi, dgn notebook gw (what a scary thought, eh?) aneh nih, sepi banget. gw emang gak pernah ke sini klo hari minggu. tapi seinget gw, donny (ipar gw) pernah blg klo hari minggu ini ramenya amit2. but here i am, at the exact same spot (di pojok deket tembok & dapur, soalnya di bawah kursi ada colokan listrik), with noone but the waiters/waitresses. tadi ada sih bbrp org, tapi mrk cuma makan bentar terus cabut. kinda creepy. and brings back those memories again...

seperti biasa, gw ke sini klo ada butuhnya doank, yaitu: update2 software. drpd download pake dialup cbn, which is slow, ato starone/im3, which is fast, tapi mahal, ya mending gw ke sini khan. hehehe... dasar pelit!

hari ini curiously enough internetnya rada slow. mgkn di atas byk yg pake ya, assuming cafe/rest yg di atas jg nyediain wifi. tapi namanya jg gratisan, gak bisa protes lah.

wow!!

ternyata obat yg dikasih dokter gw itu (baca blog gw tgl 24 agustus: "plin-plan") is really strong. 5 hari gw minum antibiotik "biasa", bengkak di kaki gw ya gitu2 aja. obat yg dia kasih, gw baru minum 1, ehhhhh bengkak di kaki gw lgs pecah. ckckck... really, really, really strong! efek jeleknya ya sprei & sarung bantal gw lgs penuh darah gitu, tp plg gak kaki gw gak sesakit kmrn2. *phew*

tapi belom mati!

wah! yathi baru aja kecolongan di kos. dompet, hp, bahkan ALKITAB digondol! dan seremnya, semua itu diambil di kamarnya wkt dia lg tidur, di kamarnya itu! omigod... luckily cuma barang2 yg ilang. gw mrinding mikirin the bad possibilities. she's very, very lucky.

gw blg, moga2 perampoknya ditabrak bis. tapi belom mati. terus dilindes mobil. tapi belom mati. terus dilindes motor trail. tapi belom mati. terus dilindes mobil lagi sampe mental ke got. tapi belom mati. gotnya penuh dgn air2 hitam yg beracun. tapi belom mati. banjir. tapi belom mati. anyut. tapi belom mati. terus sampe ke tempat penampungan limbah di deket kuningan. tapi belom mati. ngambang 5 hari. tapi belom mati. terus penampungan limbahnya dikuras. tapi belom mati. dia ngendep di dasar 5 hari lagi. tapi belom mati. terus digigitin anjing2 iseng. tapi belom mati. sunburn. tapi belom mati. terus ditangkep polisi. tapi belom mati. dipenjara. tapi belom mati. disodomi polisi2 homo. tapi belom mati. dihukum mati. ya akhirnya mati lah.

hahaha... sadis banget ya gw? eniwei, just glad that she's physically okay. ketawa itu kyknya lmyn ampuh utk nglupain sedih ato pengalaman buruk. yg gw gak abis pikir, ngapain pula sih tuh perampok ngambil alkitab?? mo meriksa kali ya, ngrampok itu dosa apa gak? religious thief. hmmm... kok gw mendadak dapet ide utk satu cerita ya... menarik... tapi di akhir cerita, gw mo perampoknya gak mati, padahal abis ketabrak bis *teteppppppppppppp*

plin-plan

gw rasanya capek banget. mind & body. tp gw seneng. more than anything. mgkn gara2 tadi abis chatting. dan sms. ngomongin macem2. dan kayaknya blogger lagi ikut seneng sama gw, soalnya tumben banget kali ini lmyn cepet aksesnya. hehehe... plg gak, ada hal yg bisa ngalihin perhatian gw gak cuma utk mikirin kantor (yg kyknya makin lama makin aneh & ngeselin), kerjaan (see my previous post), dan kaki gw.

maka itu pula kyknya gw bakal jadi org plin-plan ("bakal"?!?! kyknya emang dari dulu plin-plan deh!! *suara protes*), soalnya gw mutusin utk balik lagi ke jalan yg benar... euh... balik ke plan semua. ini gara2 rianti jg sih. huuuuhhhh... *bcanda, ri! =P*

soal kaki, tadi gw ke dokter. di deket blok m. begitu masuk, ternyata dokternya udah tua. dan di kursi roda. laki-laki. orgnya rada aneh. tapi lmyn lucu. uniknya, wkt nyokap tanya kapan musti balik ke dia, dokternya blg gak usah balik. soalnya bakal sembuh. dijamin, dia blg. hueeeebaaaattttttt!!! now let's see if his prescribed medicines really do wonder. hehehe...

Old?

(posted by email) Children. Why would i want them? Lotsa headaches. My experience with my niece & the psgp event are two proofs. But then Rianti reminded me: who's going to take care of you when you're old? Gee... Never thought of that. I always think i'll die young, so the prospect of living old has never entered my mind. But let's just assume Rianti was right, and i'll die old. Yikes! What a scary thought! Hmph... Does this mean i've been wrong all alone? I really don't know. And current situations are preventing me from thinking about that matter for long. I've been busy, and i'll get VERY, VERY busy these coming week. I've already skipped tonight's psgp just to get some rest. I think i've been pushing my body too hard. *sigh*

pictures, pictures

posting thru blogger's website is really a pain in the you-know-what. don't understand what takes it so long to load the "post" page.

anyways. thought i should share some pics i took from the event. and here they are:


these two girls are blind, i believe. and yet, their talents in singing are way beyond mine. no, i'm not being modest. seriously. when you think that they can't see or read the songs ("normally", i might add, even though they can technically, using braille), it's so amazing. i'm nothing compared to them. and when they sang, i must admit i shed a tear or two. only a mindless person wouldn't be touched when these girls sing. and when they were done, i gave them a standing ovation. heck, i'm having goosebumps typing this down, remembering the event.


these kids were my charges during the games. the games were coloring, puzzle, and collecting balloons. and they didn't seem much like intellectually-challenged kids when they did those games. no. i saw them as normal kids, having fun.

Strange...

(posted by email) Whew! Uploaded all 32 pics i took from yesterday's event. From home. And with dial-up. Took almost 2 hours. Dunno why i insisted myself to do that. Strange...

Acting the part

(posted by email) I've said on my earlier post that i didn't enjoy the event. Did i? Yathi said i looked happy with the kids. She said, "Tp gw liat lo kaka' yg baik deh td phen. G gak tau itu emang lo suka sm tuh anak2 atw lo skdr brusha mnjlnkan peran lo dg sebaik2nya, tp klu emang bner itu cm skdr berperan, lo sangat brhsl." Uplifting words, indeed. Now, is she correct? Was i pretending? Was i trying to be something i wasn't? Don't think so. I was given a task, and i tried my best to do it. And do it right. That's why i'm so tired now. Working at something you don't like is harder, because you don't enjoy it.

I'm now questioning myself: why the hell did i bother to be involved in the event? Maybe because it was a psgp event. But i think, really, it was because "the girl" asked me. And being "in a crush" as i was, i jumped at the opportunity. To impress her, maybe? Dunno... *sigh* And now here i am, feeling tired and empty.

Oh well. At least yathi got some nice words for me: "Tp apa yg lo kerjain dg baik & dg kesel trnyata jd berkat buat org lain."

Abort confirmed

(posted by email) The psgp program left a bad taste in my mouth. I'm just awful at interacting with children. No, that's not correct. I'm not awful. I hate interacting with children. That's why i chose to sing and join psgp instead of PA or PT. So, i was miserable the whole day. Sure, i laughed, sang, and did other things, but my heart wasn't in it. And when it was over, i couldn't wait to go home as soon as possible. Sorry, God.

That brings me to "the girl". I think she enjoyed doing the program. Good for her. Not good for me. I see "potential clashes". Arguments. Heated discussions. Headache all over again. It's not possible. So, i've made a decision to "abort" my crush. It's simple.

Deja vu all over again

(posted by email) Had dinner with yathie. We talked a lot. And the topic was psgp. Despite what i said earlier in this blog, i love and care about psgp so much i just can't ignore there are problems with the choir. And what worries me is those are the same problems we had before i left. Geez... I'm speechless. What problems? Politics! Motivation! "Worldly" concepts, if you ask me. Come on, people! We're a church organization, for God's sake (no pun intended). There should be no politics. We're SERVING God together. Why must there be politics? And motivation. There should be only one motivation: serving God. That's it. I may not be a good christian, i must admit, but i do know what my purpose is (and was, and has been) when i'm with psgp.

Anyway, yathie pointed out that people like me, her, and others who do care about psgp should voice our concerns out. Oh, i'd love to. But where? When i was in the bulletin, i could write something. But now? *sigh*

Why i always come back to psgp? Because it's my calling. Now, what is your calling?

The boring side of me

(posted by email) I like singing. No, make that: i love singing. But i HATE dancing. And i don't like to sing with... how is it called... movements? Yeah. Basically i'm a boring person. I stand still when i sing. So sue me. That's why i hated this night's session. Because we'll have to sing AND dance on august 17. Damn it! I may have re-entered psgp too soon.

All those rehearsals and lotsa announcements were all added up, and we finished at 10h05. Omigod. So late! Well, i maybe a little bit subjective here, since i didn't enjoy it. Anyway, after we finished, nola (or the FASHION DESIGNER as i called her in my old blog) prepared some snacks because she celebrated her bday last week. I didn't bother to stay and eat. Instead, i went straight away, and a taxi was conveniently waiting. And here i am. Now, the question is: would i stay and eat if it was someone else? Not likely. In this case, i was too tired already. Would i stay if THE GIRL asked me to? Now that's hard to answer. Hahaha... Probably not, but i'd tell her my reason and said sorry, which i didn't in nola's case. Hehehe...

On a different note, there's been some changes at the office. BAWANG's authority is cut, and Didin is now a deputy manager. That's quite a relief. What i'm still not satisfied until BAWANG leaves for good.

Damn. I'm so full of rants tonight or what?

Connecting...

(posted by email) This is a small, small world afterall. I mean it. I just came back from a wedding of a work colleague of mine. There, i met so many old friends who have been out of touch for a very long time! So many of us are actually connected thru unexpected people. Damn! I still can't believe it. Wedding parties usually bored me to death, but not this one.

Removable skin

(Posted by email) Ouch! Ouch! I got hurt easily, nowadays. Physically, i mean. It's my skin. There are wounds all over my body. Notably on my legs and arms. It's the stings that bothers me, not the way my skin appears. Like last night, for example. I was in the reunion when i felt something strange on my right elbow. It turned out a small area of my skin was coming off. Geez... So easily. I guess i was lucky it didn't bleed. What a delicate skin i have.

For the beauty of the earth

By John Rutter

For the beauty of the earth. For the beauty of the skies. For the love which from our birth. Over and around us lies, over and around us lies. Lord of all, to Thee we raise this our joyful hymn of praise.

For the beauty of each hour. Of the day and of the night. Hill and vale, and tree and flower. Sun and moon and stars of light. Sun and moon and stars of light. Lord of all, to Thee we raise this our joyful hymn of praise.

For the joy of human love. Brother, sister, parent, child. Friends on earth, and friends above. For all gentle thoughts and mild, for all gentle thoughts and mild. Lord of all, to Thee we raise this our joyful hymn of praise.

For each perfect gift of Thine. To our race so freely given. Graces human and divine. Flowers of earth and buds of heaven, flowers of earth and buds of heaven. Lord of all, to Thee we raise this our joyful hymn of praise. This our joyful hymn of praise.

ABORT! ABORT!

(posted by email) I'm having SERIOUS doubt about my current crush. Very SERIOUS. And there's a BIG probability for me to abort this crush. My logics are taking control of my mind, beating my emotions.

Yawn...

(posted by email) Wow. I slept like a pig (or whatever animal usually used when you sleep for a long time). And here i am, 4h30 in the morning. I didn't know sleeping needs breaks! Hahaha... So i woke up at 3h, feeling thirsty, and went down for a glass of water. Naturally, i was refreshed up a bit, so i couldn't go back to sleep right away. Thank God i now have a laptop. So i went online, and it was friendster time! *oo what else lah?!* Checked bulletin boards, came across a couple of funny ones, and also gave a testimonial for dipsy. Then i got bored, and turned to my trusted ngage to write this blog.

Thinking of what i'm going to do today, i'm blank. Sure, the usual stuff like daily reports, summary, and all. But i think i'm missing a big one. Oh well. Going to check my ARs at the office.

Speaking of the office, i was a total wreck yesterday. With only 2 hours of sleep after doing the monthly report (that explains why i slept so long just now), and more reports during the day. I was so out of it, i had to revise & resend one particular report 5 times! What a shame. Thankfully i didn't miss any deadlines. Considering that i was practically alone in doing those reports (renya, the account executive, was absent) & the condition i was in, i'm quite proud of myself. Thanks, but no applause please, just throw the money. Hahaha...

i'm the luckiest person in the world

(posted by email) A sulking parent! Can't believe my luck. I'm very lucky. Everybody will be very envious.

Awww...

(posted by email) Chatted with rianti a few days back. It was about "the girl". She was very excited, the very same reaction my other friend had. Strange. Is the prospect of me having a crush so out of this world? Hahaha...

Canada, here she comes!

(posted by email) I skipped psgp last night to meet amel. And that meant i didn't get to see "the girl". But it was ok lah, since amel is going to canada next week for about 1.5 month. And of course, i wanted to hear new, juicy gossips! Hahaha...

There was one hot gossip, involving one of my friend. Can't give details, unfortunately. Not yet.

We didn't chat for long, though, because she still had lots to do.

Happy traveling, mel!

There's this girl...

(posted by email) Got an sms this morning when i turned my mobile on. It was from her. Her. The one girl who's been in my mind since day one. And that was less than 2 weeks ago. Anyways, she asked whether i'd come to the psgp's social program on august 17. I said i'd probably come.

Boy, was i glad when i received that sms.

Now, i'm not sure yet if i'm having a crush on her, but being around her certainly made me happier than normal. There's one potential obstacle, though: she's older than me. That's a MAJOR obstacle. Hmph...

And tomorrow i probably am not going to see her since i'll have an appointment with amel at ps. Oh well. There's always next wednesday.

Old friends

(posted by email) Went for a late dinner with reinnesse, kak nancy, ully, & dipsy, after the service at kharisma. It was a good way for me to get a feeling on what's what & who's who in gp effatha, and especially in psgp in particular. Oh. That's just me using big words. In a much simpler word: gossip! Hahaha...

Naturally, i felt at home. I've known these people for quite some time now. I think ully was quite surprised to see me there. We updated each other in no time. Even with dipsy,whose real name i'm still not sure what. I've just known her for about a week now, but somehow we just clicked. Also with alda, who wasn't at the dinner, btw. We've known each other for about a week, but we can talk like two old friends.

I really like this current "incarnation" of psgp. I've said this before and i'll say it again: i came back just in time! And i'm proud to be a part of it!

blah blah blah

i'm in aksara now, typing this blog on my notebook, and with wifi, of course. it feels strange and a bit creepy. i usually went here with my sis, her hubby, and chelsea. and we stayed veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy loooooooooooong. now i'm all alone (not counting other guests and waiters, d'oh!) and i'm sitting on the same spot we usually take. weird. no, not weird. sad. i feel sad. they'll be back, some time in the future, but for now, i can't help remembering talking, joking, and doing everything we did here. i miss them.

Power is everything

(posted by email) I lost my power. That's it. My previously good singing prowess has disappeared. I can feel it, and kak daisy confirmed it. That means i'd have to start all over again. Ahhh... Becoming a rookie, again... But how can i lost it? The only possible explanation i can think of is that i was away from singing for too long. The last time i trained, properly, was with simplicita choir for gramedia's christmas celebration in 2003/2004. That was 1,5 years ago. After that, it was sporadic. Especially after i had my surgery.

No, don't get me wrong here. I can still sing. I can still read the notes. Those are easy. Zero effort. What i lost is power. I can't turn my volume up AND still sing properly. I also lost the ability to sing very low notes, one thing i could do quite easily in the part.

Now what i've got to do is to get as many "singing hours" as i can. Singing was one thing where i stood out. I'm determined to be able to stand out again!

The good and bad things of being pick

(posted by email) Swollen blood vessel. Sounds scary. That's what's causing the brownish circle on my right eye. Nothing critical, though. Medicines are enough.

The good thing is, i get two stay out of office for 2 days. Obviously, i have some discomfort seeing, but the appointments with the doctor all happened during the day. That's why i couldn't come to office.

The break gave me time to familiarize myself with my new computer. I've been tinkering with it since day one. I also discovered the joy (and also pain) of video conferencing. At least, now, my sis & donny can see chelsea in real time.

I also had the chance to tidy up my ipod. It's now fully synchronized with my notebook. The downside is it takes about 12gigs of harddisk space for all my ipod's songs.

Next is, naturally, the internet. I must put some real strong mental dampeners in my mind to not getting carried away and stay connected for too long.

And while on the subject of internet, i couldn't resist checking friendster again to see this girl. And i was suprised to see that she's older than my sis! Wow! That's a big no-no. It's kind of reminder for me to stay on track. Hmmm...

3-in-1

(posted by email) Wow! So many things've happened last week.

First, I NOW HAVE A COMPUTER! Hahaha... Yeah, after being undecided for so long, i went to buy a laptop. At the computer exhibition. It's an acer aspire, so it's more a desktop replacement than a notebook. It has a nice spec, so i won't be worrying about upgrading soon (read= who am i kidding here?!) Hahaha... On a more serious note, i won't have to ask didin for it division's laptop anymore, everytime i need to do something from home.

Second. I'm going to a doctor to check my right eye, which has been bugging me for a week now. Hopefully it's not anything serious.

Third. It was reinnesse's bday last saturday. He invited the choir to his house for a little party. It was my chance of getting re-acquainted with the choir, especially the new guys & gals. "new" from my perspective, btw. And i wasn't disappointed. I'd say this "version" of psgp is the most close-knitted one i've ever been in. Everyone's getting along just fine, and i feel welcomed. I'm getting more convinced i made the right decision. However, i feel intrigued when i see this particular girl. I'm sure i'd never met or known her before, but she added me in friendster. She was also very nice to me that night. Interesting. I can't deny the fact that i'm attracted. There's one big turn off, however. She's older than me. In fact, at least according to her profile in friendster, she's almost as old as my sister. Damn! Hahaha...

"what is ipod?"

(posted by email) I still can't believe i'd hear someone say: "hey, what does an ipod do?" What the?! But i heard it just today. From someone who knows how to use computers, nonetheless. It amazed me. Really. To be fair, ipod is still somewhat new here. But it's now almost synonymous with "mp3 player", much as "walkman" is synonymous with portable cassette player. Heck, i bought mine, because it's an ipod, not just "an mp3 player". Otherwise i'd buy one of those creative jukeboxes. So what am i saying here? I'm saying that as someone who works in an IT industry, i still need to realize that there are people who know zip about IT. Perhaps i can think of some topics to write. Hmmm... That gives me an idea or two. Let's see... But i'd need a computer first. I must go to FKI!

not a good day

(posted by email) my cold is getting worse. luckily i don't have a running nose *note: how scary it is to imagine seeing a nose running around on its own*, but there's something wrong with my eyes. can't seem to focus correctly. hmmm.. maybe i need one of those autofocusing sony ericsson k750i's ya. oh well.

 

while on the subject of phones, my n-gage has been acting up again. i suspect it's because of agile messenger. i've removed it, and hopefully the problems will go away. my other phone, or rather, my cdma account, has been re-activated. it's been de-activated for over a month because i over-used it for internet. what a bum.

 

in the meantime, i don't have the spirit right now to do anything. there's one presentation has to be done by tomorrow the latest. let's see if i can borrow a laptop and do it at home.

the more things change, the more they stay the same

(posted by email) My first "show" with psgp in almost two years. I expected i'd struggle to keep up with the "younger" ones, learning new songs, getting acquainted with new people. Yet, there i was, almost going solo. Yeah, if reinesse didn't show up, it was a certain i'd sing solo. Not that i'm complaining, though. I can adjust myself (and my voice's power) accordingly, quite easily. It's what i did previously. But i'm really concerned. No new male members! This is a step backward for the choir. I guess this is a sign that it was the right time for me to rejoin. Oh well. But i'm now in just for the singing. And i sing not to prove anything to anyone. I'm there to keep my promise i made 11 years ago.

Been away for too long

(posted by email) My singing ability is rusty! I didn't realize it on monday, coz kak daisy wasn't there. Today, she told me right away. And i felt it myself. Damn! And this sunday psgp will sing at the 8 o'clock service. In the morning! What a nice way to start, eh? Hahaha... And to make things more interesting, there'll only be 3 of us for the bass. Kak daisy has stated that only those who came and practice today can sing on sunday. Fortunately i knew one of the two songs. Unfortunately, i've never felt comfortable singing it. Oh well, it's a challenge, right? And anyway, i always liked sitting in the front of the church with the choir. It's a privilege. And nothing can take it away from me.

Back in the loop

(posted by email) Well, i said i was going to rejoin paduan suara gerakan pemuda effatha. And i did. Under an unfortunate circumstance, however. I sent a message to kak nancy, asking if there was going to be a practice tonight. And then she called me. And she brought a sad news: feris was dead. Feris was one of the most unselfish guys at effatha, i must say. I had the chance to work with him once so many years ago, and i saw how full of energy he was. It turned out that he always worked hard at everything he did. And it took a toll. I heard he had a stroke. And the cause of his death is coroner related. I'm sad.

The funny thing was, if i wasn't planning on coming back, i wouldn't have known about his death at all. This made me sure that i made the right decision.

The practice itself was a mess. It didn't begin until 20h50. And we had to sing at the service. Luckily the chose a very familiar song, one that i like so much. So no problem there. Back to the practice, things were actually worse than when i left. So few people. I didn't have the time to ask around whether it was a one-off or not. I hope i can somehow contribute to this choir again. For this, i must give a big thanks to kak brenda/jeff, who opened my heart and eyes.

One more thing. There was nola. I had a crush on her back before i "retired". But the relationship became so bad, i hated her very much. I once wrote an article in the church's youth magazine, with "friendship" as the theme. In it, i actually ripped on her, in a way that only she, and some friends who knew the situations, could understood. And one person called me. She told me my article hit the spot. Bullseye! Hahaha... So, naturally, i expected myself to feel something when i came to the practice. She is, afterall, the choir's president. And i think i still feel some animosity towards her, but hey, i'm a grown up man, and i'm better than that.

The story of me being sentimental

(posted by email) There she goes, there she goes again... *sixpence none the richer* What an appropriate song for my sister. She went thru all those unnecessary troubles to bring her daughter here, to be kept under the clutches of our parents. No, i wasn't joking. I still think it's a bad idea to separate a child from the parents. And now she realized what i'd been saying was right. Too bad. I doubt my parents can be two good guardians. Heck, look at me! I'm just praying Chelsea won't have to stay long here. When my sis & hubbie are settled, they'll pick her up. In the mean time, i'll have to act as a watcher. *sigh*

That leads me to the topic of me getting settled. Now, i'm quite happy being what i am, thank you. But if people ask me of a significant other, the answer is a big NO. I'm quite aware of myself, to know that the solitary life is good enough. Sure, i enjoy some companies here and there, but i'm not going to drag a poor girl into my bizarre life. And i don't want to be held responsible for creating children who are as strange as me. Sorry, world!

That being said, i sure do like those time i spent with this one particular girl. Hell, i even went the distance and said for movie, meal, and coffee. Hahaha... And i must admit i had a crush on her once. She's a good friend. Keeps updating me of any new happenings (or: GOSSIPS!) at gramedia. Doesn't mind being annoyed (or at least she's a good pretender, hahaha...). Do i like her? As a good friend, yes. Period. End of story. No more questions! Hahaha...

batman begins

(posted by email) Wow. My first movie in more than a year. And what a movie it was: batman begins. But somehow i wasn't impressed. Dunno why. It's got lotsa explosions, actions, basically everything needed to make a good action movie. The story itself reminds me of knightquest, a story where batman tried to regain his mantle from azrael. From his ninja training up to his test, when he was asked to kill.

I couldn't help myself and wished for liam neeson to somehow draw a lightsaber. You know, from star wars episode i.

Too bad the "arkham asylum" was translated to a mere RSJ.

And the wayne manor? Isn't that the xavier mansion? Look the same to me.

All in all, not bad. But it could've been better. Or maybe i was just a fan who knows too many batman stories and wishes for more! Hahaha...

Next on my list are fantastic four and sin city.

Charismatics...

(posted by email)
1. Clapping while singing
2. Repeating song over and over
3. Long, ass kissing prayers

Yup, i'm talking about those charismatics. Let me elaborate more on those three.

1. I don't mind clapping while singing, IF, i'm in a party or in a concert. Not in a service! Oh, and don't give me that "you're not praising God if you're not clapping" bullshit.

2. Songs have verses and refrains, of course. In a song book, any song book, you'll find "directions" on how to sing a song, ie. "go to refrain after this" or "repeat refrain twice". But these charismatics just feel the need to emphasize, so they'll repeat songs over and over and over... Even longer than the energizer bunny would go! If you want to sing so badly, can't you PLEASE do it in your own time? Not everybody is a charismatic, you know?

3. Charismatics usually pray for a VERY long time. For all prayers. Today, just for a meal's prayer, it took 10 minutes. Good gracious! And it was full of ass kissing. Why won't you just get to the point? Again, if you feel you've a lot to pray, please do it in your own time? Not everybody needs to hear you kiss someone's ass.

Hmph. Make no mistake, i'm a christian. But still i dislike the way these people do their religion chores. To make it even worse, some of them even think like everyone else is inferior. I was in a service where the priestess (yup, a lady priest) went on and on about the catholics, the protestants, the moslems, the hindus, and the buddhists. And only about the bad things. Damn! It made me very sick, i left before she finished. Hey, i believe my God is the one and only, but i don't think that gives me the right to tell people their religion is wrong.

I'm going back

(posted by email) I'm getting more and more itchy to go back singing. With a choir. And as simplicita looks out of reach for now, PSGP would be my best option. What makes me want to go back? Many things. But one of the most important is kak brenda's words (hint: see my previous post). Yesterday i was in a small discussion with judica, melissa, and maretha, on churches and services. It got me thinking of a promise i haven't been keeping for almost a year now.

I also managed to create playlist on my ipod, so i could separate my gospel and indonesian songs, among others. I can relive my gramedia days, when i just fired up winamp and played the gospel songs. In the past, i'd feel weird if i hadn't listened to a gospel song for more than a day. I want to have those feeling back.

Another consideration is i've been feeling quite empty nowadays. No social life. Work, work, work. Now that i've passed my probation and have been made a permanent employee, i think i can spare a little bit of time to do other things.

My plan is to start after my sis go back to sydney. I won't miss any time while she's here. Heck, it'll probably take 2 years before we can see each other again.

It'll be awkward, popping up and rejoining the choir, no doubt. Stephen Alexander Yoshua Warouw, eat your pride away!

A blast from the past

(posted by e-mail) Met kak brenda (real name: jeff) saturday at tante hetty's party. We talked. It's been quite some time since i last met him. Turned out he's married. Whoa! Finally! Hahaha... Naturally, he asked me when i'll tie the knot. And my answer was, as usual, "Ah, i don't know. Don't think it's really important." This time, he got me thinking by saying, "Well, that's what you think. But you don't know what HE thinks." Touché. Don't want to get too religious here, but somehow i think he's right. I haven't been quite faithful enough these days. Then he added some more, "I heard you quit the choir. Maybe because you think it's the right thing to do. But what HE thinks may not be the same." Damn! I couldn't argue there. I always thought i could always serve HIM differently. Like the bulletin. Only then it folded. I tried the gramedia choir. Then i quit gramedia. I just can't find the time. Or have i been sub-consciously avoiding the time? *sigh* Dunno. I really don't know. And i'm not ready to go back. Not yet.

I don't have a life

(posted from e-mail) *sigh* so many things to do at the office, i've no energy left to do anything else. not even opening my gmail account. so, if any of you reading this sent me e-mails to my gmail account, forgive me if i haven't replied. i'd prefer if you re-send to my other account. the same user-name as my gmail, just change the domain to @bluebottle.com. easy, huh? don't want to get spammed by writing the whole address here, btw. heheheh...

 

my habits of going online with agile messenger on my n-gage also lessens. sending sms jokes? sorry, not available. the good thing is, my mobile bill is going down considerably. who cares if my social life suffers because of it, hahaha...

 

2 more weeks until my sis returns with chelsea. my sis & hubbie think it'd be better for all if chelsea stays home, not in australia. easier for them to work (or looking for work, currently), and probably will make our parents happier. go figure. i still think it'd be a bad idea to separate a child from the parents. even if it's only for a year or two.

 

 

I'm so tired

eventnya udah kelar kmrn. damn, it was so exhausting. tapi untungnya all ran smoothly deh. media turnup was very good. ada 2 tv pula! yay!